"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
Introspection
Only works
If you can see it through
And as we both know
You’ve done fuck all to show
Any desire in wanting to
Introspection Anyone?
Maybe if you
Could just look
Look inside your heart
For a minute
You would see
What you did to me
Was a heinous crime
To commit
(Originally Posted 29.01.2021)
It doesn’t matter
What I say
It makes no difference
What I do
You will always believe
Your own bullshit
Despite it obviously
Being untrue
Exhausting
There
must be
a way
to make
you see
You’re
lying to
yourself
as much
as me
(Originally Posted 19.01.2020)
Obviously I’m speaking
Metaphorically, of course
I wouldn’t want to hurt you
With any kind of violent force
But I don’t want to come to your party
I’ve no interest in being your friend
I just hoped you’d realise
That you’re so thouroughly despised
I never want to see you again
RSV P(iss Off)
What are you
inviting me for?
After all
this time
I was sure you
had eradicated me
From the
family line
Well, let me save
you the bother
I wouldn’t even
want to come
Not unless I’d
get two free shots
With a fucking
sawn off shot gun
(Originally Posted 15.01.2020)
Not even twelve hours
Between night shifts
I don’t get paid
Enough for this shit
Running On Empty
I am so tired
I want to go home
To sit in the quiet
All on my own
For I’ve had enough
Of this battle of wills
I just need some silence
To cure my ills
(Originally Posted 12.01.2021)
I’d rather just sit
In the corner and brood
As for your ‘humour’
I’m not in the mood
No Laughing Matter
I swear to you right now
On all that is good and holy
Your jokes rarely do anything
But kill me fucking slowly
(Originally Posted 12.01.2021)
They say I’d maybe get further
If I lowered my tone a bit
But there’s no way of keeping quiet
About all of his bullshit
Screaming
I know that it seems
A little strange
And it’s hard
To confabulate
But please believe me
When I say
It’s how I best
Communicate
(Originally Posted 06.01.2022)
All these years
I’ve been writing
Calling you each
And every name
But perhaps I’ve been mean
Because it’s actually been
My attempt
To shift the blame
Who Gives A Shit
Have
I done
The
wrong
thing
again?
I
suppose
only
time
Will
tell
Until
then
I’ll try
To keep
myself
sane
While
I prepare
To
burn
in hell
(Originally Posted 04.01.2020)
Yet
I know
I’ll
never be
absolved
For our
friendship
now is
all but
dissolved
New Year’s Eve(n)
Nothing
will
ever be
resolved
Until from
all blame,
I am
absolved
(Originally Posted 31.12.2019)
To be honest
I always knew
Psychopathy
Was your main trait
It’s just a shame
That I played your game
Losing out
When it was too late
Psychopathic
Looking through old photos
It’s only now I’m struck
By how much your eyes
Betray your lies
And your smile is fake as fuck
(Originally Posted 29.12.2020)
Well I hope you’ve enjoyed
Your murdered bird
I can’t think of anything
More absurd
Than to eat your friends
On Christmas Day
Proclaiming such abuse
As the Christian way
(Originally Posted 26.12.2020)
Full of your own
Self importance
Never short
Of a winning performance
You had vanity at your core
All those years
You implored us
Until that day
We saw your distortions
And I walked out the door
I’m Fine Thanks
I’m sorry you think I’ve missed you
As I haven’t given one fuck
If you thought you mattered
And my life is shattered
Well then, you’re shit out of luck
(Originally Posted 20.12.2021)
I’ll meet him
Myself one day
When his childhood lens
Has fallen away
And I’ll explain
What happened to us
And we’ll see if you threw me
Under the bus
Vindictive Cow
I
wonder
what
you’ve
told him
Now
I’m
no
longer
there
Have
you
bothered
to tell
the truth?
Or
just
said
I no
longer
care?
(Originally Posted 19.12.2019)
How funny it was to read this
It’s almost prophetic in a way
As I hadn’t actually bumped into her
When I wrote this back in the day
This was actually what I hoped I’d do
If such a meeting ever arose
How I wouldn’t even acknowledge her
If we were to be up close
I had no real way of knowing
If I was capable of such a thing
As I might’ve just ran and hid
From the sight of her shit eating grin
But as it is I needn’t have worried
As I saw her just last week
In the most utterly random encounter
That you could ever wish seek
And I did, indeed, just saunter by
Leaving her mealy mouth struck dumb
Whereas I walked away both victorious
And comfortably numb
Getting Better At Caring Less
I walked
past you
today
And didn’t
even turn
my head
I just
quietly
sauntered
by
And felt
nothing
for you
instead
(Originally Posted 17.12.2019)
I hope you’re feeling
The cold up there
On what you think
Is the moral high ground
Sad, lonely
And freezing to death
While I’m down here
Safe and sound
Toy Soldiers
Did it ever occur to you
That I didn’t want you to know
What would you have done anyway
Other than used it as ammo
In this ridiculous war against me
That you felt the need to wage
Well I’m glad I never said a word
And from your battle, just disengaged
(Originally Posted 17.12.2020)
You may think
That I’m left whimpering
But I can promise you
I am not
For I no longer need suffer
Your simpering
Which was worth
Every inch we fought
The High Road
You can just
Fuck off now
As I
Have had enough
I no longer
Give a shit
About all this
Selfish stuff
But you should know
Just one thing
And yes,
I will be blunt
Maybe I wasn’t
Always right
But you
Were always a cunt
(Originally Posted 14.12.2020)
Never again
Will I be forced
To visit someone else’s home
Even if that means
Living off chips and beans
And forever eating alone
Dinnertime
I’ll never
go back
there
again
They
can all
just get
to fuck
I’ve no
desire
to talk
to them
As with
my heart
they’ve
ran amuck
(Originally Posted 12.12.2019)
The worst part
About what happened
Is that your role
Is still unexamined
Capitulation
I’m
now
ready
to walk
away
As you’ve
made it
impossible
for me
to stay
All I
hope
is
that
one day
You
are as
unhappy
as I am
today
(Originally Posted 09.12.2019)
Although I wrote this
For someone else
It suddenly occurs to me
That a finer analogy
For your behavior
There could never be
Leech
I
don’t
owe
you a
penny
But
you
sure do
owe
me
For
putting
food in
your
belly
And
living
in my
home
rent free
(Originally Posted 09.12.2019)
I remember
When I heard this
Oh how I laughed
And laughed
To know that finally,
And rightfully,
You have fallen on your ass
Music To My Ears
So I’ve heard that you
Are starting to feel
Like you’re reaping
What you sowed
Well all I can say
Is poor, poor you
I hope your pain
Has overflowed
As I, for one,
Cannot express
Just how happy
I am to know
That perhaps now you
Can comprehend
How it feels
To be alone
(Originally Posted 08.12.2020)
Between your happiness
And mine
I’d pick my freedom
Everytime
Last In Line
If you continue to push this
She said
And I am forced to choose
You really should be prepared
She said
For the fact I won’t pick you
(Originally Posted 06.12.2021)
You felt it
As I did I
When we locked eyes
That day
Now you know it
As do I
And so,
I walked away
‘Guilt’s A Heavy Load’
Your
mouth
is full
of spite
She said
The
words
you use
are savage
It must
be so
hard for
you
She said
To carry
around
such
baggage
(Originally Posted 03.12.2019)
One day I
Will tell the world
And dance in the flames
As your name burns
My Lips Are Sealed
Don’t you worry
I’ll never tell
How much you hurt me
And put me through hell
But not to keep
Your good name intact
But more to ensure
You never come back
(Originally Posted 26.11.2020)
It’s been a long time
Since I’ve seen you
But don’t think I have forgotten
How truly rank
And repulsive you are
That even your insides are rotten
Grandiose
I’ll always
be the
better
person
But
there’s
no need
to sweat it
I will
always
be hanging
around
To make
sure you
don’t
forget it
(Originally Posted 26.11.2019)
As time goes on
It gets harder
Their behavior to excuse
I’ve drank so many toasts
To so many men now
That I’ve run out of booze
Liars
Let’s
all
raise
our
glasses
And
make a
drunken
toast
To all
those
cruel
bastards
out there
Who
claim
they
love us
the most
(Originally Posted 18.11.2019)
It was definitely you
I saw tonight
And I’ll admit
I took great delight
In walking by
Without a care
Just a smug little smile
And my nose in the air
Arm in arm
With my actual friends
As they’re all I need
In the end
At A Glance
If it
was you
I saw
in that
doorway
tonight
I hope
my presence
gave
you a
fright
And you
realise
now
that
I’m
happy
And
that it’s
just you
I don’t
want
to see
(Originally Posted 16.11.2019)
You will reap
What you sow
Isn’t that what they say?
Well if that’s true
Then I promise you
There’s a fucking whirlwind
On the way
Penance
You’ll probably never see me again
And I’m quite happy with that
As it’s the very least you deserve
For being such an obnoxious twat
(Originally Posted 10.11.2019)
Whatever will they think of you
All your fans and acolytes
Because they will find out
All about
What you would do to us at night
Enjoy My Silence
I’ll
say
it was
my
fault
I’ll
take
all
the
blame
Just to
protect
you
and
yours
From
feeling
this
terrible
shame
But
don’t
think
it’ll
last
As
I won’t
stay
quiet
forever
One day
I will
tell
the
truth
And
all ties
they
will
sever
(Originally Posted 09.11.2019)
You will do it
Again one day
Hurt someone else
In the same way
And when you do
I’ll be there to say
You deserve to hang
Without delay
Criminal
We all
do bad
things
sometimes
Yet not
everyone
is made
to pay
But while
you will
never
admit your
crimes
Just know
the truth
will out
one day
(Originally Posted 06.11.2019)
After all that you
Put me through
You think a sorry will suffice
You’ve got no clue
Of what you’d need to do
For me to even think about playing nice
There’s No Excuse
It
didn’t
mean
a thing
back
then
And
it
certainly
doesn’t
now
So
you can
shove
your
apology
Up
your
arse
You
spiteful
little
cow
(Originally Posted 03/11/2020)
You’re not on social media
He said
That is unprecedented
There’s nothing in my life
She said
That’s worth being documented
Restricted List
It
feels
so
good
to
block
you
Who
knew
how
happy
I’d
be
For
you’ve
had
so
much
of my
life
Now
you
won’t
get
another
piece
of me
(Originally Posted 02.11.2020)
It isn’t that you lied,
It’s that I believed you.
That’s what hurts.
Support
I really
cannot
stay,
she said,
it is time
for me
to go
back
It’s the
only way,
she said,
to get
my life
on track
I will come
with you,
he said,
you needn’t
be on
your own
I’m here to
help you
through,
he said,
so you’ll
never
be alone
(Originally Posted 28.10.2019)
You lost the rights
Of a confidente
When you sold me down the river
Content to stare
Without a care
As I stood there and shivered
So I’ll never again
Confide in you
On that I will deliver
For all my trust
Has turned to dust
As our friendship has now withered
On Silent
Don’t
bother to
phone me
As I’ll
just watch
it ring
I will not
answer
to you
Or
tell you
anything
(Originally Posted 26.10.2019)
No one could ever accuse me
Of division or discrimination
For I can pour my vitriol
Without any kind of limitation
Fact
Oh,
I don’t
just hate
you
I
hate
everyone
(Originally Posted 23.10.2019)
She’s still out there
Or so I’ve heard
Badmouthing me
To her adoring herd
Never recounting her part
In what happened with us
Preferring, as ever, to throw me
Under the bus
Bitter
Tell all
the lies
about me
you like
Spin your
twisted
tales
of spite
But half
truths won’t
make people
like you
And they
certainly
don’t make
you right
(Originally Posted 18.10.2019)
I’m pretty sure
That back in the day
They called it the seven year itch
And though I can’t be certain
Why she slept with that person
It’s obvious she was being a bitch
Nearly Twenty Years
I still
love you,
he said,
underneath
it all
But it’s
just not
enough,
she said,
I want more
(Originally Posted 10.11.2019)
You say I only call you
When I am feeling depressed
But from my point of view
What is actually true
Is you just don’t care about the rest
‘Call Me Anytime’
When
I need
you
You’re
never
there
It
hurts,
you
know
That
you
don’t
care
(Originally Posted 10.10.2020)
I shout and swear
About how you don’t care
And you just presume that I’m strong
Yet if you actually asked
It’s a one hundred percent fact
That I’d lie to you all day long
The Self Pity Party
So many nights I’ve cried,
Feeling dead inside,
Whilst wrestling with my neurosis.
Now I can’t help but discern,
Despite your care and concern,
That you haven’t even noticed.
(Originally Posted 05.10.2019)
You
really
are a
piece
of shit
That
gnaws
away
at my
brain
The
fact that
I’m even
still
writing
this
Just
drives
me
fucking
insane
You Know Who You Are (Part 2)
You
really
are
such a
prick
I don’t
know
how you
can show
face
That
you think
this can
be fixed
so quickly
Is an
absolute
fucking
disgrace
(Originally Posted 03.09.2020)
You Know Who You Are (Part 1)
You
are
such
an
unbelievable
cunt
Your
behaviour
has
been
just
vile
I
wish
you
nothing
but
unhappiness
And
a
life
spent in
lonely
exile
(Originally Posted 03.09.2019)
I kow you’re out there
Selling your story
Accepting sympathy
Basking in glory
But remember I know
Those who dance to your tune
All know, deep down,
The truth about you
(Prick)ing At Your Conscience
Think
whatever
you
want
about
me
Speak
shit
to
whoever
will
listen
But
believe
me
when
I say
I
won’t
ever
rue
the
day
That
you
created
this
division
(Originally Posted 02.10.2020)
When I think of all
Those hours I lost
Feigning my interest
I realise now
How much getting out
Really was for the best
Just Me, Myself & I
Spending
another
day at
home in
reflective
solitude
Was
better
than
seeing
you and
your shitty
attitude
(Originally Posted 30.09.2019)
I’ve been around
For far too long
To fall for your crocodile tears
So go try them out
On someone else
Before their patience also disappears
Waterfalls
Go on,
Keep crying.
It changes nothing.
(Originally Posted 27.09.2019)
When everyone else
Thought the worst
I stayed with you
Your pain I nursed
Yet when things changed
And they turned on me
You hung me out
For all to see
That is really
What hurt the most
Although I’d helped you
And remained so close
You joined in with them
And betrayed me
Never once repaying
My courtesy
So that’s why now
All is said and done
I’m more than happy
Calling you a cunt
The Better Person
I loved you,
When no one else did.
Remember that.
(Originally Posted 26.09.2019)
I realise now
Your intentions back then
Were not quite
So well-meaning
All I can hope
Is that some other dope
Doesn’t fall victim
To your scheming
Already Grown Up
Come
with me,
he said,
take my
hand.
I’ll fly us
away to
Neverland.
I’m sorry,
she said,
but there’s
no way
I can.
Please
say that you
understand.
(Originally Posted 26.09.2019)
I can only hope
I find some worth in it
Given that you charge
50p a minute
Helpline
On the
day I
summon
the courage
to call
I know
you’ll be
there to
break
my fall
(Originally Posted 25.09.2019)
If you’re worried who’ll win
In the end
Then you absolutely needn’t be
For it may look like I haver
But I would wager
That she’s still far more troubled than me
Let
I let
myself
down
today
When I
let you
inside
my head
I wish
I could
just let
you go
And
enjoy
my life
instead
(Originally Posted 22.09.2019)
I used to care
About the truth
That the world should know
About my abuse
But I’m a better person now
Than those liars and frauds
So I’ll happily stay quiet
About my in laws
The Silver Medal
This
was
hardly
a fair
fight
And
we
both
know
who
rightfully
won
Yet
I’ll
step
graciously
aside
for
you
As
one
day
the
truth
will
come
(Originally Posted 17.09.2020)
Best thing I ever did
Was to cut you dead
Not just out of my life
But also out of my head
Done
Fuck you,
And your pathetic little smile.
Fuck you,
And your supercilious bile.
Fuck you,
And your disingenuous chatter.
Fuck you,
For you no longer matter,
At all,
To me.
(Originally Posted 16.09.2019)
The problem is
If I lay down
I’d no longer have an excuse
If I just stopped
And my guard dropped
Then all hell would break loose
Resurrection
If I
were
to see
you
again
I
wouldn’t
know
where
to start
So
perhaps
it’s
best
I lay
here
to
rest
And
nurse
my
broken
heart
(Originally Posted 14.09.2020)
Seriously,
She said
Could you be any more self absorbed?
Just accept he’s gone
And move the fuck on
Instead of moaning about being ignored
Hidden Harm
I killed
myself
today,
you know
And
no one
noticed
a thing
For
everyone
was far
too busy
To
care
about my
suffering
(Originally Posted 11.09.2020)
None of us won the battle
And certainly not the war
But my conscience has been
Squeaky fucking clean
Since showing you all the door
Acrimony
Whilst
trying
to fix
this
unconscionable
mess,
I’ve
realised
it’s all
fucking
pointless,
anyway.
Nobody wins.
(Originally Posted 05.09.2019)
I knew you were only sending it
As you still wanted to scrap
So just to make sure
You got nothing more
I simply deleted the app
Digital Olive Branch
You can request
my friendship
all you like
But it’ll
never be
accepted
You can send,
send and
send it again
But it’ll
always be
rejected
(Originally Posted 05.09.2019)
Looking back, it seems, that last year
I afforded you a reprieve
But make no mistake
Just ’cause I took a break
You’ve still got plenty of insults to recieve
You Know Who You Are (Part 2)
You
really
are
such a
prick
I don’t
know
how you
can show
your face
That
you think
this can
be fixed
so quickly
Is an
absolute
fucking
disgrace
(Originally Posted 03.09.2020)
You Know Who You Are (Part 1)
You
are
such
an
unbelievable
cunt
Your
behaviour
has
been
just
vile
I
wish
you
nothing
but
unhappiness
And
a
life
forever
spent in
exile
(Originally Posted 03.09.2019)
When
they
came
to take
me away
They
asked if
I had
anything
to say
And so
it was
the truth
I uttered
That you
never
knew
which
side
Your
bread
was
buttered
Lighting The Touchpaper (Part Three)
So
they
put
the
fire
out,
did
they?
All
blaring
sirens
and
flashes
Well
don’t
mind
me
As I
stand
here
with
glee
And
piss
upon
your
ashes
(Originally Posted 31.08.2019)
Lighting The Touchpaper (Part Two)
Now I
finally
know
the
truth
There
is no
turning
back
So
enjoy
the
burn
Motherfucker
Until
your
lips
turn
black
(Originally Posted 31.08.2019)
Lighting The Touchpaper (Part One)
Did
you
ever
love
me
Or
was
this
just
a joke?
I
need
to know
the
truth,
you see
Before
your
house
goes
up in
smoke
(Originally Posted 31.08.2020)
It was you
Who kicked
This hornet’s nest
So don’t cry
Now you’ve
Got stung
Radio Silence
It’s
not
that I’ll
never
call
you my
friend
It’s
just
that I’ll
never
call
you
again
(Originally Posted 31.08.2019)
Remember when you told me
It was the best show you’d ever seen
That you watched in tears
As your worst fears
Played out on the TV screen
Well, it wasn’t just a show for me
It was exactly how I felt
I lived through those scenes
On the silver screen
And dealt with it all myself
See, you never really understood
You made that abundantly clear
You didn’t sympathise
Let alone empathise
With me at any point that year
So now when I recall you saying
How you cried so selflessly
I know for a fact
It was all just an act
As you lied so effortlessly
What I Should Have Said
Get to fuck
You piece of shit
I will not stand
For any more pish
You think you’re it
But it’s just a front
You’re nothing more
Than a self serving cunt
(Originally Posted 25.08.2020)
The best thing that I ever did
Was my own fear to subdue
It may have took me a while
But nothing beats the smile
I now wear in spite of you
Soon
Life
has
been
so much
better
without
all your
bullshit
in it
Now
I know
for sure
that
I’ll soon
be removing
you
from
it
(Originally Posted 18.08.2019)
So many nights stood there with you
With so much forced conversation
When all I wanted to do
Was go home for a brew
And enjoy my hibernation
Let Me Go
Please
just
walk
away
from
me
And
take
yourself
off
home
I
do
not
want
to talk
to you
I
want
to be
alone
(Originally Posted 18.08.2020)
I will never answer
To you again
As what you called banter
I call pain
Sylvia’s Sister
Maybe I’ll drink until I’m sick
Maybe I’ll dance like a prick
Maybe I’ll smoke ten to the dozen
Maybe I’ll put my head in the oven
Either way one thing is true
It has got fuck all to do with you
(Originally Posted 14.08.2020)
I really don’t mind saying
That I’m actually quite proud of this
As it describes that employee
To an absolute tee
Despite the sweetness she emits
The Bake Sale
Bringing
along
a
flask of
coffee
And
your
frosted
homemade
cake
Doesn’t
make you
any more
likeable
Or any
less
fucking
fake
(Originally Posted 13.08.2020)
You badgered me into talking
As you were oh so concerned
So I opened that can
Then turned and ran
And left you with the worms
So Help Me…
Just
keep
pushing
me
To see
what
it’s
about
Just
don’t
blame
me
When I
finally
lash
out
(Originally Posted 11.08.2020)
Ramblings Of A Fragile Mind 
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