I am always here
He said
If you ever want
To talk
We could sit
And have a coffee
He said
Or go out
For a walk
Thank you
For the offer
She said
But I’d really
Rather not
If I start taking now
She said
I don’t think
I’d ever stop
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
I am always here
He said
If you ever want
To talk
We could sit
And have a coffee
He said
Or go out
For a walk
Thank you
For the offer
She said
But I’d really
Rather not
If I start taking now
She said
I don’t think
I’d ever stop
It fucked me up
That much is true
But the lonliness
Was nothing new
I’m glad
You’re feeling better
And that
You’re doing well
As maybe now
I’ll have the pleasure
Of meeting you
In hell
Knowing
We’ll never
Meet again
Isn’t even
The worst
It’s more the fact
You never called back
That really
Fucking hurts
My bags are packed
I’m ready to go
Now all I need
Is for you to show
Me where I can get
One for the road
As we have found
Where your body has lain
We hope it heals
Your family’s pain
And though they’ll struggle
To see past the rain
Now you can be
Together again
Rest assured
Our assignation
Leaves you with
No obligation
Watching you
From afar
I can see
Just why you’re hated
Parading around
As the victim
In a situation
You fucking created
I often think
Of that night
And how events
Proceeded
Because being seduced
Was the confidence boost
That I so sorely
I needed
You keep saying
That it’s sorted
And everything’s
Under control
Yet all I can see
Is anxiety
As you fall deeper
Down the hole
I clear the table
But leave your plate
Telling myself
You’re just running late
Over
And over again
Even if
You love me now
There’s no way
That it can last
For I know my luck
And I’ll fuck it up
Losing all
That we have amassed
Nothing
Of what
We had
Remains
As our
Memories
Dance
Between
The flames
I don’t think
You appreciate
How hard it is
To stay on track
When the only steps
Available
Are two forward
And three back
If I could love anyone
She said
Then it would be you
But what’s inside me now
Is broken
And there is nothing
I can do
I’ve often wondered
Over the years
If I had never met
The barbarian
What my life
Would have been like
Had I slept
With the librarian
(Inspired by a writing prompt offered by Michael at https://afterwards.blog)
High School English Teachers
I remember everything about you
Your cardigan, glasses and quiff
If you weren’t so much older
Maybe I’d have been bolder
And asked you out forthwith
(Originally Posted 19.08.2022)
Last Chance
Despite my protests
to the contrary,
it has always
been you.
Why not
meet me
at the library,
and I’ll make
your dreams
come true.
(Originally Posted 19.08.2019)
As much as we had fun
She said
I am never
Drinking again
What on earth were we thinking
He said
Mixing grape
And grain
It never ceases to amaze me
How quickly the tears can flow
At some moment of nostalgia
Or sentimental TV show
I guess it’s just indicative
Of how most days I can deal
But just beneath the surface
Lurks a trauma yet to heal
The worst is when
All hope is gone
And you know that they
Can’t carry on
When the end is coming
At them hard
And all that’s left
Is wounds and scars
That’s when you wish
They could call it a day
Instead of just watching
Them waste away
I remembered what
It was like today
Back when that pain
Gnawed away
When his death broke me
To the sum of my parts
And my mental health
Was off the charts
And although with her
I did empathise
I couldn’t be false
Or tell her lies
So I whispered the truth
As I’ve come to accept it
Although time does heal
It can never correct it
Feel free
To take it all
She said
The Valium,
Zoloft and Prozac
They never really
Worked for me
So it’s not like
I’ll need them back
It's like now
He's gone
We're missing
The glue
And the bond
Is broken
Between me
And you
I’ll sleep with you
When I’m good and ready
So don’t come around here
All hot and heavy
Thinking your patter
Will trick me to bed
You see all that talk
I’ve heard before
And believe you me
I know the score
So never again
Can I be misled
I need time
To think it through
She said
It’s not that cut
And dried
Well you need
To hurry up
He said
As time’s not on
Our side
So much the same
Between me and you
But it’s okay
I’ve buried it too
Do as I say
Not as I do
Words I really
Should have tattooed
Have you done this before
He said
As you’re really rather good
Some things wouldn’t be right to share
She said
Even if I could
The older I get
She said
I’ve realised
That the timing
Will never be right
You’ve just got to go for it
She said
And to not
Be so uptight
I am honestly
Not interested
In whatever
You’ve got to say
It’s not like
It’ll make a difference
To how I feel
Anyway
For I have
Already decided
This relationship
Has died a death
So you may as well
Just leave me alone
And save
Your fucking breath
I guess I'll go out
Again today
See if another kill
Will put away
All these feelings
Of anger and rage
Yet as the bodies
Increase
Whether their death
Brings peace
Is getting far harder
For me to gauge
Inspired by a writing prompt offered by Michael at https://afterwards.blog)
I knew I’d regret
That glass of wine
And so, to bed
I’m now resigned
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