"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
I realise now
Your intentions back then
Were not quite
So well-meaning
All I can hope
Is that some other dope
Doesn’t fall victim
To your scheming
Already Grown Up
Come
with me,
he said,
take my
hand.
I’ll fly us
away to
Neverland.
I’m sorry,
she said,
but there’s
no way
I can.
Please
say that you
understand.
(Originally Posted 26.09.2019)
It’s not my fault
If you’re offended
By what I say or how I say it
It isn’t my job
To hide the truth
It’s my responsibility to display it
Sugar Coating
Don’t
want
the
truth?
Then
don’t
ask
me.
I
will
not
lie,
To
protect
your
sanity.
(Originally Posted 25.09.2019)
I can only hope
I find some worth in it
Given that you charge
50p a minute
Helpline
On the
day I
summon
the courage
to call
I know
you’ll be
there to
break
my fall
(Originally Posted 25.09.2019)
Seriously
They said
Do you have to be so fucking dramatic
One day you will feel the same
She said
When you experience something as tragic
The Double Bed
It’s been so quiet
Since you left
All I hear
Is my own breath
As I lie here alone
And wait for death
(Originally Posted 25.09.2020)
I went out a lot
In twenty nineteen
To live,
To laugh,
And to everything in-between
The Shot Glass
Drink,
drink,
and drink
again.
You know
that I’m
your only
friend.
(Originally Posted 25.09.2019)
Three years on
And although further forward
By the pain of his death
I am still tortured
At A Bedside, Desolate
There
is no
more
hope.
There
are no
more
dreams.
My life
continues
to fall apart
at the seams,
As I
lie here
thinking
of you.
And
wondering
what the fuck
I’m supposed
to do,
Now.
(Originally Posted 24.09.2019)
That I ever thought
Those pills would work
Is actually quite preposterous
For I have found
To my cost
That the pit of my stomach is bottomless
Prescription For A Broken Heart
I took
the first
one this
morning
The rest
won’t be
hard to
swallow
Soon
my belly
will be
full
And I’ll
no longer
feel so
hollow
(Originally Posted 24.09.2019)
‘And every time I scratch my nails down someone else’s back I hope you feel it.
Well, can you feel it?’
“Some kill their love when they are young,
And some when they are old;
Some strangle with the hands of Lust,
Some with the hands of Gold:
The kindest use a knife, because
The dead so soon grow cold.”
– Oscar Wilde
I was just trying
He said
To force your hand
I never wanted to leave
I didn’t want to lose face
She said
Or wear my heart
On my sleeve
We just wish
They said
You’d told us the truth
Instead of making us believe
That you wanted to be with us
They said
When all that time
We were being decieved
Concequences
You said
you wanted
to leave
And I
didn’t ask
you to stay
So now
we lie to
someone else
And that’s
the price
we pay
(Originally Posted 23.08.2019)
It wasn’t that
I wanted to stop
But I was scared that we’d get caught
That’s why I knew
What I had to do
Even though it left us distraught
Condensation
As the
wind
rattles
the
window
pane
I
wonder
if it’s
cold
where
you are
Or are
you
now
just
over
heating
In
somebody
else’s
car
(Originally Posted 23.09.2020)
It would’ve saved a lot of time
She said
Had I walked away long ago
Oh please don’t kid yourself
She said
You’d still have lived a life of woe
‘Should I Stay Or Should I Go’
If
someone
told me
then
How all
this
would
end
I’d pack
a bag
and run
away
And not
even
bother
to pretend
(Originally Posted 22.09.2020)
I cannot deny
That there are times
When I imagine the singer in the sack
But mostly the guy
Who really catches my eye
Is the one with the sticks at the back
‘Outlandos d’Amour’
As my
soul
swoons
to his
song
And my
toes
tap to
his
tunes
I
remember
the
romantic
revelry
Of
those
academic
afternoons
(Originally Posted 22.09.2020)
If you were to see
Who I am inside
You would simply run
Away and hide
It’s not as though
I have ever lied
But to quell the beast
I’ve always tried
Hidden
There’s
so much
of me
You
never
see
So many
things
I do
That are
hidden
from view
I know you
won’t believe
it’s true
But it’s
my way of
protecting you
(Originally Posted 22.09.2019)
If you’re worried who’ll win
In the end
Then you absolutely needn’t be
For it may look like I haver
But I would wager
That she’s still far more troubled than me
Let
I let
myself
down
today
When I
let you
inside
my head
I wish
I could
just let
you go
And
enjoy
my life
instead
(Originally Posted 22.09.2019)
I may spend time lying down
But not much of that is sleeping
It’s existential dread
That fills my head
And that’s not to mention the weeping
Forty Winks
Why do
I bother
coming
to bed
It’s not
like I
can
sleep
All I
do is
fucking
lie here
Overthinking
and
counting
sheep
(Originally Posted 21.09.2019)
Betraying my classical education, perhaps,
With a title such as this
A throwback to those halcyon days
When it wasn’t all just shit and piss
Conversations With Hades
Tell him
this pill is
too bitter
to swallow
Tell him
we still
have time
to borrow
Tell him
I’ll never
cope with
the sorrow
Tell him if
he takes you
to expect
me tomorrow
(Originally Posted 21.09.2019)
It’s only hypothetical
Because too much time has passed
Though I’m pretty sure
If I wanted more
You’d say yes, if asked
Hypothetically Speaking
Do you
ever think
of me
In those
moments
you have spare
Do you
ever
dream
Of running
your fingers
through my hair
Do you ever
imagine how
it would feel
If you
held your
hand in mine
Do you ever
long to look
into my eyes
And feel
our souls
entwine
(Originally Posted 21.09.2019)
What can you do
When you’ve been mistaken
When you realise your life
You have forsaken
When you can’t go back
And start again
When it’s only regret
That does now remain
Double Take
It’s only
now I
realise
I’ve
played
this all
wrong
And it
actually
should
have
been
you all
along
(Originally Posted 20.09.2019)
I used to think
When I was a kid
I can’t wait to live by myself
I will do
Whatever I want
Take my opportunity to rebel
But there’s another side
To living alone
When you no longer have another
To share your home
What I never envisaged
All those years ago
Was that my only company now
Would be the radio
Home Alone
It’s Friday night
And I’m here alone
In this house
We used to call home
There’s nothing left now
Just an empty shell
With only me here
Living through hell
(Originally Posted 20.09.2019)
It was the last round
Music, of course
When I’d already sunk a few
But it was my knowledge
Of old Liverpudlian Soul
That really pulled us through
The Pub Quiz
What was I saying?
What was I..?
Ach, don’t mind me,
I’m drunk.
*Hic*.
(Originally Posted 20.09.2019)
Go well my friend
Into the night
Through the darkness
To find the light
The Trade Off
It’s with a heavy heart
And a mournful sigh
That the time has come
To say our goodbye
I’m eternally grateful
For all you have done
For you soothed my pain
And left me with none
(Originally Posted 20.09.2019)
To be fair
I have gotten better
I can look at a photo
Or read a letter
But I find it best
Not to get too immersed
Because, after all,
It still fucking hurts
Wall Art
I can’t
look at
your
photos
anymore
They make
my heart
too heavy
and my eyes
too sore
(Originally Posted 20.09.2019)
I still don’t really understand
Why I was left feeling so at sea
As I was always the one
Who steadied our ship
It’s not like you ever looked after me
Without You
Life
is just
shit
without
you
I’ve got
nothing
left to
hold
on to
If
only
you were
still
here
Then I’d
have
nothing
left
to fear
(Originally Posted 19.09.2019)
Once, I thought
I had no choice
But my innermost feeling to hide
But now I know
That given room to grow
I can wear my scars with pride
Another Notch
A
little
nick
here
A
little
cut
there
It
doesn’t
hurt
anymore
Not
that
I’d
care…
(Originally Posted 19.09.2019)
The title says it all
She said
There’s nothing else to know
Sometimes there’s no big mystery
She said
It is just my truth on show
Bleak As Fuck
I
told you
a lie
yesterday
I said
I felt better
and that
I’m okay
When the
actual truth
is I hope
and pray
That I
won’t live
another
day
(Originally Posted 19.09.2019)
You’ll be here all day
She said
There really isn’t much to find
Well I will never stop looking
He said
Until the end of time
Digging For Gold
Kindness
lives
within
you
He
said
Of
that
I am
the
judge
Then
by all
means
try to
find it
She
said
Beneath
the
fucking
sludge
(Originally Posted 18.09.2020)
I can’t help you anymore
He said
My mind is too conflicted
I completely understand
She said
This day I predicted
All My Fault
If there was
another way
of dealing
with this shit
I wish
now that
I could’ve
chosen it
Then I
wouldn’t have
relied so
much on you
And your
heart wouldn’t
also be torn
in two
(Originally Posted 18.09.2019)
You really have to stop hoping
She said
That all of this will end
To think you’ll ever be free
She said
Really is madness my friend
Sunrise
I woke
up crying
again today
So much so
I struggled
to breathe
How much
longer must
I endure this?
When is
there an end
to this grief
(Originally Posted 18.09.2019)
Do you think
He said
That you drink too much
Trust me
She said
It’s nowhere near enough
The Trouble With Juniper
Nobody
knows
the
trouble
I’ve seen
The loves
and the
losses and
everything
in-between
On one
too many
gin bottles
I have
relied
To keep
all of my
secrets
hidden
inside
(Originally Posted 18.09.2019)
Modern medicine hasn’t helped
She said
No pill or therapy
Then you’ve done the right thing
It said
By coming to talk to me
Witchcraft
I thought
talking
would make
it easier
But if
anything
it’s made
it worse
It seems
there is
nothing
I can do
To rid
myself
of this
curse
(Originally Posted 18.09.2019)
I think you’ll find
We’re in charge now
We say when
We say how
No longer will we be
All small and meek
We will approach you
If it’s sex
We seek
Too Late
You
only
want
me
now
Because
he
says
he
does
Well
you
had
your
chance
But
you
rebuffed
my
advance
So go
jump
in front
of a
bus
(Originally Posted 17.09.2020)
She never did see it
And now you’re apart
You have been left
With wounds that smart
If only you’d listened
To my remark
You could’ve saved yourself
The broken heart
You Deserve More
I wish you
could see
yourself with a
different view
And know
there are so
many things to
love about you
My only hope
is that she
will see it
again soon too
Then perhaps
you could both
just stop
making do
(Originally Posted 17.09.2019)
I used to care
About the truth
That the world should know
About my abuse
But I’m a better person now
Than those liars and frauds
So I’ll happily stay quiet
About my in laws
The Silver Medal
This
was
hardly
a fair
fight
And
we
both
know
who
rightfully
won
Yet
I’ll
step
graciously
aside
for
you
As
one
day
the
truth
will
come
(Originally Posted 17.09.2020)
I can actually remember this
Like it was yesterday
That night when I
Had had enough
And finally walked away
A New Dawn
Everything
changed
when I
walked out
of there
The feel of
the breeze
and the
warmth
of the air
For once
in my life
I just
stopped
fighting
And I
suddenly
found life
much more
inviting
(Originally Posted 17.09.2019)
Grief doesn’t come with a manual
And neither, you’ll find, does life
So you just have to go on
Now they’re gone
And hope that you stay alive
NUMB
I
didn’t
think
It
would
be
like
this
Whatever
this
is
(Originally Posted 17.09.2019)
“And so, I checked all the registered historical facts
And I was shocked into shame to discover
How I’m the 18th pale descendant
Of some old queen or other”
‘Tis better to be lowly born,
And range with humble livers in content,
Than to be perked up in a glist’ring grief,
And wear a golden sorrow.’
Henry VIII: Act II Scene III
Are you sure that you’re done
She said
You’re not even up for a fling?
I am absolutely sure
He said
I’m no longer ‘up’ for anything
A Solo Affair
I’m fine
by myself
without
all of
that
Just me
here
alone
in my
own flat
I don’t
need to
feel anyone
else’s
touch
As frankly
I never
really
liked it
much
(Originally Posted 16.09.2019)
Best thing I ever did
Was to cut you dead
Not just out of my life
But also out of my head
Done
Fuck you,
And your pathetic little smile.
Fuck you,
And your supercilious bile.
Fuck you,
And your disingenuous chatter.
Fuck you,
For you no longer matter,
At all,
To me.
(Originally Posted 16.09.2019)
I can clearly remember
Their wedding day
All of that promise
On display
It’s such a shame
It ended that way
And now love’s young dream
Has faded away
The(ir) Split
It’s
not
about
what
she
did
Or
what
he did
either
to be
fair
It’s
about
how
it has
made
me feel
As for
the
rest
I could
not
care
(Originally Posted 16.09.2020)
Especially now
The weather is turning
I wish our home fires
Were still burning
Slippers
I
miss
you
When
my
feet
are
cold
And
how
you
Would
always
warm
them
so
Xxx
(Originally Posted 16.09.2020)
To find out if
It’s eternal damnation
Is the worst kind
Of anticipation
Bad News
The
wait
is
almost
worse
than
the
call
itself
(Originally Posted 15.09.2020)
If only I actually was
This little minx that I portray
I’d get my coat and hat
And without looking back
Go have myself a field day
Fuck Buddies
I
won’t
always
be
here,
you
know
For
when
you
feel
the
need
to
ask
Not
while
there
are
more
dicks
to
blow
And
other
glows
in
which
to
bask
(Originally Posted 15.09.2020)
I’m sure that we can all recount
How we met our lovers
But some such stories
Of our former glories
Are more significant than others
Xxx
That Split Second
When I saw you
sleeping there
I couldn’t help
but stop and stare
Probably because
I was drunk too
Although nowhere
near as drunk as you
(Originally Posted 15.09.2019)
When feelings
Are so intrinsic
Language
Is best kept simplistic
Random #19
It
just
fucking
hurts
(Originally Posted 14.09.2019)
Will you still love me
When I am old and grey
Will you still want me
To touch you in that way
Will you still need me
To kiss you goodbye each day
Or will you just find someone else
And simply walk away
A Risky Business
We really
shouldn’t
do this,
she said,
it isn’t
the right
time
It’s now
or never,
he said,
for I’ll
soon be
past my
prime
(Originally Posted 14.09.2019)
The problem is
If I lay down
I’d no longer have an excuse
If I just stopped
And my guard dropped
Then all hell would break loose
Resurrection
If I
were
to see
you
again
I
wouldn’t
know
where
to start
So
perhaps
it’s
best
I lay
here
to
rest
And
nurse
my
broken
heart
(Originally Posted 14.09.2020)
It’s not like it wasn’t obvious
That I was depressed as fuck
Given all my talk,
I would’ve thought,
That was understood
Read Between The Lines
How
much
more
Must
I write
Before
you
come to
save
me?
How
much
more
Must
I fight
Before
you
run to
embrace
me?
(Originally Posted 14.09.2020)
I have just gone back
To pretending now
Convincing you that I
Am worth it, somehow
I’ve worked too hard
To let it go to waste
As this persona has taken
A lifetime to create
The Truth
If you
knew
the
truth
about me
You
would
run
away
and hide
You
wouldn’t
waste
another
minute
On
someone
so
rotten
inside
(Originally Posted 13.09.2019)
When I stopped the anti depressants
My feelings of lust were incessant
My thirst for bad boys,
Conmen and cowboys
All came back with a vengeance
(Well, those on TV shows at least)
Angels & Devils
Good men
do bad things
And good
women do too
If I was ever that way
inclined again
I’d do bad things
with you
(Originally Posted 13.08.2019)
I doubt I’d manage a short story these days
Never mind anything more
Writing three or four lines
Is a struggle at times
So a novel seems too much to hope for
Small Minds
One
day
I will
write
novels
All
about
you
and
me
Of
how
we left
those
hovels
And
found
our
sanctuary
(Originally Posted 13.09.20)
I guess
Looking back
You can’t be sure
Why you did the things you did
Reflection, it seems,
Isn’t for the dead
It is the curse
For those who live
Happy
I
miss
you
I
miss
us
I wish we
could just
go back
To
how it
was
Before
all
of this
Before
things turned
to shit
And we
were
happy
Because
we were
happy
I
was
happy
Wasn’t I?
(Originally Posted 13.09.2019)
You’re actually quite romantic
He said
When you put your mind to it
But therein lies the problem
She said
I just can’t be arsed to persue it
When Lightning Strikes
It’s like
we’ve been
connected
forever,
he said,
but it’s only
been a minute
However long
it’s been,
she said,
I can’t
remember
life without
you in it
(Originally Posted 12.09.2019)
This one was a warning
To a guy who should’ve known better
He’d hurt my friend
So this rhyme I penned
To let him know how much he’d upset her
Trip Wires
If
love is
not what
you say
But
what
you do
instead
Then
you’ve
fucked
up
On
both
counts
mate
So I’d
be careful
where you
tread
(Originally Posted 12.09.2019)
Our dearest Hobbo
It’s impossible to show
Just how much we’ll surely miss thee
But until when
We may meet again
We’ll have the ever ebullient Brie!
😊🖤
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If death teaches you anything
It’s the importantance of a will
As without such frugality
You’ll find that your family
Will be arguing, still
Around The Corner
It’s
true
that
life
is
short
But
for
some
it’s
shorter
still
They
never
even
see
it
coming
Let
alone
have
made
a
will
(Originally Posted 11.09.2020)
Seriously,
She said
Could you be any more self absorbed?
Just accept he’s gone
And move the fuck on
Instead of moaning about being ignored
Hidden Harm
I killed
myself
today,
you know
And
no one
noticed
a thing
For
everyone
was far
too busy
To
care
about my
suffering
(Originally Posted 11.09.2020)
I can hardly remember writing
Such a powerful piece
Although I can recall requiring
A medication increase
Yes Sir, No Sir
Okay,
okay,
I accept
defeat.
I’ll get up,
get dressed,
drink tea,
eat.
I’ll take
the pills
you say
I need.
I’ll be a
good wee girl,
like we
agreed.
(Originally Posted 11.09.2019)
As I have never
Loved again
From that day
To this
I cannot help
But wonder
If someone up there
Is taking the piss
I Can’t Tell You
I can’t
tell
you
how
much
better
I feel
To
know my
feelings
I need
no
longer
conceal
I
can’t
tell you
how much
more open
I am
now
To the
possibility
of loving
someone
again,
someday,
somehow
(Originally Posted 11.09.2019)
Ramblings Of A Fragile Mind 
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