It was never
Real love
It wasn’t even
Infatuation
You were just a way
To brighten the day
And help offset
My frustration
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
It was never
Real love
It wasn’t even
Infatuation
You were just a way
To brighten the day
And help offset
My frustration
You weren’t
The first
You won’t be
The last
But you certainly were
My everything
It’s good to see
You’re moving on
It’s just a shame
That it’s with her
I wish you well
Although time will tell
If you will get
What you deserve
For all your experience
He said
You’re still so fucking naive
I grew up watching fairy tales
She said
So that’s what I was led to believe
Apart from
Fixing the fuse box
Or putting up
The odd shelf
There is nothing
You can do for me
That I cannot do
Myself
If I’ve learned one thing
After all these years
It’s that being kind to yourself
Doesn’t end in tears
And something else I’ve learned
From surviving the worst
Is that loving yourself
Never fucking hurts
As delightful
As one kiss may be
I know it will end
In tears for me
I am incapable
Of love, you see
So now I avoid
Such misery
We're both
To blame
For this
Disaster
Never stopping
To think
What would
Happen after
They found out
What we did
What was once
Just a fling
Has now
Fucked up
Everything
And left us
Knee deep
In shit
Now that it’s all
Said and done
There’s still
One answer
I lack:
Why the fuck
Did you let me
Love you
If you didn’t want
To love me back?
With each day
That passes by
Things become
Less of a blur
Now I know
I don’t miss
You at all
Just who I thought
You were
In order
For things
To go
To plan
You have
To make one
First
No good
Ever comes
From
Putting it off
Just because
You fear
The worst
What would it be like
If we met
Would we hit it off
Or just regret
Ever agreeing to a date?
Maybe we should keep
The fantasy
By just staying friends
Digitally
And leave the rest to fate?
I knew it wouldn’t work
But I said yes anyway
I just needed to prove
That one afternoon
Couldn’t chase
My demons away
If only you
Could see me now
I’m sure
That you’d be proud
I think you’d agree
I’m as I should be
And you’d say you love me
Out loud
In another place
And another time
I’d be yours
And you’d be mine
But as we’re here
And the time is now
Seems we both
Have to settle
For just chatting,
Somehow
As wonderful
As one night may seem
I simply can’t agree
To such a scheme
As being with you
Even for a minute
Would leave a pile of shit
And me knee deep in it
If only you could wait
She said
I’d make it worth your while
As much as that appeals
He said
Hanging around just ain’t my style
It’s nice to have you around
She said
I feel better when you’re here
I wouldn’t be anywhere else
He said
I hope that much is clear
I know
You’re feeling anxious
I can sense
How scared you are
But if you
Can let me
I promise I’ll
Go gently
And to barely leave
A scar
You’ll never know
How many times
I wanted
To walk away
You’ll never know
How many times
You were why
I chose to say
I’m not sure
She said
If I did the right thing
Trust me
He said
He’ll definitely ring
Maybe it’s you
Maybe it’s me
Maybe we’re both
Just lost at sea
Of all the men
It has been
There’s no one
That compares to
Yet of all the men
It will be
I must accept
It’ll never be you
I really hope
You’ll meet me
And we’ll leave
Hand in hand
But the journey ahead
Is risky
So if not,
I’ll understand
I did
What I did
All those years
Because
I thought
I loved you
But now
I can see
How you
Treated me
And what a shell
That turned me
Into
Please,
Just give me something
Even if
It’s only one word
I don’t need
Your comfort
But just to know
That I’ve been heard
I thought of us
Again today
And, as always,
You made me smile
It was a welcome break
From all the heartache
Even if only
For a while
Of course
It’s sad
Don’t
We know it
But they’re just
Not ready
For us
To show it
You have
To ask him
She said
Otherwise,
You’ll never know
But I think
I’d just die
She said
When he says
Inevitably, no
Spooning
My heart out
Drowning
In blood
You have killed me,
In a way,
That no other man
Ever could
You claim
You want
To know
The truth
But the truth
Is you couldn’t
Care less
All you want
Is someone
To taunt
And to leave
After making
A mess
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