Tag: strength

Beautifully Ruined

For the first time

In a long time

I felt myself

Today

Full of lumps

Bruises and bumps

Yet I still took

My own breath away

2

Proof

These scars

Are the

Remainder

Of everything

You killed

So now

They’re my

Reminder

That I know

How to rebuild

5

I Miss That More Than Anything

I remember

Driving to see you

In the middle

Of the night

I didn’t want

To talk

I just needed

To feel your might

Because I knew

When you kissed me

You’d wrap your arms

Around me tight

And that you

Would be the one

To make everything

Alright

Xxx

4

Top Of The List

What would you like

For Christmas he asked

His smile

A million miles wide

I just need the strength

To carry on

She wholeheartedly replied

9

Unqualified

If you needed help

He said

Why didn’t you just ask

Because I knew

She said

You weren’t up to the task

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Daybreak

I felt that way

For a really long time

After you rounded on me

That night

But now I’ve moved on

And boy I’ve grown

So I’m stepping back

Into the light

Nyctophilia

I’m
better
alone
than in
company

Just
like I’m
happier
in the
dark

That
way
I never
have to
see anyone

Or
hear
another
disparaging
remark

(Originally Posted 16.02.2020)

2

Defiant

It may have been me

Who was the one

That was strong enough

For two

But the person I was

The most proud of

In the end

Was you

Xxx

With Me

Your
words
tattooed
on my
brain

Forever

A reminder
of facing
that
pain

Together

(Originally Posted 18.01.2020)

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Random #272

‘For the strength of the Pack is the Wolf, and the strength of the Wolf is the Pack’

– Rudyard Kipling

2

Fit For It

I don’t want a boy

She said

With romantic ideals

I need a man

With balls of steel

The Rescuer

We can
leave
together,

He
said,

I promise
I’ll look
after you.

When
will you
grow up,

She
said,

You poor
misguided
fool.

(Originally Posted 20.11.2019)

35

09.08

Three years on

From writing this

And that strength still eludes me

Don’t get me wrong

I can, at times, be strong

But my future still looks pretty gloomy

08.08

So it’s another birthday

And what a day it has been

If I’d have known last year

What I know now

I would have jacked it all in

But I suppose now it’s time

At this ripe old age

And much to my chagrin

To find a way of moving forward

And discover the strength within

(Originally Posted 09.08.2019)

8

If Pushed

They’re not always

About you, you know

These thoughts

Inside my head

Sometimes

I’m more than capable

Of putting myself first

Instead

As If

What’s
that

I
hear
you
say

Don’t
stand
at your
grave
and
weep

I
wouldn’t
piss
on it

If it
was on
fire

You
fucking
egotistical
creep

(Originally Posted 27.07.2020)

4

The Failed Ultimatum

Remember when you told me

To do this / do that

And you expected

I’d dance to your tune

Well, in reality

Your words fell flat

And to your bullshit

I’m now immune

Think Again

It’s a
mistake
to tell
me what
to do.

Even
bigger
to think
I’d listen
to you.

(Originally Posted 21.06.2019)

2

People Pleasing

I spent years people pleasing

And it wrecked my mental health

So now I don’t please anyone

Except my fucking self

I’ve Heard It All Before

Just because

What doesn’t kill me

Apparently

Makes me stronger

Doesn’t give you

An excuse

To hurt me

Any longer

(Originally Posted 17.06.2021)

17

Rent Free

You’ve now outstayed a welcome

That you were never fucking given

So if you would kindly

Piss off please

I can get back to living

2

The Noose Tightens

Today has
been like
scratching
a brick wall

I didn’t
see this
one coming
at all

Everything
I’ve done
has made me
feel worse

I cannot
shrug this
nightmarish
curse

It feels
ridiculously
melodramatic
to say

But I
really don’t
think there’s
another way

All that
appeals
to me now
is that rope

As finally
it seems I’ve
abandoned
all hope

(Originally Posted 21.08.2019)

24

Try Harder Next Time

The monster who lives

Under my bed

Whispers again

Why aren’t you dead

Berating me

For writing instead

When all the time

That rope’s still in the shed

8

The Hangman

I really
try my
best to
cope and
not just
sit around
and mope
but as
time moves
on I
know there’s
no hope
I can
forget the
past and
avoid the
rope that
silently
whispers my
name

(Originally Posted 02.07.2019)

12

No Swimming

One
day
I’ll
wake
up

And
I won’t
feel
this
strong

So
you’ll
find
me

Drowned
in the
river

And
back
where
I belong

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The Sage

Tell me
how
you do
it

She
said

How
do you
stay so
strong

I
don’t
really
know

He
said

I make
it up
as
I go
along

11

Stand Well Back

I’ve
never
thought
of myself
as strong

But I
suppose
I have
stuck
it out
this
long

Although
somewhat
broken,
bloodied
and
bruised

I’m
very
much
still
here
to light
the fuse

14

DIY

I wish
I could
sleep

But I
simply
can’t
relax

I just don’t
have the
strength
to keep

Painting
over the
cracks

6

Support

I can’t
stay,
she said,
I have
to go
back

It’s the
only way
to get my
life back
on track

I’ll come
with you,
he said,
you don’t
have to go
on your own

I’m here to
help you
through
so you’ll
never
be alone

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Options

I am amazed, yet again, that I’ve found the courage to get out of bed.

You have no idea how hard it is.

This sustained internal struggle.

The conscious effort required to motivate myself to move.

The strength of belief needed to convince my anxious brain that we can get through the day unscathed.

It’s exhausting.

If only I could return to the naivety of the past.

Travel back to a time when sadness was mere affectation.

Where melancholy was a comforting friend.

And death wasn’t such a viable option.

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