Tag: regret

Late To The Party

If only you

Would ask me now

Instead

Of way back when

Because I’d say yes

And strongly suggest

That we stay anything

But friends

2

Emergency Exits

Thinking back

To that night

A split decision

And your plane

Took flight

If I’d known then

What I do now

I’d have grabbed

Your hand

And never

Let go

3

Those Left Behind

I’m relieved to read

Your memories

Have now started

To blend

As heaven knows

With enough guilt

I already

Must contend

2

Back Tracking

I remember

When you asked

And all too quckly

I said no

Now I wonder

Having made that blunder

Just how far

I would go

6

What An (Ass)ignation

And so

It’s farewell

On the longest

Night ever

For we must

Now part ways

At this break

In the weather

And although

Seeing you

Truly was

A pleasure

I know not

To repeat

Such a foolish

Endeavour

4

Fucking Things Up

I didn’t mean

For you to leave

All I needed

Was a break

And now you’ve gone

All I do is dwell on

My unintentional

Mistake

0

Ruing The Day

When you asked me

If I loved you

How I wish

That I’d said no

Then my being exploited

Could’ve been avoided

And this pain

I’d never have known

6

Blood Money

I can’t take it

She said

It doesn’t feel right

I’m really not proud

Of what I did

That night

You’ve no need to feel bad

He said

Or have any regrets

Just enjoy your freedom

As you’ve paid off

Your debts

2

Pushover

Sometimes

I regret

What I said

And how often

I showed you

The door

As it never seemed

To matter

How your heart

Was shattered

You’d always

Come back

For more

0

All This For Nothing

When I asked how long

You’d wait for me

“Until the end of the world”

You said

Yet it only took seconds

When her lips beckoned

For you to fuck her

Instead

13

Your Alloted Time Slot

You must start moving on

My friend

As it won’t be long

Until the end

And when you look back

You’ll rue the day

That you gave all

Of your time away

Overheard

All
you
do is
bitch
and
moan

And
I listen,
with
a sigh

For you
can’t
seem
to see
what
I do

That’s
your
life,
passing
you by

(Originally Posted 20.02.2020)

2

Sincerity

If we speak to them

With smiles on our faces

There’s no chance we’ll get back

Into their good graces

We need to show them

Our regrets are huge

Even if that’s only

Half of the truth

Remorse

As we
return
to face
the music

Remember,
this is
no time
for hubris

(Originally Posted 31.01.2020)

2

Imperfectly Perfect

All those memories

Good and bad

Making me smile

Driving me mad

Yet lying here

It makes me sad

As we never knew

Quite what we had

The Old Days

Waking along
this empty street

Splashing puddles
with my feet

I remember when
we used to meet

And my broken heart
skips a beat

(Originally Posted 05.12.2019)

2

I Wouldn’t Have Bothered

After all those years

Of loving you

And trying my best

To understand

If only I knew

It would be you

Who’d be the one

To drop my hand

Me & You

Watch
me
and
you’ll
sense
it

Touch
me
and
you’ll
know

Tell
me
and
you’ll
feel
it

Hold
me
and
don’t
let go

(Originally Posted 07.11.2019)

0

Too Late Now

I don’t know how it’s happened

And I can’t even tell you why

But, it seems, I’ve grown old

In love with the wrong fucking guy

Set In Stone

Neither of
us knows

If the life
we chose

Will work out
for the best

(Originally Posted 05.11.2019)

0

Always Read The Fine Print

When he said I had three wishes

I thought I’d won the lottery

That he would now provide my chance

To finally be free

If only I had known then

Exactly what would come to be

As all those wishes bought about

Was pain and misery

The Lamp

I should
have been
more careful

With what
it was that
I wished
for

Because
I never
wanted it
to end

In this
way
at all

(Originally Posted 23.10.2019)

2

Behind Enemy Lines

If only I’d tried harder

I could have fought you more

If only I’d been smarter

I could have won the war

Fade To Black

Pull down the stars

Put out the sun

I’ve had enough

You have won

(Originally Posted 23.10.2020)

0

Resignation

What can you do

When you’ve been mistaken

When you realise your life

You have forsaken

When you can’t go back

And start again

When it’s only regret

That does now remain

Double Take

It’s only
now I
realise
I’ve
played
this all
wrong

And it
actually
should
have
been
you all
along

(Originally Posted 20.09.2019)

0

Giving Pandora Her Box Back

How many times

Did I say this

How many times

Did I wish it were true

But now that I’m free

Indefinitely

There is no fun

Without you

Staid

Is
that
it
now

She
said

Are
we
finally
done

As
I’d
like
to go
out

She
said

And
actually
have
some
fun

(Originally Posted 01.07.2019)

2

‘I’ll Take All The Blame’

Not only did I fail myself

But I also failed you too

I hope one day

You’ll forgive me

For everything I didn’t do

Xxx

Failure

I pride myself on my planning

I write lists day after day

I schedule my time wisely

So that nothing gets in the way

I prepare for every eventuality

Without a pause for breath

But the one thing I didn’t account for

Was your untimely death

Xxx

(Originally Posted 10.05.2021)

3

Pillow Thoughts

If only I’d been honest

Back then

And told him how I felt

I wouldn’t be lying

Here alone again

Ruing the blow I dealt

Pillow Talk

I’ll
never
be able
to give
you

Exactly
what
you
want

I can be
your
standby
fuck
buddy

But
never
your
confidant

(Originally Posted 08.04.2020)

10

It Wasn’t Right

I’m glad that we

Both walked away

Before things went too far

Now I can see

It wasn’t the way

To mend our broken hearts

Immoral

This
can’t
go on

We
mustn’t
continue

As the
guilt is
seeping

Into
every
sinew

It
has to
stop

It
shouldn’t
have
started

As
we’re
making a
mockery

Of our
dearly
departed

(Originally Posted 19.03.2020)

10

If Only I’d Done It Sooner

If there is anything

I regret at all

It’s that leaving took me so long

I wouldn’t usually struggle

To get out of trouble

Or to right such a fucking wrong

Emancipation

I’m so
happy
I got
out of
there

As my
mind
was
going
fuck
knows
where

At
least
now
a smile
I can
wear

Whilst
I walk
around
without
a care

(Originally Posted 18.03.2020)

9

Too Soon

It all goes back

To that one day

When you stole

My childhood away

Getting Your End Away

If I
hadn’t
been so
confused,
then.

I
wouldn’t
feel so
used,
now.

(Originally Posted 12.03.2020)

5

Mediocre

If only she was better

Then she’d be worthy of your hand

But as it is

It’s a basic bitch

Who will wear your wedding band

20

El Paradiso

You find me here alone
Broken and desolate

With nothing to call my own
Except for beer and regret

5

Letting You Go

I really did love you, you know

I wish I’d told you so before

And now you’re gone

Nothing can be done

But to regret it

Forevermore

Xxx

10

Rebuilding

If you could find a way to forgive me

She said

Perhaps that’s where we could start

As I honestly never meant

She said

To be so careless with your heart

11

Good To See You

We’ve already missed our moment

She said

So it’s best we don’t meet again

I know you love someone else

He said

But I’d still like to be your friend

13

I Know

I know

You’ll never ask again

I know

I missed my time

I know

You no longer feel the same

I know

You’ll never be mine

13

Stamped Feet

I wish

I could

Take it back

All this time

That’s gone

To waste

Now

You’ll never know

Who I am

Because of

A choice

Made in haste

9

In Beero Veritas

Who’d have thought

That we’d come to

Both half dead

And needing the loo

Perhaps we should

Have thought this through

Instead of getting drunk

And doing the do

31

Sex With The Ex

There’s a small amount of comfort

But it quickly becomes a chore

And when he tries to converse

You remember why he’s such a bore

10

It Never Happened

So I guess now we just ignore each other

Pretend what we had never existed?

Well I suppose that’s better

Than letting things fester

And becoming all bitter and twisted

35

Embarrassment

I didn’t think

I could fuck things up

Any more if I tried

But then I got drunk

And kissed you back

And now I want to die

12

Dazed And Confused

It was the best day

When we met

The worst when

You walked away

But what hurts the most

Is I was far too morose

For you to want to stay

20

Fate

I wish I’d never met you.

Life would be easier then.

If I’d never met you

I wouldn’t have to forget you.

And I would be happier then.

(Originally Posted 09.03.2019)

3

The Siren

I hear her calling my name,
Luring me to the murky depths.

Her song, beckons me.
Her promise, tantalises me.

I am compelled to listen.
I am urged to respond.

But she is all the way out at sea,
And I never learned to swim.

(Originally Posted 23.04.2019)

9

‘First Dates’

She awoke that morning to the sound of the bells. Those fucking incessant church bells that plagued her every Sunday morning. She opened one eye to the world and, as the daylight scorched her alcohol soaked retina, she quickly closed it again. Fucking tequila, she murmured. Never again. Yeah, right.

Then she remembered. Shit. She tentatively slid her hand across the mattress. She felt his presence before she heard his snore. Fucking tequila, she murmured again. Bollocks.

She took a deep breath and forced both of her eyes open to absorb the piercing light this time. The bells had stopped thank fuck. One less thing to deal with.

She sat up, carefully, and embraced the world. She wasn’t ready to wake the man whose name she had forgotten – or in truth had never known – just yet.

She crawled, with great difficulty, from the bed. Every bone feeling like a dead weight, she managed to pull last nights shirt over her head and stumble to the kitchen.

She took a glass from the draining board and filled it with ice cold water from the stainless steel tap. She revelled in the smooth taste cleansing her mouth, her throat and her head. She glugged down four paracetamol and proceeded to the bathroom to wash the lingering taste of the man from her mouth.

She looked at herself in the mirror. I look like I feel, she thought, and I feel like shit. Still, first things first. She needed to get this fucker out. Composing herself and her aching limbs she strode into the bedroom; clapping her hands loudly as she stepped.

‘Rise and shine sleeping beauty’ she croaked. ‘Time to go’. The mound of stale sweat, alcohol and drool lay motionless under the duvet. ‘I said come on motherfucker – move’. She shouted louder this time pairing her cry with a swift kick to what she hoped was his kidney area. The man whimpered as he rolled over on to his front.

‘Just come back to bed, babe’ he muttered sleepily.

‘Babe? Are you fucking shitting me mate? Just get the fuck out of my bed!’ She was shaking him now as he heaved himself upright. Dazed and confused he looked into her eyes, realisation slowly dawning that if he wanted to keep his testicles intact he’d better not argue. He hurriedly dressed as she shooed him out of the bedroom and pushed him out of the flat – the front door knocking him over as he pulled on his boots.

‘Well, thanks for that and everything. But I won’t be calling you again’ she snipped.

‘But, I..’ was all she heard before she slammed the door in his puzzled, but albeit pretty cute, face.

She stalked back to bed, vowing never to drink tequila again.

Yeah, right.

(Originally Posted 06.03.2019)

18

My Advice

Do as I say 
Not as I do

I wouldn't 
want this pain 

Inflicted 
on you

(Originally Posted 10.03.2019)

 

5

Random #18

‘You could have achieved so much more, if you weren’t so fucking insecure’

– Me

(Originally Posted 19.07.2019)

10

Troubled

Staying
up
late
again

Sitting
here
all
alone

Unable to
shake this
creeping
feeling

That
I really
should
have
known

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Timerous Beasties

When
I picture
my
youth

I see
you
and
me

Sitting
beneath
that old
oak tree

You
reading
a book

My
head
on your
shoulder

Both
of us
hoping

The
other
is
bolder

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Temptress

We
really
shouldn’t
do this

She
said

If it’s
something
you’ll
regret

I won’t
know
until
we’re
done

He
said

And I
haven’t
started
yet

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