When I saw him
Again today
All of that pain
Was washed away
Until I realised
It wasn’t him
And my heart, once more,
Cracked
From within
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
When I saw him
Again today
All of that pain
Was washed away
Until I realised
It wasn’t him
And my heart, once more,
Cracked
From within
I found a way
In the end
I put them all in the bin
Now I only wince
If I catch a glimpse
Of those that I keep within
I Can’t Wait
I can’t
wait for
the day
When I
no longer
wince
At
every
glimpse
Of
your
photo
(Originally Posted 07.01.2020)
When I think over
These last few years
I really have suffered a lot
So my house may well
Now be up for sale
But my heart definitely is not
Home Sweet Home
They say
you can
never go
home
again
And I’m
starting
to believe
that’s
true
For all
that resides
here now
is a world
of pain
And
far too
many
memories
of you
(Originally Posted 17.11.2019)
It’s never too far away
That shadow
I see it from the corner
Of my eye
An ever present reminder
Of what we lost
And when we had
To say goodbye
Mourning
Darkness
casts a
shadow
over my
head
As it
does
over
my
heart
Thoughts
and
dreams
of you
abound
As does
sorrow
that
we’d to
part
(Originally Posted 27.09.2019)
“I know that’s what people say – you’ll get over it. I’d say it too. But I know it’s not true. Oh, you’ll be happy again, never fear. But you won’t forget. Every time you fall in love it will be because something in the man reminds you of him.”
– Betty Smith
It hurts almost as much
To see how sad I was
As it does
To remember you
Reminders
It’s when it comes from nowhere,
that’s the worst.
The hysterical sobs that hit without warning.
When I’m driving and our song comes on the radio.
When a letter arrives and it’s addressed to you.
When I find a pair of your socks in my drawer.
My throat constricts,
as my lungs compress.
My stomach lurches,
as my heart laments.
And my eyes burn as I drown, slowly, in my own tears.
(Originally Posted 18.04.2019)
The coincidence
Inexplicable
The evidence
Inadmissible
But I know it’s you
Xxx
You may as well keep the ring
He said
I’ve got no use for it
I’d rather keep my dignity
She said
Than this worthless piece of shit
Your final post
Flashed up today, as a memory
And although just a notification
It meant so much more to me
Xxx
Those
words
you
spoke
so softly
are etched
upon my
brainA
permanent
reminder
that I
fucked
things
up
again
It
was
so
good
to see
you
But
now
I’m
glad
you’ve
gone
You
remind
me too
much of
my life
before
And
what
has
since
gone
wrong
I can’t
look at
your
photos
anymore
They make
my heart
too heavy
and my eyes
too sore