I Give Up

There it goes

The last glimmer of humanity

Flushed down the bog

Along with my sanity

Sanitised

Don’t
come
anywhere
near
me

I don’t
know
where
you’ve
been

There’s
no way
you are
touching
me

Until
your
hands
are
clean

You never
see the
worst of
my illness
because
I hide it
from you

For you
to know
the truth
about me
would just
tear me
in two

So I’ll
paint
on a
smile and
pretend
that I’m
fine

For
doing so
protects
both
your
sanity
and mine

Thankfully,

tiredness

descends.

As upon

sleep,

sanity

depends.

Don’t
want
the
truth?

Then
don’t
ask
me.

I
will
not
lie,

To
protect
your
sanity.

All happiness
is fleeting

All sadness
is depleting

I’m no
longer competing

From sanity
I’m retreating