“Loved Up / Doved Up”

It was so much easier

Back then

As we fell in love

With our friends

Now don’t get me wrong

The drugs played a part

But we were also more open

To sharing our hearts


Love In The 90’s

No one could wear

A band t-shirt like you

With your longer hair

And grey cardigan too

That smile so shy

Those Doc Marten boots

It is no wonder why

We were in such cahoots

(Originally Posted 20.11.2020)

Puppy Love

Well I know exactly

What I think of you

All blotchy and balding

At forty two

Now I’m glad we split

At our old school gates

Back when I was seven

And you were eight


High School Reunions

I
wonder
what

You’d
think
of me
now

Fat,
forty
and
fucked

Would
you
still
love me
forever

Want
to be
together
whatever

Or be
thankful
for the
life
you
ducked

(Originally Posted 10.11.2020)

Heartbreaker

Thank God

I never gave him this

As I don’t think

He’d have ever recovered

Young love is such

A fickle thing

As I’m sure

He’s since discovered


(I’m Not In) Love Letters

I read,
read
and
read it
again

But it
doesnt
change
a thing

I can’t
take
back
what
I wrote

Or
remove
it’s
sting

(Originally Posted 23.05.2020)

Sickly Sweet

Oh isn’t young love a dream

Isn’t it so fucking cute

Like a cat who got all the cream

Reading this, I want to puke


Favourites

Tell me your favourite song
And I’ll play it.

Show me your favourite book
And I’ll read it.

Tell me your favourite film
And I’ll watch it.

Show me your favourite shirt
And I’ll wear it.

Tell me I’m your favourite
And I’ll love you.

Forever.

(Originally Posted 18.04.2019)

The Naivety Of Youth

He had a lucky escape

To be fair


Passing Notes in Class 6GA

I think we should stop seeing each other.

I can’t stop thinking that something is going to go wrong and we are going to get found out. I feel so much guilt about what we’ve been doing – it’s not fair on her, you or me. It’s not right that we have to keep our relationship a secret. It means I cannot let you get close to me and you deserve more than that. You need someone who can show off what a brilliant guy you are. Not someone who has to hide you away. Like me.

I want you to know that the times we have shared have been really special to me. I’ve enjoyed every second I’ve spent with you and that’s what makes this so much harder. But it has to be done. Although it kills me to say it: we cannot carry on. I love you with all my heart but putting an end to this now will be the best thing for us both in the long run.

I’ll never forget our time together. I’ll treasure the memories of our clandestine meetings forever.

Please don’t forget me. I know I’ll never forget you.

I’m sorry.

(Originally Posted 13.03.2019)

‘And then you spoke to me and said…’

You spoke to me without being forced.
You said my full name, without being told what it was.
You looked at me.

I was happy just to see you.
Being in the same building as you again sent chills
down my spine and welled tears in my eyes.
I had recognised your presence and then let it go.
Like always.

But you took it further, this time.
You spoke to me without being forced.
You said my full name, without being told what it was.
You looked at me.

I could not believe what was happening.
My foolish response - 'Wow, you know my name' -
swirling in the air around us,
choking me with its embarrassment.
You smiled your vacant smile.
You muttered something and walked away.

Words cannot describe how I felt.
You spoke to me without being forced.
You said my full name, without being told what it was.
You looked at me.

It made it all seem worthwhile.
The years of following you. The years of obsession.
You spoke to me.

I had to get another drink and light a cigarette.
So, I noticed, did you.

When you spoke to me that second time,
I don't think I was present.
I had seen you walking in my direction,
but I had ceased to exist.
You said 'I see you all the time at parties,
but I never get a chance to talk to you'.
I drowned in the ecstasy of your words,
and further still when you said 'See you soon'.

Those three words gave me so much hope.
Hope I never had before.
Not even after the notes...

For the rest of the night I watched you, watching me.
At least I pretended not to watch you,
pretending not to watch me.

But I was so happy.  Elated in fact.
You had spoken to me without being forced.
You said my full name without being told what it was.
You looked at me.

When you left the room, and I watched you go,
you didn't just take your pretty little head with you.
You took a piece of me too.
A piece of me that will be with you always,
and lost to me...
Forever.

For MR

(Originally Posted 03/03/2019)

 

Love In The 90’s

No one could wear

A band t-shirt like you

With your longer hair

And grey cardigan too

With your smile so shy

And Doc Marten boots

It was no wonder why

We were in cahoots

Coffee Dates

We
should
do this
more
often

She
said

You
really
are so
sweet

I
love
it when
you
soften

He
said

It
makes
me feel
complete

The Old Days

Waking along
this empty street

Splashing puddles
with my feet

I remember when
we used to meet

And my broken heart
skips a beat

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