Hearing Things

I spoke

To you

This morning

And I swear

I heard you

Respond

But then

It hit me

There’s no way

It could be

When you’ve

Been gone

So long

Xxx

Were We Ever Us?

Sometimes I wonder

Was it really true

Did you actually love me

As much as I loved you

Because now,

It seems,

Whenever I think back

I don’t remember the good

And can only see

The cracks

Xxx

After The Funeral

Walking home

In the rain

Knowing I’ll never

See you again

My heart hangs heavy

My eyes shut tight

Knowing there’s no way

That I’ll last the night

Gut Punch

Just as you

Start to think

You can cope

With anything

It comes along

To prove you wrong

And you’re left,

Reeling

Forever Changed

The day

They die

Isn’t the worst

It’s every day

That follows

With nothing left

You exist, bereft

As your heart

Hangs empty

And hollow

Had We Known

The more

I think

About it now

The more

It’s clear

To me

That we were

Always

Meant to meet

But just never

Destined

To be

Xxx

Respite

I thought of us

Again today

And, as always,

You made me smile

It was a welcome break

From all the heartache

Even if only

For a while

Un Merveilleux Malheur

I don’t think

I’ve missed you

More than I have

Today

There was nothing

I could do

To help push

These feelings away

And even though

It is now

Nearly twenty six years old

I have realised

My love for you

Will simply

Never grow cold

Xxx

“Into My Arms”

Your wandering soul

All alone

With your bones of ash

And heart of stone

If only you could find

Your way back home

I’d hold you tight

And never let you go

Xxx

On A Limb

You have

To ask him

She said

Otherwise,

You’ll never know

But I think

I’d just die

She said

When he says

Inevitably, no

Moving

I remember the day

We got the keys

Thinking the rest

Would be a breeze

But now I sit and rot

All alone

In what should have been

Our forever home

The Gradual Loss

It seems

The inevitable

Has happened

And I have finally

Gone mad

As I’m starting

To forget

The good things

Instead

Of just the bad

Dragging It Out

Another hour

Another day

Wishing I didn’t

Feel this way

Another second

Another minute

Life sure is shit

Without you in it

Xxx

The Endless Search

If I could turn

Back the clock

I’d say yes

To that walk

If only the sands

Of time would stop

I’d stay awhile

And talk

But for a return

Through time and space

There is no point

In wishing

If wherever I’d go

Whatever the place

You will still

Be missing

Xxx

Disappointment

I wanted
Your hands
To feel
Like his

To have one
More night
Of unbridled
Bliss

But as soon
As we touched
Let alone
Kissed

I knew
From now on
It would feel
Like this

For Clarity

I know

That we

Have

Hardly

Spoken

But my

Insides

Are now

Broken

And what

Is left

Merely

A token

Of the

Woman

I used to be

I Miss That More Than Anything

I remember

Driving to see you

In the middle

Of the night

I didn’t want

To talk

I just needed

To feel your might

Because I knew

When you kissed me

You’d wrap your arms

Around me tight

And that you

Would be the one

To make everything

Alright

Xxx

Etched

Give me a pen
And I will trace
The exact outline
Of his face
Without
Even
Looking

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