Tag: real

Pyrrhic Victories

Why even try

In the end

Why bother

To believe

There’s just

Disappointment

And a lack 

Of enjoyment

No matter what

We try to achieve

2

Straight Up

If you knew

Anything about me

You’d know that shit

Isn’t my style

I’d say

To your face

That you’re a cunt

And not hide it

Behind a smile

6

Telling It As I See It

It’s not that I’m inconsiderate

Or incapable of being kind

But when I’m surrounded by idiots

I just have to speak my mind

Never A Truer Word (Unspoken)

“If you haven’t got anything nice to say,

Don’t say anything at all.”

*Silence*

(Originally Posted 15.02.2020)

4

Taking Back Control

I know what you did

That day

How you made sure

Your pain

Stopped

Were You Afraid Of Dying?

It
was
awful
to see
you
waste
away

Neither
of us
knowing
why

Now
my
only
hope

Is
you
are
smoking
dope

At
that
great
gig in
the
sky

Xxx

(Originally Posted 07.09.2020)

2

In The Aftermath

I don’t
know
what you
expected

You knew
something
inside me
had changed

It wasn’t
just your
advances
I rejected

It was
from
everyone
I abstained

Robotic

Take
that
look
off
your
face

You
can
hardly
be
surprised

You
know
my heart
cannot
race

And
I’m
dead
behind
the
eyes

(Originally Posted 04.08.2020)

3

Wow Part #4

I can tell

That there are posts

I’ve written to please

An audience

But there are a few

That make me freeze

As the pain I was in

Is obvious

It’s The Small Things That Hurt The Most

How long does it take

To reach for one mug

Or only set out one plate

To programme the heating

To click on at six

Instead of doing it myself at eight

To only buy

One pint of milk

Or get one lottery ticket

To stop saying hello

As I enter the house

Because you

Are no longer in it

(Originally Posted 14.05.2020)

4

Altered Images

Was it real

Was it true?

Or was it just

My version of you?

Ambiguity

Is
it
real

What
you
see?

Or
is it
just

Your
version
of me?

(Originally Posted 27.04.2020)

6

‘Show Me, Show Me, Show Me…’

I don’t feel you with me anymore
When you’ve always been in my heart
I mean I know that you’re dead, sure
As your cancer tore us apart

But lately I’ve been missing you
When I never used to have to look
I’m beginning to think I imagined you
Like a character from a book

I need you to show me something
Just give me a little sign
That our connection still exists, somehow,
And I’m not losing my mind

It doesn’t matter what method you choose
And I’m not too fussed about when
I just need you to do it
As I cannot lose you again

Just

I don’t really want to die.

At least I don’t think I do.

I just want the pain to stop.

Every day is a battle I have less and less desire to fight.

Every day is an experience I have less and less desire to enjoy.

Every day is a puzzle I have less and less desire to complete.

I just want that spark back.

I just want you back.

I just want you.

(Originally Posted 11.04.2019)

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A Heart Of Darkness

You can wear

Flowers in your hair

Use your words

So elegantly

But it matters not

I couldn’t care a jot

For you’ll always be ugly

To me

19

Transgressions

In the beginning

I would always try

To be as honest as I could be

But in the end I fell

So far from the truth

That the line was a dot to me

16

Blunt

I
wish
you
were
here
with
me

But
instead
I’m
all
alone

If
only
you
would
write
a letter

Or
call
me on
the
phone

It
would
be so
wonderful
to facetime

Or
if
you
texted
me
instead

But
I know
you
won’t
do any
of these

You
can’t

Because
you’re
dead

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