I’m not looking
For a relationship
I don’t want
To have sex
But we can walk
Just to talk
And maybe see
What happens next
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
I’m not looking
For a relationship
I don’t want
To have sex
But we can walk
Just to talk
And maybe see
What happens next
Let us stop
Take a pew
There’s something
I need
To say to you
I have to ask
Now that he’s dead
Do you think
You could ever
Love me instead?
Do you ever wonder
He said
What will happen at the end?
Blessed relief, I hope
She said
That’s if we’re not condemned
I thought
I would
Be better
If I could just
Forget
About you
But it’s proving
Too hard
With a heart
This scarred
To move on
With anyone new
I’m so glad
I walked away
And left without
Baying for blood
As I know
My silence killed you
More than my anger
Ever could
When
The night is over
And the deed
Is done
I’ll just see
Myself out
Knowing full well
You have won
It was only
When my fingers
Were well
And truly burnt
That I realised
We were good together
Until we really
Fucking weren’t
When you said goodbye, that day
You left me
Broken and scarred
Which is why now
It’s so easy to treat you
With such a callous disregard
If only
I’d known then
That we would never
Have sex again
I’d have traced
Every inch of you
And etched it
In my brain
It was never
Real love
It wasn’t even
Infatuation
You were just a way
To brighten the day
And help offset
My frustration
You weren’t
The first
You won’t be
The last
But you certainly were
My everything
It’s good to see
You’re moving on
It’s just a shame
That it’s with her
I wish you well
Although time will tell
If you will get
What you deserve
For all your experience
He said
You’re still so fucking naive
I grew up watching fairy tales
She said
So that’s what I was led to believe
Apart from
Fixing the fuse box
Or putting up
The odd shelf
There is nothing
You can do for me
That I cannot do
Myself
If I’ve learned one thing
After all these years
It’s that being kind to yourself
Doesn’t end in tears
And something else I’ve learned
From surviving the worst
Is that loving yourself
Never fucking hurts
As delightful
As one kiss may be
I know it will end
In tears for me
I am incapable
Of love, you see
So now I avoid
Such misery
We're both
To blame
For this
Disaster
Never stopping
To think
What would
Happen after
They found out
What we did
What was once
Just a fling
Has now
Fucked up
Everything
And left us
Knee deep
In shit
Now that it’s all
Said and done
There’s still
One answer
I lack:
Why the fuck
Did you let me
Love you
If you didn’t want
To love me back?
With each day
That passes by
Things become
Less of a blur
Now I know
I don’t miss
You at all
Just who I thought
You were
In order
For things
To go
To plan
You have
To make one
First
No good
Ever comes
From
Putting it off
Just because
You fear
The worst
What would it be like
If we met
Would we hit it off
Or just regret
Ever agreeing to a date?
Maybe we should keep
The fantasy
By just staying friends
Digitally
And leave the rest to fate?
I knew it wouldn’t work
But I said yes anyway
I just needed to prove
That one afternoon
Couldn’t chase
My demons away
If only you
Could see me now
I’m sure
That you’d be proud
I think you’d agree
I’m as I should be
And you’d say you love me
Out loud
In another place
And another time
I’d be yours
And you’d be mine
But as we’re here
And the time is now
Seems we both
Have to settle
For just chatting,
Somehow
As wonderful
As one night may seem
I simply can’t agree
To such a scheme
As being with you
Even for a minute
Would leave a pile of shit
And me knee deep in it
If only you could wait
She said
I’d make it worth your while
As much as that appeals
He said
Hanging around just ain’t my style
It’s nice to have you around
She said
I feel better when you’re here
I wouldn’t be anywhere else
He said
I hope that much is clear
I know
You’re feeling anxious
I can sense
How scared you are
But if you
Can let me
I promise I’ll
Go gently
And to barely leave
A scar
You’ll never know
How many times
I wanted
To walk away
You’ll never know
How many times
You were why
I chose to say
I’m not sure
She said
If I did the right thing
Trust me
He said
He’ll definitely ring
Maybe it’s you
Maybe it’s me
Maybe we’re both
Just lost at sea
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