Imperfectly Perfect

All those memories

Good and bad

Making me smile

Driving me mad

Yet lying here

It makes me sad

As we never knew

Quite what we had


The Old Days

Waking along
this empty street

Splashing puddles
with my feet

I remember when
we used to meet

And my broken heart
skips a beat

(Originally Posted 05.12.2019)

(High)lands Reprise

As I stand here

Taking snaps

Comparing them

To years past

I am struck

By the magnitude

Of how much I now

Love my solitude


(High)lands

Let us
roam
amongst
the
heather

Laugh
out loud 
betwixt
the
blether

Kiss
amidst
this
stormy
weather

Until
we
come
undone
together

(Originally Posted 03.12.2020)

Screwed

If we’d had a plan

When all this began

Perhaps we could both advance

But as things are

We’ve gone too far

And now none of us

Stand a chance


Obvious

At a
different
time

In a
different
place

The
answer
would
stare
us

Right
in the
face

(Originally Posted 30.11.2019)

To The Day

Many more moons

Have passed since then

And plenty of suns

Now too

In fact it’s been

1,458 days

That I’ve been here

Without you

Xxx


Many A Moon

As that
day draws
ever closer

The pain
cannot be
avoided

To think
it was just
a year ago

When my
whole world
imploded

(Originally Posted 28.11.2019)

We’re Here For It

You always were the joker

Who we could count on for a laugh

So it’s been hard to watch you

Being literally torn in half

But you don’t have to pretend with us

Or put on your best gameface

As we know, one day, that humour

Will return to its rightful place


GameFace

All I do is let
people down

They want
me to smile

But I can
only frown

For I no longer
have the energy

To be the person
they want me to be

(Originally Posted 27.11.2019)

After The Affair

You can say sorry

All you want

And truly mean

What you say

But when you’ve been burnt

All that pain and hurt

Doesn’t ever

Just go away


The Bargain

Who knows
when our
time will
come

But I fear
it’s not
just yet

For you
have to
forgive
yourself

And I
have to
forget

(Originally Posted 27.11.2019)

You’ll Never Change

It’s been a long time

Since I’ve seen you

But don’t think I have forgotten

How truly rank

And repulsive you are

That even your insides are rotten


Grandiose

I’ll always
be the
better
person

But
there’s
no need
to sweat it

I will
always
be hanging
around

To make
sure you
don’t
forget it

(Originally Posted 26.11.2019)

No Hard Feelings

It wasn’t our time

Nor was it the place

But I’ll never forget

Your sweet embrace


The Reference

When it is

I see

Her next

I’ll be sure

To let

Her know

How you’re

Passionate,

Funny

And kind

And how

It hurts

To let

You go

(Originally Posted 11.11.2021)

Puppy Love

Well I know exactly

What I think of you

All blotchy and balding

At forty two

Now I’m glad we split

At our old school gates

Back when I was seven

And you were eight


High School Reunions

I
wonder
what

You’d
think
of me
now

Fat,
forty
and
fucked

Would
you
still
love me
forever

Want
to be
together
whatever

Or be
thankful
for the
life
you
ducked

(Originally Posted 10.11.2020)

Self Improvement Isn’t Always Progress

I’ve really tried hard

These last few years

To become more authentic

But I fear in trying

To come out of hiding

I just look even more eccentric


‘Getting Away With It’

I’m
pretty
good
at it
now

Hiding
all
my
flaws

Thank
God
you
don’t
see

The
real
me

The
one
that’s
such a
fraud

(Originally Posted 09.11.2020)

I Wouldn’t Have Bothered

After all those years

Of loving you

And trying my best

To understand

If only I knew

It would be you

Who’d be the one

To drop my hand


Me & You

Watch
me
and
you’ll
sense
it

Touch
me
and
you’ll
know

Tell
me
and
you’ll
feel
it

Hold
me
and
don’t
let go

(Originally Posted 07.11.2019)

Terminated

Here I am stuck

In this carriage again

Honestly,

I could scream

I’m forever trying

To reach the end

Yet I always run out

Of steam


‘Forever Delayed’

Brought
to a
standstill

By leaves
on the
line ahead

Yet
another
signal
point
failure

Oh how
I wish
I’d stayed
in bed

(Originally Posted 05.11.2019)

Too Late Now

I don’t know how it’s happened

And I can’t even tell you why

But, it seems, I’ve grown old

In love with the wrong fucking guy


Set In Stone

Neither of
us knows

If the life
we chose

Will work out
for the best

(Originally Posted 05.11.2019)

An Official Declaration

I guess I don’t feel

Like this anymore

But in that I can take no pride

As the only reason

I feel any different

Is because I’m now dead inside


What’s The Point?

It
feels
like
I will
never
laugh
again

As my
life
is so
full of
sorrow
and pain

Like
I will
no
longer
be able
to smile

And
that
nothing
I do will
ever be
worthwhile

(Originally Posted 01.11.2019)

How Much Longer?

Three years on

And here I am

Having been kept waiting

With my life on hold

My heart stone cold

And my tears still accumulating


Tell Me

Do
these
tears
ever
stop?

(Originally Posted 28.10.2019)

Not Yet, Anyway

It will soon be three years

Without him here

And I know time is supposed to fly

But it feels like just yesterday

That he was my mainstay

So I’m not ready for some other guy


The Anniversary

It will
soon be
a year,
without
you here,
and I
don’t
know
what
to do.

For I’m
still
nowhere
near,
facing
my fear,
or the
reality
of losing
you.

Xxx

(Originally Posted 17.10.2019)

One Decision, One Thousand Lifetimes

I’m not sure if this notion

Of there only ever being one person

For us to love is true

But what I can say for sure

Is even if there were a hundred more

I would only ever want you


Galaxies

If
I was
to
decide

To
leave
this
place

I’d
still
find
you
again

In
any
time or
space

(Originally Posted 10.11.2020)

6hr 45mins

And so

It comes time

To travel home again

At least

I’ll sleep

On this fucking train


Digging For Worms

Please
make
sure
you
bury
me
deep

So
I can
finally
get
some
fucking
sleep

(Originally Posted 06.10.2020)

‘Right Here Right Now’

It’s funny how

To bookish types

I certainly was once attracted

Whereas now I’m older

I’ve no time for the smoulder

And need something far less protracted


Timerous Beasties

When
I picture
my
youth

I see
you
and
me

Sitting
beneath
that old
oak tree

You
reading
a book

My
head
on your
shoulder

Both
of us
hoping

The
other
is
bolder

(Originally Posted 01.10.2020)

Even On Good Days

It’s never too far away

That shadow

I see it from the corner

Of my eye

An ever present reminder

Of what we lost

And when we had

To say goodbye


Mourning

Darkness
casts a
shadow
over my
head

As it
does
over
my
heart

Thoughts
and
dreams
of you
abound

As does
sorrow
that
we’d to
part

(Originally Posted 27.09.2019)

Redo

There is no going back

There are no more simpler times

Now I just have to accept

That you’ll never again be mine


Undo

Can we go back

To a simpler time

When I was yours

And you were mine?

(Originally Posted 27.09.2020)

You’re No Saviour

I realise now

Your intentions back then

Were not quite

So well-meaning

All I can hope

Is that some other dope

Doesn’t fall victim

To your scheming


Already Grown Up

Come
with me,
he said,
take my
hand.
I’ll fly us
away to
Neverland.

I’m sorry,
she said,
but there’s
no way
I can.
Please
say that you
understand.

(Originally Posted 26.09.2019)

Telling The Truth

Three years on

And although further forward

By the pain of his death

I am still tortured


At A Bedside, Desolate

There
is no
more
hope.

There
are no
more
dreams.

My life
continues
to fall apart
at the seams,

As I
lie here
thinking
of you.

And
wondering
what the fuck
I’m supposed
to do,

Now.

(Originally Posted 24.09.2019)

I’ve Seen You Looking

It’s only hypothetical

Because too much time has passed

Though I’m pretty sure

If I wanted more

You’d say yes, if asked


Hypothetically Speaking

Do you
ever think
of me

In those
moments
you have spare

Do you
ever
dream

Of running
your fingers
through my hair

Do you ever
imagine how
it would feel

If you
held your
hand in mine

Do you ever
long to look
into my eyes

And feel
our souls
entwine

(Originally Posted 21.09.2019)

Because You’re Worth It

You’ll be here all day

She said

There really isn’t much to find

Well I will never stop looking

He said

Until the end of time


Digging For Gold

Kindness
lives
within
you

He
said

Of
that
I am
the
judge

Then
by all
means
try to
find it

She
said

Beneath
the
fucking
sludge

(Originally Posted 18.09.2020)

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