Thank you
For being
Nice to me
Thank you
For being
So kind
I’ll keep
What you said
Inside
My head
And leave
All the shit
Behind
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
Thank you
For being
Nice to me
Thank you
For being
So kind
I’ll keep
What you said
Inside
My head
And leave
All the shit
Behind
Remember
When you told me
I’d never get hurt again
That it didn’t matter
How my heart was shattered
As there wouldn’t be
Any more pain
Well, you lied
This is worse
I just thought
I’d call
He said
To check
That you’re ok
You are
So very kind
She said
To care for me
That way
I’ll also ask
While I’m on
He said
If there’s anything
I can do?
I’m sure
I’ll be fine
She said
To me this
Is nothing new
Keep your friends
Around
And your family
Close
As you never
Know when
You'll be left
Alone
Feel free
To take it all
She said
The Valium,
Zoloft and Prozac
They never really
Worked for me
So it’s not like
I’ll need them back
It’s not for you
To dwell on
To deliberate
Or discuss
As I’ll be the one
To decide
If I have actually
Got the guts
If you needed help
He said
Why didn’t you just ask
Because I knew
She said
You weren’t up to the task
We need support
When traumatised
Not to be attacked
Or demonised
Something we wish
That you’d realise
When losing them
Leaves us paralysed
When those bands
Of old
Don’t speak to you
And the comfort
Of music
Is gone
It won’t matter
Where
Because
I’ll be there
To help you
Carry on
At least when it all
Happened to me
I had what I’d call
The luxury
Of only having myself
To pull through this shit
And not have any kids
To help cope with it
Inconceivable
Mind
racing
Legs
pacing
Sheer
disbelief
At what
you’re
facing
(Originally Posted 12.02.2020)
Not only was he handsome,
Smart and debonair
It also transpired
After he had inquired
That he was a millionaire
Currency
I’ll
give
you a
penny
for
them
He
said
Tell
me
your
ups
and
downs
You
can
put
your
coppers
away
She
said
As
to hear
those
you’ll
need
pounds
(Originally Posted 18.12.2020)
Protecting yourself
From someone else
Doesn’t make you mean
It just shows that you
In my view
Are great at forward planning
Weak
I really am sorry
I cannot take your weight
For my arms are too broken
From carrying my own
(Originally Posted 19.11.2020)
There I was
Worried you would leave
But I’ve been granted
A reprieve
I shouldn’t ever have doubted
Your ability
To be broken hearted
And yet still love me
No Matter What?
How
long
will
you
Be
here
for
me
When
your
own
tradegy
strikes
What
will
happen
To
our
love
When
your
reality
bites?
(Originally Posted 13.11.2020)
It isn’t that you lied,
It’s that I believed you.
That’s what hurts.
Support
I really
cannot
stay,
she said,
it is time
for me
to go
back
It’s the
only way,
she said,
to get
my life
on track
I will come
with you,
he said,
you needn’t
be on
your own
I’m here to
help you
through,
he said,
so you’ll
never
be alone
(Originally Posted 28.10.2019)
I remember there was
A lot of this back then
People calling, fawning,
And trying to be my friend
Now I think about it, perhaps,
They just didn’t know what to say
But at the time I recall how much I wished
They’d just stayed the fuck away
Fake Flowers
Your fake
concern
disgusts me
Your false
condolences
knock me sick
If you
really want
to comfort me
Just piss off
and leave me
alone,
Prick
(Originally Posted 07.10.2019)
It’s not like it wasn’t obvious
That I was depressed as fuck
Given all my talk,
I would’ve thought,
That was understood
Read Between The Lines
How
much
more
Must
I write
Before
you
come to
save
me?
How
much
more
Must
I fight
Before
you
run to
embrace
me?
(Originally Posted 14.09.2020)
I know you’re looking
To me for help
But I am just
As clueless myself
I’m Sorry
It hurt
to see
the pain
in your
eyes
I felt
every
ache
of your
heart
If only
I could
ease the
anguish
you feel
But
I’ve no
wisdom
left to
impart
(Originally Posted 10.09.2019)
I hope that now
You’re away from me
You are enjoying
Your life carefree
I hope you don’t
Think of me
For I’m standing tall
Just as I should be
The Burden
If
only
I knew
what to do
I
would
not be so
reliant on you
If
only
I knew
how to grieve
It
would be
so much easier
to let you leave
If
only
I knew
who to be
I’d
thank you
for your help
and set you free
(Originally Posted 01.08.2019)
Sometimes all you need
Is a shoulder on which to cry
Someone armed with tissues
To help wipe away your issues
Is enough to help you get by
Why Not
Come here
She implored
And sit with me
Let’s drink some wine
Watch shit TV
We can hold hands
And talk all night
Until our troubles
Are out of sight
(Originally Posted 31.07.2020)
Some have come and gone
Over the years
But I thank each and every one
Who helped dry my tears
Connections
It’s easier to connect with other writers these days, than it is to any of my friends.
It’s because we understand how shit things are, I think, when the madness descends.
(Originally Posted 24.07.2019)
I don’t know what I’d do
If I didn’t have you
You were the only one
To keep me sane
It was like you knew
What I was going through
And how to help me
Feel like me again
Grounding
Thanks for talking to me
He said
I hope it was of some worth
Thank you so much for listening
She said
It has brought me back to earth
(Originally Posted 15.07.2021)
I’m sure you didn’t mean it
That way
That you were just trying
To help me through
But wheeling out those lines
As I lost my mind
Did nothing
But make me hate you
Know-It-All
What
doesn’t
kill me
might
make
me
stronger
But
it
also
makes
me
sick
So
you
can
shove
your
aphorisms
Up
your
arse
You
condescending
prick
(Originally Posted 13.07.2020)
And now
that
I am
better,
it seems,
you have
taken a
turn for
the worse
But you
won’t talk
to me,
despite
my plea,
which
is really
the most
perverse
Crutches
I fear
I have
lent on
you once
too often,
and now
you are
as broken
as me.
I should
never have
asked for
your help,
to be
honest,
as now
you’ll never
be free.
(Originally Posted 11.07.2019)
You can call me anytime
He said
I’ll always be here for you
I’d love it if just once
She said
You made me feel that that was true
Calling It Quits
I should have trusted you
She said
And let you through the wall
I didn’t try hard enough
He said
In fact I didn’t really try at all
(Originally Posted 15.06.2021)
There’s nothing wrong with being self sufficient
She said
After all it’s got me this far
I never said you weren’t resilient
He said
But that doesn’t have to be all you are
Toolkit
You wish you could fix me,
But you can’t.
I wish I would let you,
But I won’t.
(Originally Posted 12.04.2019)
When I was at
My lowest ebb
It was you who was there
For me
You’ll never know
How much you did
To help my heart
Run free
Hope
Your words help guide my wayward step
And shine light in to my darkened heart
Your smile breaks my fall to the kitchen floor
And stems the tears from my haunted eyes
Your touch quietens the incessant voice in my head
And replenishes my embittered soul
You allow me to believe that love might be possible again
One day
(Originally Posted 16.03.2019)
You came through
Like a bolt from the blue
When I never even knew
How much I needed you
Look out for each other
That’s what you said
Be considerate and kind
Well you never did
When you left me for dead
Whilst I slowly lost my mind
I can’t help you
She said
I have nothing to give
Don’t count on me
She said
For your reason to live
I can empathise
And respond in kind
Take my cue
From many a sign
But there is no way
I can read your mind
Down a silent
Telephone line
The idea really
Was never
For you to just come
And go
It was more to ensure
You could open the door
To remove my head
From inside the stove
I’m sorry I didn’t listen
He said
But I thought I knew it all
Now I’ll watch from the sidelines
She said
And cheer on your downfall
If ever you need someone
You don’t have to worry
As I’ll be there
Like a shot
Please never question
If you can call me
As I’d rather listen to you
Than not
If it takes a village to raise a child
Then my neighbours must have been out
Because I pretty much
Dragged myself up
Of that there is no doubt
I took care of everything
But no one took care of me
Did it even occur to you
All that I had been through
And what was then my reality
I’m neither little
Nor quite charming
In fact my words
Can be most alarming
But the friends I’ve made
In different ways
All serve to brighten
My darkest days
So thanks to you all
For reading my shit
It warms this dark heart
Just a little bit
How
long
will
you
Be
here
for
me
When
your
own
tradegy
strikes
What
will
happen
To
our
love
When
your
reality
bites?
I
really
can’t
explain
itThis
feeling
I have
insideI
just
don’t
want
to be
hereAnd,
God
knows,
I’ve
tried
I
wonder
what
you
think
of meNow
you
know my
vulnerabilityDo
you
care
for
what
you
seeOr
will
this
all end
predictably?
When
I need
youYou’re
never
thereIt
still
hurts,
you
knowThat
you
don’t
care
I
feel
so
sad
She
said
Can
you
help
me?
I’ll
certainly
try
He
said
Here’s
some
tea
If
I can’t
speak
to you
anymore
Then
who
else is
going to
listen?
There’s
not
many
that
can
tolerate
My
incessant
whining
and
bitching
I’ll
take
your
hand
If
you
are
frightened
I’ll
hold
you
hair
If
you
get
sick
I’ll
even
lead
you
To
the
path
of
enlightenment
If
you’re
really
fucking
quick
You’ll
never
copeShe
saidWhen
this
happens
to youI
knowHe
saidI’m
dreading
it too
Both
of us
here
Both
of us
there
Both
of us
against
the world
Without
a fucking
care
It
hurts
my
heart
To
hear
you
cry
And
watch
you
break
Like
this
As
your
life
Falls
apart
And
you
stare
Into
the
abyss
That’s
it
nowI’ve
pulled us
throughSo for
better
or worseIt’s
over
to you
Such
a broken
heartened
man
In a
broken
hearted
land
If
only
I could
see you
I
would
squeeze
your
hand
And
never
let it
go
I wish
you were
with me
Gently
squeezing
my hand
Providing
me with
comfort
Helping me
understand
Thirty
six
thousand
words
And
each
one of
them
shite
But now
I’ve
passed
one
thousand
followers
I
must
be doing
something
right
As
the rot
starts
to set
in
I
pour
myself
another
gin
To
silence
the pain
in my
head
As
the
thoughts
seem to
shift
My
mood
starts
to
lift
And
I can
finally
get out
of bed
It’s
not
really
you I
loveIt’s
that
when
I am
with
youYou
make
it
easy
to
believeThe
lies
I tell
myself
are
true
Thank
you
for
alerting
me
To
what
I could
feel
But
could
not
see
Because
of
you
I
am
now
free
To
be
the
person
I
want
to
be
You
lied
When
you
said
you
understood
So
you
are
denied
Any
chance
to make
good
I love how you know,
To hold my hand,
Just by the croak in my voice.
I’m so grateful,
That you understand,
Just how much I need that choice.
Feeling that you’re there,
And how much you care,
Means everything you see.
But not forcing me to speak,
When you sense I’m weak,
Is why you’re the one for me.
It was
exactly
one
year
ago
today
That I
entered
into
this
WordPress
fray
Thank
you to
everyone
for bringing
me such
happiness
Despite
all
of my
unrelenting
crappiness
I’m not sure I
can offer muchBut a tissue
for your tearsA shoulder for
you to lean onAnd an endless
supply of beers
I’m
not
really
cryingShe
saidHonestly
things
are
fineYou
can’t
kid a
kidderHe
saidNow
just
come
back
to mine
I
wish
you were
here with meAll
these
tales we
could shareBut
yet we
find we’re
both aloneSo
into the
depths
we stare
It was
exactly
one year
ago
That we
were all
sat in
that tent
But there
was only
one who
truly
listened
To my
broken
hearted
lament
From that
day we’ve
kept in
touch
Developing
connections
of our
own
That’s
because
you chose
both of us
To reap
from the
seeds you
had sown
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