How Long Has It Been Now?

From this cold embittered heart

I just cannot be prised apart

Like a leech on an open wound

Oh, is there any hope for me

From the past to be set free

And to love again become more attuned?

🖤

17/01/2021 13

The Inner Turmoil

Always 
laughing 
and 
joking

Smiling 
on 
the
outside

While 
all the 
time I'm 
choking

On the 
emotions 
I'm trying 
to hide

14/01/2021 20

Poles Apart

I still cry myself to sleep

Not that you’d know

You selfish creep

You think because

We all lost him

That we both feel the same

But you’ve really got

No fucking clue

How I live each day in pain

30/12/2020 24

Currency

I'll
give 
you a
penny
for 
them

He 
said

Tell
me
your 
ups
and 
downs 

You 
can
put 
your 
coppers
away

She 
said

As
for 
those
I'll 
need
pounds

18/12/2020 14

Sown Up

I don’t feel better

I haven’t forgotten

I’ve just stopped telling you

How I feel

15/12/2020 12

I Can’t Bring You Back Though, Can I?

I can look at your photo

I can whisper your name

I can press your shirt

Against my face

But nothing feels the same

11/12/2020 5

Hometime

As the hurt starts to subside

And the pain begins to fade

I’m never too far

From the reminder

Grief is still the sharpest blade

04/12/2020 4

Ain’t Life Grand

We 
only
really 
reached 
halfway 

When
you
went 
and
died 
on me

Now
what 
was
once
bright 
is grey

As 
I deal 
with 
life's
debris

02/12/2020 6

Mawkish

You’ll say you miss him terribly

As you bleat and cry and whine

But all I’ll remember is when

You couldn’t stand to be near him then

Even half the fucking time

30/11/2020 6

‘You Won’t Know Until You Try…’

Should
we
accidentally
meet

On that
busy,
bustling
street

Would
the birds
above us
tweet

As our
hearts
skip a
beat?

Or would I just blether on a whole heap of shite because I’m clinically depressed and unable to formulate a meaningful conversation with anyone of the opposite sex since my partner died so you just give up trying to listen and walk away thinking who the fuck was that lunatic and happily go about the rest of your life whilst I retreat back to my house wondering why the fuck I even bothered going out in the first fucking place?

22/10/2020 38