In an
Attempt
To convince
Herself
That it really
Was ok
She sat down
With the required
Amount
To eat
Her feelings
Away
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
In an
Attempt
To convince
Herself
That it really
Was ok
She sat down
With the required
Amount
To eat
Her feelings
Away
I know
You’ll think
I’m stupid
And say
I’m off
My head
But the seeds
Of doubt
Have rooted
And now
I’m filled
With dread
I wish that I had asked you more
I wish I’d kissed you each day
I wish that I had really made sure
I wish I’d begged you to stay
Xxx
Recent
events
have
taken
their
toll
On
my
body
and
my
mind
I
just
wish
I
could
go
back
to
when
I
didn’t
feel
so
sick
inside
It’s that
time of
year
again,When
love
is in
the air.But so is
chicken pox,
TB and flu,
you moron.So please
take your
bullshit
elsewhere.
I called in sick for work today.
My heart just couldn’t come out to play.
All I’ve done is lie in bed
Filled with thoughts of fear and dread.
With nausea consuming every movement,
My mood shows no sign of improvement.
I hate existing like this.
Full of anger, self loathing and all that shit.
I wonder how much more emotion can I conceal
Before I decide to end it all for real
Sickness grows
Frustration shows
Conversation slows
But no one knows
Is it
too late
to phone
in sick?
For life…
I feel sick.
Constantly.