"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
Perhaps I should climb
A mountain
Or sail off
On a round the cruise
Anything to relieve
This having to grieve
After all,
What have I got to lose?
‘I Could Be Wrong / I Could Be Right…’
The
pressure
is on
to find
meaning
In
this so
called
life of
mine
But
I just
can’t
help but
feeling
That
it’s a
total
waste
of time
(Originally Posted 27.02.2020)
It’s not
That you have
The audacity
To wear
My doorbell thin
It’s more
The fact
That I’m powerless
To act
And can’t help
But let you in
‘… Such Sweet Sorrow’
Every
time
we
say
goodbye
I wish
that
you
would
stay
For
another
part
of my
soul is
crushed
Each
time
you
walk
away
(Originally Posted 27.02.2020)
I know you think
You can change me
That your kindness
Will be enough
But trust me when I say
There’s been too much decay
For my heart to be capable
Of love
Bad Seed
I
wish
there
was a
way
To
make
you
see
That
good
boys
like
you
Aren’t
for
bad
girls
like me
(Originally Posted 26.02.2020)
I’ve seen so many
Of them now
You’d think one
Would’ve broken through
But not one
Of their degrees
Has helped cure
My disease
Or informed me
Of what to do
The Trick Cyclist
I’d
like to
cancel my
appointment
I don’t
want
to see
you today
What’s
the point
in getting
out of bed
When
you can’t
help me
anyway?
(Originally Posted 25.02.2020)
Fuck knows why
I picked a zoo
I couldn’t think
Of anything worse
Starting something
Amid such abuse
Could only prove
To be a curse
Swipe Right
How’s
about
it
Just
us
two
Fancy
a
walk
Visit
the
zoo
Get
a
beer
Eat
some
food
Spend
the
night
Being
terribly
rude
(Originally Posted 25.02.2020)
Sometimes,
As a writer,
All that you can do
Is to drop
The flowery language
And just tell
The fucking truth
In Memoriam
There is nothing
Left to do
There isn’t anything
Else to say
I just really
Fucking miss him
Every single day
Xxx
(Originally Posted 25.02.2022)
“Love…
The kind you clean up with a mop and bucket”
“I make no apologies for how I chose to repair what you broke.”
– Meredith Grey
The rope
Is in
The bin
For now
Having given
That monster
A swerve
But it’s safe
To assume
I can’t give him
Any room
As he’ll have
Kept some back
In reserve
Try Harder Next Time
The monster who lives
Under my bed
Whispers again
Why aren’t you dead
Berating me
For writing instead
And putting the rope
Back in the shed
(Originally Posted 24.02.2021)
Don’t think you can come
Crawling back now
Acting all innocent
And holier than thou
You and I both know
What you did back then
And why, in effect,
I’d wring your neck
Time and time again
Let It Burn
I have killed us
Once before
And I will happily
Do it again
For I am
No longer
In love with you
In fact we’re
Not even friends
(Originally Posted 24.02.2022)
Now I can take
Longer strokes
And can draw
Bigger breaths
Perhaps one day
I’ll swim away
And escape
These murky depths
(Compass)ion
It must
be so easy
for you
Loving
your life
as you do
But spare a
thought for
the likes of me
Who drown
in a sea of
melancholy
(Originally Posted 23.02.2020)
It wasn’t that
After our spat
I just put up
The ‘no vacancies’ sign
But I sold the whole
B & B
And left all your bullshit
Behind
No Vacancies
I don’t
want you
to visit
When all
you bring
is pain
I’d rather
stay home
alone
And break
this toxic
chain
(Originally Posted 23.02.2020)
I eat
I drink
I sleep
I breathe
But with
Very little else
Inbetween
I Fucking Hate Tuesdays
Trudging through this half a life
Really just subsisting
Knowing I’d be
Better off dead
Than merely just existing
(Originally Posted 22.02.2022)
The fool and her heart
Were very soon parted
As he couldn’t finish
What he started
Unkept
You said
To me
You’d always
Be true
Yet it’s clear
That forever
Meant fuck all
To you
(Originally Posted 22.02.2021)
To think I was ever
This pathetic
Leaves me
Open mouthed
And aghast
It certainly took
Some toughening up
But at least now
That nonsense
Has passed
My Dark Heart
Although
my descent
into
madness
Has
torn
my soul
apart
Underneath
all of
this
sadness
I’m still
a romantic
at heart
(Originally Posted 22.02.2020)
I can try
To distract myself
Go to bed
And turn off the light
But I know full well
There’s no chance in hell
I won’t be calling him
Tonight
‘You Spin Me (Right Round)’
With
your
smile so
appealing
And
your
humility
endearing
I cannot
help
but get
feeling
You
won’t
be
home
alone
This
evening
(Originally Posted 21.02.2020)
You can stop
Telling me
That it helps
To talk about
This shit
As you have
No notion
Of why
I’ve chosen
To keep
A lid on it
The Shrink
The
pain
is
buried
so
deep
She
said
I
don’t
think
it’ll
ever
re-surface
Then
we
should
leave
it
where
it is
He
said
Breaking
your
heart
(again)
isn’t
worth
it
(Originally Posted 21.02.2020)
It’s amazing
The people
You can meet
When you’re standing
Outside
On the street
They make you
Instantly
Lose control
As, with ease,
They stare
Into your soul
Cutting Through The Bullshit
I’m
not
really
crying
She
said
Honestly
things
are
fine
You
can’t
kid a
kidder
He
said
Now,
please,
come
back
to mine
(Originally Posted 20.02.2020)
You must start moving on
My friend
As it won’t be long
Until the end
And when you look back
You’ll rue the day
That you gave all
Of your time away
Overheard
All
you
do is
bitch
and
moan
And
I listen,
with
a sigh
For you
can’t
seem
to see
what
I do
That’s
your
life,
passing
you by
(Originally Posted 20.02.2020)
Now it’s just over
Four years for me
And although
I’ve learned a lot
I still couldn’t claim
I know enough to explain
Or even to give it
A decent shot
Bereavement
Just
when
I think
I’ve got
no tears
left
They
fall
down
my
face
again
Why
the fuck
didn’t
someone
tell
me
How
to
prepare
for all
this
pain
(Originally Posted 19.02.2020)
I know I’d suggested
Greeting cards
But as I see the humour in this
Perhaps I’d be more suited
To writing less convoluted
Patient information leaflets
The Human Rattle
Take
these
pills
To
cure
your
ills
And
mend
your
broken
heart
They’ll
give
you
chills
And
delay
your
thrills
But at
least
it’ll
be a
start
(Originally Posted 18.02.2020)
How I remember
Feeling this way
That nothing again
Would be OK
But now I’ve got
Some feeling back
I see a glimmer of hope
Through the crack
Grieving
Are you
sure it’s
gone
He
said
What
about
love
Compassion?
Make
no
mistake
She
said
I’ve
lost
it all
Her
face,
as it was,
ashen
(Originally Posted 18.02.2020)
I know your heart’s
In the right place
And that deep down
You mean well
But your good intentions
Mean nothing
While I’m trapped
In this hell
Two Cents Worth
It will get better with time
They lied
Before my tears
Had even dried
(Originally Posted 18.02.2020)
“But my heart, it won’t do babe
It won’t do, without you”
“How about if I sleep a little bit longer and forget all this nonsense…”
– Kafka
As the end
Draws ever near
I have to say
I’m feeling the fear
What will I do
If I don’t write
What will I do
With all this spite?
Pens Down
Nothing lasts
Forever
You know
Not you
Not me
And certainly not my poetry
(Originally Posted 17.02.2021)
This isn’t actually
Strictly true
It’s not like I’ve never
Had fun
It’s more that my weakness
For bleakness
Hasn’t ever quite been undone
‘Twilight’
I wish
I could
remember
The
good
old
days
But I
fear they
were just
a lie
For
I cannot
recall
Any
time in
my life
When
I didn’t
want
to die
(Originally Posted 17.02.2020)
Thank God I have
Two weeks annual leave
So from your chatter
I’ll enjoy a reprieve
The Water Cooler
If only
I could
feign
interest
Perhaps
we could
be friends
But in
fact you
bore me
witless
So I
pray this
conversation
ends
(Originally Posted 17.02.2020)
I don’t even know
Why I write this shit
I don’t even like guns
Not one bit
If Only…
“Is that a gun in your pocket,
Or are you just pleased to see me?”
Bang.
(Originally Posted 17.02.2020)
Nothing says
I love you
More than a course
Of antibiotics
Or two
St Valentine’s Day Rebuke
It’s that
time of
year
again
When
love
is in
the air
But so is
Covid,
TB and flu
So please
take your
bullshit
elsewhere
(Originally Posted 17.02.2020)
I felt that way
For a really long time
After you rounded on me
That night
But now I’ve moved on
And boy I’ve grown
So I’m stepping back
Into the light
Nyctophilia
I’m
better
alone
than in
company
Just
like I’m
happier
in the
dark
That
way
I never
have to
see anyone
Or
hear
another
disparaging
remark
(Originally Posted 16.02.2020)
Ramblings Of A Fragile Mind 
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