Category: Loving

It Wasn’t Right

I’m glad that we

Both walked away

Before things went too far

Now I can see

It wasn’t the way

To mend our broken hearts

Immoral

This
can’t
go on

We
mustn’t
continue

As the
guilt is
seeping

Into
every
sinew

It
has to
stop

It
shouldn’t
have
started

As
we’re
making a
mockery

Of our
dearly
departed

(Originally Posted 19.03.2020)

10

Him

When I was at

My lowest ebb

It was you who was there

For me

You’ll never know

How much you did

To help my heart

Run free

Hope

Your words help guide my wayward step

And shine light in to my darkened heart

Your smile breaks my fall to the kitchen floor

And stems the tears from my haunted eyes

Your touch quietens the incessant voice in my head

And replenishes my embittered soul

You allow me to believe that love might be possible again

One day

(Originally Posted 16.03.2019)

11

A Temporary Fix

I have since toiled

Without that guide

Pasting my heart

With water and flour

I just have to hope

It continues to hold

Though it’s looking less likely

By the hour

My Heart

My heart is smashed into a thousand tiny pieces.

I don’t have the glue to put it back together.

And I lost the instruction manual years ago.

(Originally Posted 14.03.2019)

11

The Naivety Of Youth

He had a lucky escape

To be fair

Passing Notes in Class 6GA

I think we should stop seeing each other.

I can’t stop thinking that something is going to go wrong and we are going to get found out. I feel so much guilt about what we’ve been doing – it’s not fair on her, you or me. It’s not right that we have to keep our relationship a secret. It means I cannot let you get close to me and you deserve more than that. You need someone who can show off what a brilliant guy you are. Not someone who has to hide you away. Like me.

I want you to know that the times we have shared have been really special to me. I’ve enjoyed every second I’ve spent with you and that’s what makes this so much harder. But it has to be done. Although it kills me to say it: we cannot carry on. I love you with all my heart but putting an end to this now will be the best thing for us both in the long run.

I’ll never forget our time together. I’ll treasure the memories of our clandestine meetings forever.

Please don’t forget me. I know I’ll never forget you.

I’m sorry.

(Originally Posted 13.03.2019)

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A Wry Chuckle

Yet another based in fact,

This one,

From a past life indescretion

Thank fuck I found,

In the end,

Less painful forms of expression

Conflicting Stories

I gave you everything I could

He said

Even if you don’t remember it

You gave me hell, heartbreak and hepatitis

She said

And your dope was shit

(Originally Posted 11.3.2021)

5

Lovers Lament

In a parallel life somewhere

In another space and time

Things would be very different

And you would still be mine

Different Hymn Sheets

Shall
we
just
stay
here

She
said

And be
happy
forever
more?

I
don’t
think
I can

He
said

For
there’s
another
I love
more

(Originally Posted 10.3.2020)

12

In Truth

I love how this one

Makes me sound

Like a player extraordinaire

When really I’d rather

Read a book

Than have my legs in the air

Bluntly

Do you believe in soulmates

He asked

As he lay back in the bed

No

She said, bluntly

Now can we just fuck instead

(Originally Posted 08.03.2021)

11

The Best Confirmation Name Ever

Patrick James ‘Judas’ Brady
Oh what can I say about you

One of the first boys I ever loved
That is most certainly true

We only had one night together
And you returned from whence you came

But after our briefest of interludes
I never saw cricket the same way again

Random #8

Sitting on a wall with Judas dressed in cricket whites

I guess we’ll never know

19.6.1997

(Originally Posted 07.03.2019)

7

Something I’m Not

It never did sit right with me

That night when I led him on

Not only was I embarrassed

But all my principles had gone

I could’ve just blamed the vodka

Or the fact that he was a flirt

But if I’m honest

I’d become a chauvinist

And had stopped caring who I hurt

Embarrassment

I didn’t think

I could fuck things up

Any more if I tried

But then I got drunk

And kissed you back

And now I want to die

(Originally Posted 06.03.2021)

12

In The Pawn Shop

How much could I get for it

He said

I know it’s pretty thin

Fuck all I’m afraid, mate

He said

You’re better throwing it in the bin

Cheapskate

You may as well keep the ring

He said

I’ve got no use for it

I’d rather keep my dignity

She said

Than this worthless piece of shit

(Originally Posted 05.03.2021)

2

Really Rather Good

Not much to add to this one

As of it I am quite proud

All I will say

Is like the play

It’s best if you read it out loud

A Modern Day Soliloquy

To text,

Or not to text:

That is the question:

Whether ’tis best just to disappear or perhaps

Continue this same conversation with you,

On a face to face and in person basis,

And by doing so end us.

(Originally Posted 05.03.2020)

10

How The Table Turned

Just for that one

Moment in time

I thought, perhaps,

That I had won

But then I saw you

Holding her hand

And I knew then

That we were done

Across The Table

I love how you know,

To hold my hand,

Just by the croak in my voice.

I am so grateful,

That you understand,

Just how much I need that choice.

Feeling that you’re there,

And how much you care,

Means everything you see.

But not forcing me to speak,

When you sense I’m weak,

Is why you’re the one for me.

(Originally Posted 04.03.2020)

6

Saving Both Heartbreak And Time

As my head spun round

And the thunderbolt struck

I couldn’t help but think

If only I’d ducked

Pubs, Clubs & Other Establishments

It is strange.
You are told that when these things happen, you’ll just know.
You won’t be able to catch your breath,
your stomach will be in knots 
and a thunderbolt will fly through the sky.
But it doesn’t … it didn’t.
It is strange.

It is not that you are particularly handsome – you are not.
But it’s the way you make me feel.
You make me laugh.
You make me smile.
I look forward to seeing you.
I look forward to you coming to see me.

But I know there is no future in it.
It will not go anywhere.

I want the thunderbolt.
I need it.

(Originally Posted 02.03.2019)

8

Let It Burn

I have killed us

Once before

And I will happily

Do it again

For I am

No longer

In love with you

In fact

We’re not even friends

7

The Dullest Ache

My heart is now

A dead weight

Sitting heavy

In my chest

Not sure if

There’s another chance

To show itself

At it’s best

11

Tit For Tat

Don’t you dare

Question me

Like you’re

Any fucking better

I know

What you both did

Don’t forget

I read her letter

15

In Loving Memory

The girl you knew is gone

She said

Killed by love itself

You don’t need to tell me

He said

For I dug her grave myself

10

No Witnesses

If no one saw

But us two

Then who is to say

It happened

If we promise

Never to tell

Then no one else

Need be saddened

15

Mediocre

If only she was better

Then she’d be worthy of your hand

But as it is

It’s a basic bitch

Who will wear your wedding band

20

Fun

That thing

You were speaking of

Well, I think I’ve found it

Now I’m out of my head

And in your bed

I don’t think I’ll ever quit

13

Dating Advice

“You’d have so much to offer

If you could just proffer

A kindly look their way”

—

“My mouth may be broken

But I do have a shot gun

So I’m sure I’ll be ok”

20

Skulking

With skin

As tough as leather

And a heart

That’s lined with lead

I wander out

Into the night

To find something else instead

8

Last In Line

If you continue to push this

She said

And I am forced to choose

You really should be prepared

She said

For the fact I won’t pick you

8

Yet Another Failure

If there’s one thing I’m sure of

He said

It’s that you’ll get your happy ending

Please stop lying to me

She said

And being so fucking condescending

12

‘Half The World Away’

Life would have been so different

Had you never moved away

We could still be together now

Enjoying every day

But that’s not what happened, is it?

When you fucked off and left

Saying that you needed more

Couldn’t stand to feel oppressed

Well I’m glad things worked out for you

That all your stars aligned

But what I cannot ever forgive

Is that you left me behind

13

Rebuilding

If you could find a way to forgive me

She said

Perhaps that’s where we could start

As I honestly never meant

She said

To be so careless with your heart

11

Good To See You

We’ve already missed our moment

She said

So it’s best we don’t meet again

I know you love someone else

He said

But I’d still like to be your friend

13

I Know

I know

You’ll never ask again

I know

I missed my time

I know

You no longer feel the same

I know

You’ll never be mine

13

The Project

I’m arrogant and self obsessed

She said

And that will never change

Then I’ll be blessed to see

He said

If you can be re-trained

11

Sleeping On An Argument

I’m not talking to you anymore

She said

You’re being ridiculously petty

If you’d have listened in the first place

He said

We could have been in bed already

12

Expired

If you no longer love each other

Then what’s the fucking point

Just staying together to destroy each other

Noses permanently out of joint

Why not just call it quits

As it’s clear neither of you tries

That has to be better than being miserable

Until one of the two of you dies

14

The Reference

When

I next see her

I’ll be sure

To let her know

How you’re passionate,

Funny and kind

And how it hurts

To let you go

5

Not Playing Fair

You were responsible

For your actions

Just like I was

For mine

It’s just a shame

You tried shifting the blame

And couldn’t play nicely

At the time

14

Fairy’s Tales

While everyone else enjoys

Their happily ever after

I sit here alone

And wait for mine

Though I’m no longer sure

If my heart is as pure

As it was once

Upon a time

12

Running Before Walking

I know

That I’m not

Quite ready

Thoughts of him

Still rife

In my head

But if you

Come around

Happy to be

The rebound

Then I won’t kick you

Out of bed

16

From Afar

Every time you send a pic

It breaks another piece of my heart

You’re having fun

And you deserve a ton

But it hurts that we’re so far apart

4

La Petit Mort

I don’t have to say it

You already know what I mean

Let’s to go to bed

To forget that he’s dead

And everything else in between

14

Come-Hither

Let’s just stop being coy

And jump right into bed

For in there we can both enjoy

A very different game instead

14

Thoughts #8

Every time I look

Into your eyes

My love for you

I cannot hide

You’ll never know

How I burst inside

To know we are part

Of the same pride

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