My Heart Was Never In It

When we stood

Up there that day

And promised

We’d always be true

It seems all I proved

As our marriage concludes

Is that I’m a better liar

Than you

Torn Asunder

We always knew

This would end one day

That all our feelings

Would fade away

But we didn’t know

How much it would hurt

That we couldn’t see it through

For better or worse

You said

To me

You’d always

Be true

Yet it’s clear

That forever

Meant fuck all

To you

Why can’t I trust myself,
like I trusted you?

Why can’t I protect myself,
like I protected you?

Why can’t I love myself,
like I loved you?

Why?