I can’t
Be bothered
To work out
What’s mine
When it’s just
Another
Waste
Of time
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
I can’t
Be bothered
To work out
What’s mine
When it’s just
Another
Waste
Of time
I imagine
That
We should be
Because it’s fun
To think
Things through
Yet I know
With absolute
Certainty
That it
Could never
Be you
I’m ok
By myself
I don’t need a man
To save me
I wouldn’t say yes
To another one
Even if
You paid me
I could love you
Very much
Or I could love you
Not at all
Either way
I have to say
We would have
A fucking ball
I missed you
So much today
It really
Fucking hurt
I wish
I could call
To say sorry
For it all
And that it would actually
Fucking work
God knows why
I ended up staying
Competing with you
When you weren’t even playing
Still trying
My best
Though you’re
Long gone
So desperate
To prove
That
I was the one
I wonder
If I told you
What you
Would really think
Would you
Dismiss me
Out of hand
Or encourage me
With a wink
Although not
An epic
Love affair
Or history
In the making
Just know
I’ll be here
Every year
And ready
For the taking
I don’t know
If I lost you
Or if
You were never
Really mine
Either way
You’re gone
So I’ll keep
Moving on
And maybe
Figure it out
In time
Why don’t we
Just hit rewind
Go back to another
Place and time
Relive the day
That we first met
And when we didn’t
Hate each other yet
What happened to
“I’ll make you happy baby,
Just wait and see”
It’s been more like
“Give me an inch baby,
And I’ll take fucking three”
I’m sorry
To have to say it
But I don’t think
About you
Anymore
And if that sounds
Unkind
I can, once again,
Outline
How it was you
Who closed
That door
I guess you were feeling lonely
Or particularly sad that day
As they are the only two reasons
You would look at me that way
Sometimes I wonder
Was it really true
Did you actually love me
As much as I loved you
Because now,
It seems,
Whenever I think back
I don’t remember the good
And can only see
The cracks
Xxx
Don’t think
I’ll let you
Just lie there
All backwards cap
And grey
Sweatpants
For we both
Know when
I count
To ten
You won’t stand
Even half
A chance
I am truly sorry
He said
I never meant
To break your heart
Maybe it would’ve been better
She said
To have been honest
From the start
I’m not looking
For a relationship
I don’t want
To have sex
But we can walk
Just to talk
And maybe see
What happens next
Let us stop
Take a pew
There’s something
I need
To say to you
I have to ask
Now that he’s dead
Do you think
You could ever
Love me instead?
Do you ever wonder
He said
What will happen at the end?
Blessed relief, I hope
She said
That’s if we’re not condemned
I thought
I would
Be better
If I could just
Forget
About you
But it’s proving
Too hard
With a heart
This scarred
To move on
With anyone new
I’m so glad
I walked away
And left without
Baying for blood
As I know
My silence killed you
More than my anger
Ever could
When
The night is over
And the deed
Is done
I’ll just see
Myself out
Knowing full well
You have won
It was only
When my fingers
Were well
And truly burnt
That I realised
We were good together
Until we really
Fucking weren’t
When you said goodbye, that day
You left me
Broken and scarred
Which is why now
It’s so easy to treat you
With such a callous disregard
If only
I’d known then
That we would never
Have sex again
I’d have traced
Every inch of you
And etched it
In my brain
It was never
Real love
It wasn’t even
Infatuation
You were just a way
To brighten the day
And help offset
My frustration
You weren’t
The first
You won’t be
The last
But you certainly were
My everything
It’s good to see
You’re moving on
It’s just a shame
That it’s with her
I wish you well
Although time will tell
If you will get
What you deserve
For all your experience
He said
You’re still so fucking naive
I grew up watching fairy tales
She said
So that’s what I was led to believe
Apart from
Fixing the fuse box
Or putting up
The odd shelf
There is nothing
You can do for me
That I cannot do
Myself
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