"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
I took the fact
He listened
As you sending me
A sign
So wherever you are
I hope you know
Your best friend
Is now mine
Xxx
The Soirée
It
was
exactly
One
year
ago
That
we all
sat in
that
tent
But
there
was
only
one
Who
truly
heard
My
broken
hearted
lament
From
that
day
We’ve
kept
in touch
Forging a
connection
of our
own
And
that’s
because
You
chose
us
To
reap
what
you
had
sown
(Originally Posted 16.02.2020)
I wouldn’t expect you
To understand
Your skin acts
As a protective layer
But mine is a seal
To be broken
For discharging misery
And despair
Scenes Some Viewers May Find Upsetting
It’s
not
self harming
It’s
self
soothing
(Originally Posted 10.02.2020)
We put so much faith
In the words we use
When they’re so open
To misinterpretation
We quite often think
We all mean the same thing
When it’s actually just down
To perception
Meaningless
I
really
do love
you
She
said
I love
you
with
all my
heart
But
you
also
love
tomato
sauce
He
said
So
this
whole
thing’s
just a
farce
(Originally Posted 02.02.2020)
You always were the joker
Who we could count on for a laugh
So it’s been hard to watch you
Being literally torn in half
But you don’t have to pretend with us
Or put on your best gameface
As we know, one day, that humour
Will return to its rightful place
GameFace
All I do is let
people down
They want
me to smile
But I can
only frown
For I no longer
have the energy
To be the person
they want me to be
(Originally Posted 27.11.2019)
It’s not like it wasn’t obvious
That I was depressed as fuck
Given all my talk,
I would’ve thought,
That was understood
Read Between The Lines
How
much
more
Must
I write
Before
you
come to
save
me?
How
much
more
Must
I fight
Before
you
run to
embrace
me?
(Originally Posted 14.09.2020)
Now I don’t bother
With feelings at all
They wouldn’t get it
Even if I tried
No one cares
As it was my man,
Not theirs,
Who so unexpectedly died
Locked Away
As the
chasm
between
us
Continues
to grow
It gets
harder
and
harder
My
feelings
to show
Xxx
(Originally Posted 01.09.2020)
He knew right then
As he watched
The tear fall from her eye
It was best to forget
And to just let
His feelings for her die
Silent Conversations
Not yet
but soon
she says,
as she makes her
way to the door
But when,
how soon
he asks
as he stares
at the floor
Not yet
but soon
she says,
as her head
is slowly bowed
But when,
how soon
he asks
will we
be allowed?
(Originally Posted 22.08.2019)
‘The Drugs Don’t Work’
Sang the man from Wigan
Just as I’d turned seventeen
Back then it was fun
As real life hadn’t begun
But now I know what he means
Quieten Down(er)
I’ll
take
anything
you’ve
got to
give
Drink,
smoke,
or sedative
As the
voices
inside
my head
these
days
Are
far too
competitive
(Originally Posted 15.08.2020)
Some have come and gone
Over the years
But I thank each and every one
Who helped dry my tears
Connections
It’s easier to connect with other writers these days, than it is to any of my friends.
It’s because we understand how shit things are, I think, when the madness descends.
(Originally Posted 24.07.2019)
You have it all
In comparison to me
This has always been true
It’s why I’ll never be
Anything more
Than infinitely jealous of you
Lucky You
My head hurts,
Does yours?
My heart cries,
Does yours?
My body aches,
Does yours?
My soul dies,
Does yours?
How can it?
Your head
is as pretty
as a picture.
Your heart
is full
to bursting.
Your body
is as perfect
as a model,
And your soul
flies like an eagle
soaring high above
the rocky plains.
Lucky you.
(Originally Posted 26.04.2019)
I suppose
You understand me now
Why I said
What was on my mind
Well don’t expect
Anything from me
As I’ll be paying you back
In kind
I was thinking
Earlier on today
How it really
Would be nice
To go at least
One day
Without
Your bullshit advice
“Justice and humaneness have never gone hand in hand. The law is not a sentimental comedy.”
– Captain Watkin Tench
I thought
If I told you
How I felt
That you
Would understand
But now I realise
I was wrong
So I’m stuck
In no man’s land
If only you’d seen
What these eyes have seen
Perhaps then
You could understand
If it was you crying
As he lay dying
You’d know why I made
That demand
Listening to these old songs
How I wish I could go back
Maybe I’d make different choices
And life wouldn’t be so black
You must know why
I behave this way
The resignation is clear
On my face
You of all people
Should understand
My need for time
And space
Just think about
What I lost
On the day he died
Then ask yourself
If you were me
When would your tears subside?
I didn’t know it would hurt like this
He said
Or what I’d have to go through
There is no way of knowing
She said
Until it happens to you
Why is everything so fucking bleak with you
He said
Why can’t you just stop moping around
For my melancholy is lifelong
She said
And no cure can be found
I don’t care
If you don’t understand
Because this
Isn’t meant
For you
You were just pissed off
That he never wanted a place
You never really understood
What he was trying to embrace
That’s why you weren’t involved
And the reason we no longer speak
I’m just glad he wasn’t around
To see the damage you would wreak
Who am I
To pass judgement
On whatever it is
You’ve done
As I can’t help but think
In the same situation
I might also
Have loaded that gun
Why
don’t
you
Swap
places
with me
Sink
to the
depths
That
I have
been
For
if you
suffered
The
way
I do
Perhaps
you’d
feel
The
same
way
too
I
scroll
through
your words
And
realise
mine don’t
compare
For
you all
write so
beautifully
Whereas
I splurge
without
a care
Ramblings Of A Fragile Mind 
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