Tag: truth

Wow Part #3

It never ceases to amaze me

How blunt I was back then

It’s so clear to see

I wasn’t well, mentally,

When I read this one again

Another Day…

Another day of pretence dawns,

And my heart is full of dread.

Another chasm in my mind yawns,

And I wish that I was dead.

(Originally Posted 09.05.2019)

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My Better Half

Now you’re not here

To cheer me on

I have lost my way a bit

I just need to remember

Those things you said

And try my best to get through it

You Make It Easy

It’s
not
really
you I
love

It’s
that
when
I am
with
you

You
make
it
easy
to
believe

The
lies
I tell
myself
are
true

(Originally Posted 08.05.2020)

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Disingenuous

You hide behind

All that shit you post

But you and I both know

You’re far more inclined

Someone else to quote

Than for your own thoughts to show

Blocked

Your
platitudes
irritate
me every
day

That’s
it

That’s
all
I wanted
to
say

(Originally Posted 05.05.2020)

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‘What Do I Do Now?’

Call me pessimistic

But I’m just being real

This isn’t just

What I think

This is exactly how I feel

Cruelty

In a perfect world,

There is someone for everyone.

You meet each other.

You fall in love.

And you stay together,

Forever.

Ours, however, is a cruel world.

There is someone for everyone,

But you might never meet them.

You might never fall in love.

And you might not stay together,

Forever.

Because they might die,

Before you do.

And then, you’re fucked.

(Originally Posted 03.05.2019)

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Black-and-Blue

I can’t quite believe

All the time I wasted

Trying to be perfect

When all I created

Was a lie

Bruised

It’s
OK

You
can
say
it

After
all
it’s
true

I
know
you
never

Really
loved
me

Like
how
I loved
you

(Originally Posted 30.04.2020)

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Random #193

“You’d be surprised what lengths people will go to not to face what’s real and painful inside them.”

– Kester Gill

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More Secrets

I’ve been trying so hard

To be honest with you

To believe what I say

And mean what I do

But as I have struggled

This I know to be true

I must always and forever

Fake it with you

For You

I’ll smile today, for you.
But I won’t mean it.

I’ll laugh today, for you.
But I won’t feel it.

I’ll fake it every day, for you.
But you’ll never know it.

(Originally Posted 16.04.2019)

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The Cliché Continues

Still here

Still pretending

Still living

With grief unending

Sick & Tired

And
so
begins
another
day

Where
I pretend
every
thing
is ok

If
only
there
was
another
way

As I
hate
being
such a
fucking
cliché

(Originally Posted 14.04.2020)

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But It’s So Brutally Apt

So you’re another year older, eh?

And yet you’re still a cunt

Aging it seems, sadly for you,

Changes nothing on that front

(Not Too) Many Happy Returns

Happy
Birthday
to you

I hope
you
have
fun

I didn’t
send you
a card

Because
you don’t
deserve
one

(Originally Posted 11.04.2020)

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A String Trio

Were you ever lovers?

Or was he just your friend

I guess now I’ll never know

Who he wanted in the end

Second Fiddle

Drunkenly
wishing
upon a
star

Won’t
make my
dreams
come true

For he’ll
never be
able to
love me

Half as
much as
he loved
you

(Originally Posted 06.04.2020)

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I Know Now

And here I lie

My heart still broken

Knowing this to be

The truest word I’ve spoken

Who Knew

I’d never realised
the word heartbreak
was meant literally,
until now

(Originally Posted 04.04.2019)

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Truths

I still stand by this.

Completely.

Lies

There is no better place.
Those we love don’t walk beside us.
There are no other rooms.
You will stand at that grave and weep.
There are more than five stages.
There are more than two parts.
Tears are not silent.
There is no peace or comfort to find.
Time heals nothing.
You’ll always walk alone.

And grief is like a fucking tsunami,
so good luck learning to swim in that.

(Originally Posted 23.03.2019)

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Pretentious

I guess I could say

I wanted to make

A few different points here

About the ‘disconnection’

Between body and mind

The betrayal of desire made clear

But I’d be lying

If I said these things

When the truth is actually thus

It was more that I wanted

To find a way

Of using the word egregious

Disconnection

She betrayed me again today

The little bitch

She always wants what I do not

Now I must fix

Her egregious mistake

Before both of us get caught

(Originally Posted 22.03.2021)

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Solidarity

I wrote this one

Two years ago

When the pandemic

The world had changed

Yet reading it again

It could well be written now

By those poor souls

In Ukraine

Surreal

It is
just so
unbelievable

That things
have come
to this

Who or
what will
save us?

As we
stare into
the abyss…

(Originally Posted 22.03.2020)

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Too Graphic

I have never set out

To offend

To hurt,

Or cause anyone displeasure

But I do understand

The words from my hand

Are too heavy for some to treasure

Dear Reader

Sometimes
my words
are so
savage

I even
surprise
myself

It’s like
the page
I must
ravage

With no
care at
all for
yourself

(Originally Posted 21.03.2020)

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Answers

Never
Of course not
I shouldn’t think so
Don’t be stupid
Obviously not
You should
You won’t
Fuck knows
Of course
Yes

Questions

When does this pain end?
Have I not suffered enough?
Will things ever change?
Does time heal everything?
Am I done?
Do I care?
Shall I?
Go where?
Alone?
Forever?

(Originally Posted 20.03.2019)

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Try Manchego Instead

If only it took

Just a wee bit of cheese

To give my heart

A playful squeeze

Yet to succeed

Requires further endeavour

As I have no desire

(For cheese or otherwise)

What so fucking ever

Middle Class Wooing

Don’t
bother
picking
flowers

They
will just
make me
sneeze

If you
really
want to
impress me

Just
bring
a wheel
of cheese

For an
‘expensive’
bottle
of wine

And a
little
bit of
Brie

Is
really
all it
takes

To get
into
bed
with me

(Originally Posted 02.03.2020)

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The Tirade

Don’t stop me now

I’m on a roll

Saying my piece

Letting it all go

It was you who did this to us

You see

You are the arsehole here

Not me

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Translucent

I can see straight through you

He said

Your truth isn’t so hard to find

There’s no way you can navigate

She said

The grey areas of my mind

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You’ll Keep

One day

I’ll have my way

And all the world will know

Exactly why

You’re the bad guy

And I deserve my halo

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Candour

What is more important

She said

Being kind or telling the truth

For if it’s the latter

Then I cannot flatter

And your ego I will not soothe

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Random #148

“I wish neither to possess nor to be possessed. I no longer covet ‘paradise’. More important, I no longer fear ‘hell’. The medicine for my suffering I had within me from the very beginning but I did not take it. My ailment came from within myself, but I did not observe it, until this moment. Now I see that I will never find the light unless, like the candle, I am my own fuel, consuming myself.”

– Bruce Lee

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Yet Another Failure

If there’s one thing I’m sure of

He said

It’s that you’ll get your happy ending

Please stop lying to me

She said

And being so fucking condescending

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Random #139

‘… this is how I am when I’m scared. It’s unfamiliar to you, but not to me. I can – I can fucking be scared – and carry on’

– Tommy Shelby

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The Reference

When

I next see her

I’ll be sure

To let her know

How you’re passionate,

Funny and kind

And how it hurts

To let you go

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The T

As I sit here

All alone

And my tears

Begin to fall

I am reminded

Once again

Chamomile tea

Solves fuck all

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Putting It Bluntly

I’ll say

I felt better

In the end

But the honest truth

Is that

The only reason

I didn’t jump

That day

Is there’d be no one

To feed my cat

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A Selfish Cunt

Call yourself a friend

When you left me here alone

When you couldn’t even be bothered

To visit or lift the phone

Call yourself a friend

When you all you did was make me frown

When you were only happy

If you were putting me down

Call yourself a friend

When you never gave me any advice

Well I know what I’d call you

And it isn’t very nice

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Random #100

“Books cannot be killed by fire.

People die, but books never die. No man and no force can put thought in a concentration camp forever.

No man and no force can take from the world the books that embody man’s eternal fight against tyranny.

In this war, we know, books are weapons.”

– Franklin D. Roosevelt

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One Of Many

I may have said

You were exceptional

But I’m afraid, my dear,

You were never quite

The exception

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Spies

I’m not who you think I am

She said

There’s been many times I’ve lied

I knew from the moment we met

He said

That this wouldn’t be cut and dried

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On Borrowed Time

You can sit there all you want

My friend

Picking at your thumbs

But you and I know

How this will end

When the day of reckoning comes

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Perverse

It’s only when you lie

I find

That my pain goes away

But when you tell the truth

I find

I don’t know what to say

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