Category: Him

Imprint

I roll over to your side of the bed.

My limbs search for yours,

My lungs for your scent,

My mouth for your kiss.

But all that’s left is your imprint.

So my tears fall into your pillow,

Once again.

(Originally Posted 23.03.2019)

16

An Honour

I’ve never met anyone else

Who could spin a tale like you

Who tied people in knots with laughter

Who turned the air so cheekily blue

You were a master of your trade

The likes of which there’ll only ever be one

I’ll never forget your stories

Even now you’re gone

You’ll always be my hero

And a treasure to many more

I hope one day we’ll meet again

My Glaswegian raconteur

Xxx

24

Recurring

The tears I cried

When you died

Will never fully dry

For with each day

Dawns a new array

Of pain I can’t deny

Xxx

4

I Wish

I wish that I had asked you more

I wish I’d kissed you each day

I wish that I had really made sure

I wish I’d begged you to stay

Xxx

14

Moments

This is why

I’m still alive

To be here

In moments like this

When all the pieces

Fit together

For these few seconds of bliss

Xxx

12

Tu Me Manques

I just wish you were still here.

That’s it.

No flowery language.

No poetic licence.

I just wish you hadn’t died.

Simple.

Xxx.

10

Ontology

Who am I now?

What should I do?

Why am I still here?

When I could be with you?

Xxx

6

Ping

Your final post

Flashed up today, as a memory

And although just a notification

It meant so much more to me

Xxx

16

All That Once Was

It
was so
much
better

When
you
were
here

Holding
you
close

Pulling
you
near

Now
all
that
once
was

Has
gone
away

I’m
left
here
alone

And
that’s
not
OK

Xxx

25

That Morning

You
can
try
to
imagine

But
you
can
never
know

How
much
it
tore
me
apart

When
I had
to let
him go

Xxx

4

O Unhappy Day

I never
thought
you
wouldn’t
be here
today

It’s
still
hard to
accept
that you
went away

Perhaps
you’re
still
with me
here in
spirit

I just
wish
your
presence
was more
explicit

Xxx

4

A Heavenly Reunion

What
are
you
doing
here

He
said

I
told
you
not
to
follow

I
couldn’t
take
any
more

She
said

Life
without
you
left
me
hollow

Xxx

0

Three Score And Ten

Some
days
it feels
like
forever

Others
it feels
like a
minute

But no
matter
how
much
time has
passed

Life’s
still
shit
without
you
in it

Xxx

11

Sleeping On The Sofa

Too
many
times

I’ve
sat
here
and
cried

Your
slightest
touch

So
cruelly
denied

And
even
though

We
both
tried

I’ve
still
been
left

Feeling
dead
inside

Xxx

14

‘Counts As A Treat’

How you
used to
make me
laugh

Is
etched
on my
soul
like a
lithograph

That
comes
alive
only
in my
dreams

But
leaves me
falling
apart
at the
seams

Upon
waking

Xxx

15

The Far Side

You
don’t
have
to be
here

For
me to
know
you
care

You
don’t
have
to be
near

For
me to
know
you’re
there

Xxx

8

Cambuslang

All
those
days we
stayed
in bed

They
rattle
around
inside
my head

Until
the tears
run from
my eyes

As the
love we
shared
slowly
dies

Xxx

0

Schadenfreude

I know
I really
shouldn’t
laugh

At her
seemingly
heartfelt
epitaph

But I
know you
would’ve
had a giggle

At such
overwrought
sentimental
drivel

Xxx

7

Stroke Of Luck

I could
have
stayed
in that
day

And we
never
would
have
met

Instead
I chose
not to
go
home

A
decision
I won’t
ever
regret

Xxx

22

‘Bring Me Home And Have Me’

I can walk along

Feeling fine

Then without warning

You’re on my mind

I break for home

Each step quicker

Heart in my mouth

Stomach ever sicker

As I remember

With a groan

The reason why

I’m all alone

Xxx

3

At Heart

I
remember
what you
would say

To
hurt
and to
annoy

But I
always
forgave
you

In
the
end

For you
were just
a little
boy

2

Wasted Time

If I regret anything now

It’s the arguments that we had

The silent treatment I gave you for days

The things I did to make you mad

Now you’re no longer here

I can’t put those wrong things right

And I have no choice but to live with that

For the rest of my fucking life

Xxx

7

Jealousy

I
see
you
there
happily
together

Holding
hands
tightly
whatever
the
weather

And my
heart
cannot
help
but
cry

For a
life
that
has now
passed
me by

Xxx

8

Hard Times

Being
in love
with you

Sometimes

Was a
thankless
task

But I’d
do it
all again

You know

Without
having to
be asked

Xxx

0

Lament

I
look
at
those
photos
of you

And
your
eyes
bore
into
mine

I
remember
why I
fell
for
you

And
I wish
we
could
go back
in time

Xxx

9

Pulling The Plug

You did
it on
purpose,
didn’t
you?

Don’t
worry,
it
didn’t
show.

But I
knew
you
had
decided,

That
it was
time
for you
to go.

Xxx

9

Impressed

If
only
you
were
still
here

You
would
be so
proud
of me

Of how
I now
stick
up for
myself

And how
I’m
living
my life
care
free

11

Home Of The Brave

This
country
is
my
home
now

Of
that
there
is
no
doubt

If
I
had
not
followed
you
here

Then
I’d
never
have
found
that
out

8

Hindsight

If I
could
go back
to that
night

Knowing
what
I
now
know

I would
hold you
in my
arms so
tight

And
never
let
you
go

Xxx

8

With Me

Your
words
tattooed
on my
brain

Forever

Reminders
of how
we faced
that
pain

Together

8

I Wish I Could

I wish
I could
have made
you better

I wish
I could
have made
it go away

I wish
I could
have taken
the pressure

I wish
I could
have made
you stay

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