"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
At least when it all
Happened to me
I had what I’d call
The luxury
Of only having myself
To pull through this shit
And not have any kids
To help cope with it
Inconceivable
Mind
racing
Legs
pacing
Sheer
disbelief
At what
you’re
facing
(Originally Posted 12.02.2020)
Not only was he handsome,
Smart and debonair
It also transpired
After he had inquired
That he was a millionaire
Currency
I’ll
give
you a
penny
for
them
He
said
Tell
me
your
ups
and
downs
You
can
put
your
coppers
away
She
said
As
to hear
those
you’ll
need
pounds
(Originally Posted 18.12.2020)
Protecting yourself
From someone else
Doesn’t make you mean
It just shows that you
In my view
Are great at forward planning
Weak
I really am sorry
I cannot take your weight
For my arms are too broken
From carrying my own
(Originally Posted 19.11.2020)
There I was
Worried you would leave
But I’ve been granted
A reprieve
I shouldn’t ever have doubted
Your ability
To be broken hearted
And yet still love me
No Matter What?
How
long
will
you
Be
here
for
me
When
your
own
tradegy
strikes
What
will
happen
To
our
love
When
your
reality
bites?
(Originally Posted 13.11.2020)
It isn’t that you lied,
It’s that I believed you.
That’s what hurts.
Support
I really
cannot
stay,
she said,
it is time
for me
to go
back
It’s the
only way,
she said,
to get
my life
on track
I will come
with you,
he said,
you needn’t
be on
your own
I’m here to
help you
through,
he said,
so you’ll
never
be alone
(Originally Posted 28.10.2019)
I remember there was
A lot of this back then
People calling, fawning,
And trying to be my friend
Now I think about it, perhaps,
They just didn’t know what to say
But at the time I recall how much I wished
They’d just stayed the fuck away
Fake Flowers
Your fake
concern
disgusts me
Your false
condolences
knock me sick
If you
really want
to comfort me
Just piss off
and leave me
alone,
Prick
(Originally Posted 07.10.2019)
It’s not like it wasn’t obvious
That I was depressed as fuck
Given all my talk,
I would’ve thought,
That was understood
Read Between The Lines
How
much
more
Must
I write
Before
you
come to
save
me?
How
much
more
Must
I fight
Before
you
run to
embrace
me?
(Originally Posted 14.09.2020)
I know you’re looking
To me for help
But I am just
As clueless myself
I’m Sorry
It hurt
to see
the pain
in your
eyes
I felt
every
ache
of your
heart
If only
I could
ease the
anguish
you feel
But
I’ve no
wisdom
left to
impart
(Originally Posted 10.09.2019)
I hope that now
You’re away from me
You are enjoying
Your life carefree
I hope you don’t
Think of me
For I’m standing tall
Just as I should be
The Burden
If
only
I knew
what to do
I
would
not be so
reliant on you
If
only
I knew
how to grieve
It
would be
so much easier
to let you leave
If
only
I knew
who to be
I’d
thank you
for your help
and set you free
(Originally Posted 01.08.2019)
Sometimes all you need
Is a shoulder on which to cry
Someone armed with tissues
To help wipe away your issues
Is enough to help you get by
Why Not
Come here
She implored
And sit with me
Let’s drink some wine
Watch shit TV
We can hold hands
And talk all night
Until our troubles
Are out of sight
(Originally Posted 31.07.2020)
Some have come and gone
Over the years
But I thank each and every one
Who helped dry my tears
Connections
It’s easier to connect with other writers these days, than it is to any of my friends.
It’s because we understand how shit things are, I think, when the madness descends.
(Originally Posted 24.07.2019)
I don’t know what I’d do
If I didn’t have you
You were the only one
To keep me sane
It was like you knew
What I was going through
And how to help me
Feel like me again
Grounding
Thanks for talking to me
He said
I hope it was of some worth
Thank you so much for listening
She said
It has brought me back to earth
(Originally Posted 15.07.2021)
I’m sure you didn’t mean it
That way
That you were just trying
To help me through
But wheeling out those lines
As I lost my mind
Did nothing
But make me hate you
Know-It-All
What
doesn’t
kill me
might
make
me
stronger
But
it
also
makes
me
sick
So
you
can
shove
your
aphorisms
Up
your
arse
You
condescending
prick
(Originally Posted 13.07.2020)
And now
that
I am
better,
it seems,
you have
taken a
turn for
the worse
But you
won’t talk
to me,
despite
my plea,
which
is really
the most
perverse
Crutches
I fear
I have
lent on
you once
too often,
and now
you are
as broken
as me.
I should
never have
asked for
your help,
to be
honest,
as now
you’ll never
be free.
(Originally Posted 11.07.2019)
You can call me anytime
He said
I’ll always be here for you
I’d love it if just once
She said
You made me feel that that was true
Calling It Quits
I should have trusted you
She said
And let you through the wall
I didn’t try hard enough
He said
In fact I didn’t really try at all
(Originally Posted 15.06.2021)
There’s nothing wrong with being self sufficient
She said
After all it’s got me this far
I never said you weren’t resilient
He said
But that doesn’t have to be all you are
Toolkit
You wish you could fix me,
But you can’t.
I wish I would let you,
But I won’t.
(Originally Posted 12.04.2019)
When I was at
My lowest ebb
It was you who was there
For me
You’ll never know
How much you did
To help my heart
Run free
Hope
Your words help guide my wayward step
And shine light in to my darkened heart
Your smile breaks my fall to the kitchen floor
And stems the tears from my haunted eyes
Your touch quietens the incessant voice in my head
And replenishes my embittered soul
You allow me to believe that love might be possible again
One day
(Originally Posted 16.03.2019)
You came through
Like a bolt from the blue
When I never even knew
How much I needed you
Look out for each other
That’s what you said
Be considerate and kind
Well you never did
When you left me for dead
Whilst I slowly lost my mind
I can’t help you
She said
I have nothing to give
Don’t count on me
She said
For your reason to live
I can empathise
And respond in kind
Take my cue
From many a sign
But there is no way
I can read your mind
Down a silent
Telephone line
The idea really
Was never
For you to just come
And go
It was more to ensure
You could open the door
To remove my head
From inside the stove
I’m sorry I didn’t listen
He said
But I thought I knew it all
Now I’ll watch from the sidelines
She said
And cheer on your downfall
If ever you need someone
You don’t have to worry
As I’ll be there
Like a shot
Please never question
If you can call me
As I’d rather listen to you
Than not
If it takes a village to raise a child
Then my neighbours must have been out
Because I pretty much
Dragged myself up
Of that there is no doubt
Ramblings Of A Fragile Mind 
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