Obsequious

I kow you’re out there

Selling your story

Accepting sympathy

Basking in glory

But remember I know

Those who dance to your tune

All know, deep down,

The truth about you

(Prick)ing At Your Conscience

Think
whatever
you
want
about
me

Speak
shit
to
whoever
will
listen

But
believe
me
when
I say

I
won’t
ever
rue
the
day

That
you
created
this
division

(Originally Posted 02.10.2020)

02/10/2022 4

On The Front Foot

After that night I realised

To quell the fears inside my head

I’d get a much better sleep

If I began to keep

A cricket bat under my bed

Creaky Floorboards

Tonight is
the first time
I’ve felt real fear

Being
home alone
without you here

What if someone
breaks in during
the night?

Will I survive
now you’re not
here to fight?

(Originally Posted 29.07.2019)

29/07/2022 7

High Winds

If all the roads are closed tonight

Then how will I get home

I’m much too scared

And emotionally impaired

To go a night out here alone

24/01/2022 12

Random #139

‘… this is how I am when I’m scared. It’s unfamiliar to you, but not to me. I can – I can fucking be scared – and carry on’

– Tommy Shelby

19/11/2021 2

Don’t Ask Me

What would you do

If it was you

Would you risk it

Even though

You could lose

—

I have no idea

What I’d do here

So thank fuck

I don’t

Have to choose

17/11/2021 10

Tease

So I’ve recorded some of my poems

And I don’t think they’re half bad

Who knew that in speaking

There’s so much fun to be had

But now I’m in a conundrum

As I need to make a choice

Do I stay safely anonymous

Or finally reveal my voice?

20/04/2021 70

Deathbed

If nothing else

She said

I had my dreams

…

21/01/2021 18

Going Too Far

Lying 
here 
in 
this 
strange 
bed

Wondering
what
was
going on
inside 
my head

Trying 
to
ignore
this 
feeling
of dread

Wishing 
I had
chosen 
to stay
at home
instead

07/12/2020 9

That

I
wish
that
I could
give
you

What
it is
that
you
want
me to

It’s
not
that
I wouldn’t
like it

But
more
that
I don’t
have
a clue

08/11/2020 4

Timerous Beasties

When
I picture
my
youth

I see
you
and
me

Sitting
beneath
that old
oak tree

You
reading
a book

My
head
on your
shoulder

Both
of us
hoping

The
other
is
bolder

01/10/2020 23

Like Riding A Bike

It’s
not
that
I don’t
want
to

She
said

I
just
don’t
know
how

Come
a little
closer

He
said

None
of
that
matters
now

05/08/2020 10

Into The Sea…

When I was told

What did unfold

I’ll admit that

I was envious

For you achieved

Of what I dream

As my will to live

Is tenuous

17/07/2020 0

Handover

You’ll
never
cope

She
said

When
this
happens
to you

I
know

He
said

I’m
dreading
it too

16/07/2020 2

(Laws Of) Attraction

I
do not
trust
myself

When
I see
your
face

I
just
want
to kiss
you

And
never
leave
your
embrace

19/06/2020 19

Fervour

I’ve
written
all the
words

Now I’ve
just to
press
send

But
as my
finger
hovers

I’m
scared
our time
will end

10/05/2020 6

The Thief In The Night

It
seems
like
you
have
disappeared

And
there’s
nothing
I can
do

For
you’ve
left
me
heart
broken

And I
will
never
forgive
you

22/02/2020 2

All Bets Are Off

I’m not
scared
of you

I’m
scared
of me

Now
I’m
lost

In
this
insanity

30/10/2019 3

Without You

Life is
just so
shit
without
you

I’ve got
nothing
left to
hold
on to

If
only
you were
still
here

Then I’d
have
nothing
left
to fear

19/09/2019 2

A Solo Affair

I’m fine
by myself
without
all of
that

Just me
here
alone
in my
own flat

I don’t
need to
feel anyone
else’s
touch

As frankly
I never
really
liked it
much

16/09/2019 0

Once In A Lifetime

I’m
scared
that
the
spell
is
now
broken
and
our
future
conversations
will
just
become
a
token
not
only
of the
connection
we once
shared
but
also
of
the
souls
that
we
once
bared