Re-traumatisation Is Re-al

You can stop

Telling me

That it helps

To talk about

This shit

As you have

No notion

Of why

I’ve chosen

To keep

A lid on it


The Shrink

The
pain
is
buried
so
deep

She
said

I
don’t
think
it’ll
ever
re-surface

Then
we
should
leave
it
where
it is

He
said

Breaking
your
heart
(again)
isn’t
worth
it

(Originally Posted 21.02.2020)

The Grief Counsellor

I know you don’t want to hear it

But you can’t run before you can walk

There is no way to beat it

So it’s best to just sit down and talk


Cheats Never Prosper

If there is one thing

I have learned

It’s that you cannot skip

The stages

Even if that means

Moving forward

Feels like it’s taking

Fucking ages

If you jump

Too far forward

You’ll only fall

Further back

And all you’re doing

Is storing your pain

For further

Down the track

(Originally Posted 23.01.2021)

An Unlikely Source

Not only was he handsome,

Smart and debonair

It also transpired

After he had inquired

That he was a millionaire


Currency

I’ll
give
you a
penny
for
them

He
said

Tell
me
your
ups
and
downs

You
can
put
your
coppers
away

She
said

As
to hear
those
you’ll
need
pounds

(Originally Posted 18.12.2020)

Clocking In

Never

Do I feel this more

Than each time I walk

Through that door


Sown Up

I don’t feel better.

I haven’t forgotten.

I’ve just stopped telling you,

How I feel.

(Originally Posted 15.12.2020)

Measure For Measure

You’ve already kissed the Blarney Stone

She said

So let’s just call it a night

You’ve necked just as much as me

He said

And spoken as much shite!!


The Other Irish Rover

I’m
sorry
I told
you
I love
you

He
said

I
just
did it
for
the
craic

There’s
no
need to
apologise

She
said

Just
don’t
expect
I’ll
say it
back

(Originally Posted 20.10.2020)

Together In Time

And so they sat,

Together in time,

Talking until dawn.

Not just did they speak,

Of their lives past,

But also of those to come.


Past Lives

I think I remember you,
she said,
I think we’ve met before.

Perhaps it was when I was young,
she said,
and before my heart was sore.

I don’t remember meeting,
he said,
although I really can’t be sure.

Why don’t you sit down now,
he said,
and talk to me some more.

(Originally Posted 24.08.2019)

It’s Too Late For This Shit

So many nights stood there with you

With so much forced conversation

When all I wanted to do

Was go home for a brew

And enjoy my hibernation


Let Me Go

Please
just
walk
away
from
me

And
take
yourself
off
home

I
do
not
want
to talk
to you

I
want
to be
alone

(Originally Posted 18.08.2020)

Timidity

I know that here I come across

As someone who speaks their mind

But in reality

Words can often fail me

And my voice is much harder to find


The Jumble Sale

I rummage around inside my head as I search for what to say

But my silence means all you hear is I don’t want you to stay

I rummage around inside my head as I look down to the floor

But my silence means all you hear is I don’t love you anymore

What is painfully sad for both of us is neither of these things are true

But the jumble sale of words in my head prevents me from being honest with you

(Originally Posted 28.07.2019)

I Owe You

And now
that
I am
better,
it seems,
you have
taken a
turn for
the worse

But you
won’t talk
to me,
despite
my plea,
which
is really
the most
perverse


Crutches

I fear
I have
lent on
you once
too often,
and now
you are
as broken
as me.

I should
never have
asked for
your help,
to be
honest,
as now
you’ll never
be free.

(Originally Posted 11.07.2019)

That It Comes To This

No one talks about you

Anymore

It’s like you were never here

And for that

I’ll never forgive them

On all that I hold dear


Commitment

You were
always so
terrified
that I
would leave.

When,
after all
was said
and done,
I was the
only one
who stayed.

(Originally Posted 05.06.2019)

The Cliché Continues

So I’m hearing you say you feel empty

He said

Could you expand further on this

Haven’t you heard enough

She said

To put an end to this bullshit


Such A Cliché

I don’t
know if
you’re
aware

She
said

But
I’ve
been
feeling
rather
down

Let me
fetch my
notebook

He
said

Reaching
forward
with a
frown

(Originally Posted 26.05.2020)

Money Talks

Don’t just fucking humour me
She said
Actually listen to what I’m saying

But my job is to indulge you
He said
Isn’t that why you’re paying?

Speak Up

I can empathise

And respond in kind

Take my cue

From many a sign

But there is no way

I can read your mind

Down a silent

Telephone line

Sleeping On An Argument

I’m not talking to you anymore

She said

You’re being ridiculously petty

If you’d have listened in the first place

He said

We could have been in bed already

Distraction

Maybe I could see a friend

Or give them a call instead

It must be better than wrestling

With these demons in my head

Settle In

Tell me all about your life

He said

And what has happened to you

You’ll need to give me a minute

She said

To think all this shit through

‘You Should Have Come In Sooner’

If only I could tell you

But you wouldn’t understand

I don’t know how to open up

Or even if I can

Sharing how I feel with you

Would be difficult at best

So I will just keep trudging on

With my cards close to my chest

Grounding

Thanks for talking to me

He said

I hope it was of some worth

Thank you for listening

She said

It brought me back to earth

Cloth Ears

Why would you ask me

A question

If you don’t want to hear

What I say

It really is fucking

Annoying

That you feel you can treat me

This way

One Tap Away (Friends)

If ever you need someone

You don’t have to worry

As I’ll be there

Like a shot

Please never question

If you can call me

As I’d rather listen to you

Than not

At The Kitchen Table

Will you just stop talking

He said

You’re driving me insane

If you’d just listen in the first place

She said

I wouldn’t have to say it again

Running Scared

In case you don’t come back

He said

You did really well today

Thank you very much

She said

But I don’t believe a word you say

Progress

I cry a lot more now

Even at the silliest thing

My therapist says it’s better

Than trying to keep it all in

Currency

I'll
give
you a
penny
for
them

He
said

Tell
me
your
ups
and
downs

You
can
put
your
coppers
away

She
said

As
for
those
I'll
need
pounds

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