“I’m OK By Myself”

Someone asked me

Today

Why I prefer to travel

Alone

Because it’s easier

I said

Than listening to other people

Moan


Better Off Dead

Sometimes
I
wonder,

Is
this all
there is?

Just
boredom,
emptiness

And your
endless
bullshit?

I couldn’t
think of
anything
nicer,

Than to be
somewhere
else
instead.

Far from
all the
anxiety
and pain,

And your
words
plaguing
my head

(Originally Posted 07.12.2019)

6hr 45mins

And so

It comes time

To travel home again

At least

I’ll sleep

On this fucking train


Digging For Worms

Please
make
sure
you
bury
me
deep

So
I can
finally
get
some
fucking
sleep

(Originally Posted 06.10.2020)

Inescapable

It doesn’t matter where I go

Or who I try to be

One thing is always for sure

Trouble follows me


The Road To Happiness

So it’s off
out of the
country
again

Leaving
my
troubles
behind

Perhaps
I’ll find
happiness
again

Or at
least
peace
of mind

(Originally Posted 02.10.2019)

A Pain In The Neck

After spending seven hours today

Sitting on a train

As I lie here

I’m starting to fear

That I may never sleep again


The Sleeping Tablet

Thankfully,

tiredness

descends.

As upon

sleep,

sanity

depends.

(Originally Posted 30.09.2019)

Looking In All The Wrong Places

If it’s distance that you want

He said

Then that’s exactly what you’ll get

There has to be something more

She said

But I just haven’t found it yet


A Pin In A Map

Do you think you’ll get away with it

He said

That you will succeed in your plan

I just know I have to try

She said

I need as much distance as I can

(Originally Posted 03.08.2021)

Realisations

Off on
my travels
again

Hoping
this time
for something
new

But
time has
told me

And
experience
shown me

My dreams
will never
come true


Aspirations

Off on
my travels
again

Hoping to
find some
peace

Perhaps I’ll
meet someone
new

And this
heartache will
cease

(Originally Posted 31.07.2019)

Same Shit Different Day

I travelled a lot that spring

Most of it in a daze

Birthdays, weddings and weekends away

All came and went in a haze

Yet I found consequently

Whatever good time I was shown

I would feel subsequently

That I was very much alone


1000 Miles

The message from the search engine pings.

Its spies inform me that last month I visited:

Three different countries,
Fifteen different cities,
And twenty one different places.

That means I travelled over 1000 miles, last month.

Each one without you.

And every one with an empty heart.

(Originally Posted 03.06.2019)

Wow Part #2

In difference to the year before

I’d travelled down to Glasgow here

I met up with an old friend

To discuss another one over beer

What a difference a year can make

Along with some heavy anti-depressants

As you can see I was far happier

And had never felt more present


Old Faces

I
loved
talking
to you
so much
tonight

It
bought
a tear
to my
eye

It seems
there’s
no one
else I
want to
sit with

And
watch
the
world
go by

(Originally Posted 30.03.2020)

Wow Part #1

Jesus.

How depressed was I?

I’d travelled over to Dublin

Albeit with a heavy sigh

I remember all those people

And all the fun they had

I remember trying to fit in

Even though I was pretty much mad

It’s sad to think back now

On just how much I missed

As I may well have been there in person

But I clearly did not want to exist


Travel

It doesn’t matter where in the world you go.

How beautiful the country you visit,

How fascinating the people you meet,

How much booze you drink.

You can’t run away from your thoughts.

You might have a different view from your window but your soul will remain as black as the night sky and, beneath it all, you’ll still be the same fuck up you always were.

Travel solves nothing.

(Originally Posted 30.03.2019)

Random #145

“I felt my lungs inflate with the onrush of scenery – air, mountains, trees, people. I thought: “This is what it is to be happy.”

― Sylvia Plath

Small Talk

I can’t take any more of this

You’re really hurting my head

So please stop talking

And just start walking

Leaving me the fuck alone instead

Random #110

‘I don’t want to work
I want to bang on the drum all day

I don’t want to play
I just want to bang on the drum all day…’

Going Too Far

Lying 
here
in
this
strange
bed

Wondering
what
was
going on
inside
my head

Trying
to
ignore
this
feeling
of dread

Wishing
I had
chosen
to stay
at home
instead

Home Of The Brave

This
country
is
my
home
now

Of
that
there
is
no
doubt

If
I
had
not
followed
you
here

Then
I’d
never
have
found
that
out

Left Bereft

I
was so
devastated
for you
that day

As
you had
travelled
all that
way

Hoping
to say
your
final
goodbye

But your
time
together
was so
cruelly
denied

Xxx

These Ruby Shoes

It
doesn’t
matter
where
you go

Or
however
far
you
roam

It’s
true what
they say
you know
Toto

There
is no
place
like
home

Hand Luggage

This weight
is too heavy

Its burden
is too great

Yet I struggle
on regardless

Resigned
to my fate

Glasgow

Everything has
changed
while everything
has stayed
the same

In this city
I once
so proudly
called
‘hame’

Insides

Another grey sky.
Another bleak landscape.
Another version of me.
Looking out,
Looking in.

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