Turning up here
An armful of beer
The epitome of niceness
But the look on your face
As I call you a disgrace
Is absolutely fucking priceless
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
Turning up here
An armful of beer
The epitome of niceness
But the look on your face
As I call you a disgrace
Is absolutely fucking priceless
Things can only get better
He said
If you keep up this attitude
It’ll be gone within the day
She said
Along with my good mood
That’s really amazing news
She said
I’m so very pleased for you
Now let’s just leave it there
She said
As you wouldn’t want the truth
I know that it must seem
She said
Like I’m arrogant and self centered
But that’s not it at all
She said
I just write how I feel uncensored
I don’t care
That you didn’t mean it
Or if just to deflect
You moved to attack
As now I know how you seethe
Underneath
And you can never take that back
With my head at rest
On the chopping block
I now think it best
That I start to talk
I didn’t tell you
All back then
So don’t think
That I’ll talk now
Just because
You’ve changed your tune
Doesn’t mean
You’ve won me round
If you should ever fall
He said
Then I’d be here to catch you
Well you’ll need pretty strong arms
She said
With legs to match them too
Save your cheers
Your whoops and applause
I don’t deserve it
I’m inherently flawed
And please don’t say
That’s why you love me
Because that’s even worse
Than just clapping would be
The hardest part
About being depressed
Isn’t crying
Every day
The hardest part
About being depressed
Is pretending
You’re OK
I’ll never have
The perfect body
I’ll always be
An imperfect soul
So to get through each day
Without further decay
That
Is the fucking goal
You’ll say
You didn’t mean it
And it was
An honest mistake
But you’re a shit actress,
Quite frankly
So I know exactly
Just what point
You were trying to make
No one cares
In the end
Not even family
Or your friends
You say that I am crazy
And always take things
To extremes
But I know full well
That you lie to me
Even in my dreams
I just don’t understand
He said
Why she would try to tear us apart
Because the cost of true love
She said
Is always someone else’s heart
If you knew
Anything about me
You’d know that shit
Isn’t my style
I’d say
To your face
That you’re a cunt
And not hide it
Behind a smile
Time to tell your truth
He said
To stand up and face the crowd
I’m not sure how I’ll cope
She said
Saying all this stuff out loud
“Life…has been unfaithful”
It was you
Who wanted this
Not me
You who were
Too blind
To see
That we could
Never make
Each other happy
Not while
My heart is chained
And yours
Runs free
The day
Is getting closer
The hour
Is drawing near
Will I find a way
My truth to say
Or will I simply cower
In fear
It’s looking like
We got it wrong again
Because of his persona
We missed their pain
And although, I’m sure,
He’ll issue his refrain
Any protest now
Must surely be in vain
The problem with me
Is you
I don’t think
You were hiding
But you just genuinely
Didn’t know
When I would ask
“How are you feeling”
About
The impending blow
It took me a while
To realise it
However, it seems,
I’m built for this shit
Some days
I feel ok
And how I present
Is true
But on other days
This deep malaise
Makes faking it
Too hard to do
Tongue tied
Dead inside
Lying
On my bed of nails
Forever lonely
Seeing true love only
In films
And fairy tales
Paranoia can be
Our best friend
As it often saves us
In the end
You think you get it
But you never could
Because at his bedside
You never stood
We need support
When traumatised
Not to be attacked
Or demonised
Something we wish
That you’d realise
When losing them
Leaves us paralysed
The lighter’s scritch
Scratches the itch
Of yet another
Nicotine hit
So I flick the switch
And cross the stitch
On yet another day
I didn’t quit
Time’s tide
Is unforgiving
Not for the dead
But upon the living
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