"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
Truth is
I’m getting older
I just wish
It was wiser too
Perhaps with that
Would come the ability
To find
A little stability
And I’d maybe make it
All the way through
The Spiral
It feels like
every day I fall
A little further
down the hole
Losing just
a wee bit more
Of my body,
mind and soul
(Originally Posted 05.02.2020)
I’ll never be
The bigger person
I won’t take
The higher moral ground
As I know for a fact
Any contrition is an act
And so my rationale is sound
Not Then / Not Now / Not Ever
What will we do when this feud ends?
Just sit around and all be friends?
Forget the hatred and bile that’s been spilled,
And hope our relationships we can rebuild?
Well it’s not for me,
You can count me out.
Of that there can be absolutely no doubt.
Because I will hold onto this grudge forever.
And I want nothing to do with you whatsoever.
(Originally Posted 04.02.2020)
You’d love to think
You’re in my head
Day in and
Day out
But the truth is
For last few years
It’s been so easy
To block you out
My Truth
I wish
I could
say I was
sorry
I wish
I could
say that
I care
But
I’m
actually
not
And
I really
don’t
So to
lie
would
be unfair
(Originally Posted 04.02.2020)
‘I guess I should have let you win…’
‘“In my world, I am constantly torn between killing myself or everyone around me.”
– Ragnar
Thankfully
I made the decision
To live without
Your endless derision
Before any more of my time
Was wasted
Poisonous Bitch
We
only
get
one
life
She
said
And
it’s
far
too
short
To
spend
with
you
(Originally Posted 03.02.2020)
I can’t seem to shake the feeling
He said
That you’re just trying to lure me in
But all I do is sing songs
She said
With wickedly flirtatious grin
Windows To The Soul
I
stare
into
your
eyes
He
said
And
wonder
what’s
buried
so deep
Songs
to
make
you
smile
She
said
With
words
to
make
you
weep
(Originally Posted 03.02.2020)
I know this comes off
As pretty strong
And there are many out there
Who’ll say I’m wrong
That I’ll wake up one day
And see the light
But with my godless life
I’m more than alright
All Religion Is A Cult
I see
you
standing
up there
Before
those
huge
stained
glasses
Spouting
out
your
scripture
Designed
to
terrify
the
masses
You
may
well
fool
some
people
Maybe
the ill
or weak
of mind
But
I’ll be
free
of you
one day
Leaving
the
bullshit
you
preach
behind
(Originally Posted 03.02.2020)
How much would it cost
He said
For everything combined
You might pay me for my body
She said
But you could never buy my mind
Money Talks
Don’t just fucking humour me
She said
Listen to what I’m saying
But my job is to indulge you
He said
Isn’t that why you’re paying?
(Originally Posted 02.02.2021)
Don’t
Underestimate
Those who
Are damaged
As we’ll
Always find
A way
To manage
Stand Well Back
I’ve
never
thought
of myself
as strong
But I
suppose
I have
stuck
it out
this
long
Although
somewhat
broken,
bloodied
and
bruised
I’m
very
much
still
here
to light
the fuse
(Originally Posted 02.02.2020)
We put so much faith
In the words we use
When they’re so open
To misinterpretation
We quite often think
We all mean the same thing
When it’s actually just down
To perception
Meaningless
I
really
do love
you
She
said
I love
you
with
all my
heart
But
you
also
love
tomato
sauce
He
said
So
this
whole
thing’s
just a
farce
(Originally Posted 02.02.2020)
I saw you just
Sitting there
All alone
And looking scared
So I thought
I’d offer
A kind word or two
In the hope
You might stop
Feeling so blue
A Forgone Conclusion
It’s
very
nice of
you to
be kind
But
please,
don’t
pay me
any mind
For
I am
now
a cause
that’s
lost
As
onto
the
pyre my
heart’s
been
tossed
(Originally Posted 01.02.2020)
Complicated relationships
May be all I’ve ever known
Yet it seems the baggage
That you come along with
By far outweighs my own
Tussle
I don’t want to just be friends
I don’t want to let this go
You may be able to walk away
But this is all I know
(Originally Posted 01.02.2021)
Oh don’t get me wrong
Their tears will throng
As they stand forlornly
At your grave
But I’ll certainly know
That it’s all for show
As it’s just their face
They’re trying to save
Daughters
I am
so glad
You’re
not here
To
see
What
they’ve
become
Both
bitter and
twisted
Individuals
Who’ve
lost the
love
You
taught
them
(Originally Posted 01.02.2020)
If I were to take
One as prescribed
No doubt I’d feel
The same inside
If I were to take
Two or three
I could cope
Quite easily
If I were to take
Four or five
I’d most likely still
Make it out alive
If I were to take
Six or seven
I’d start knocking on
The door of heaven
If I were to take
Eight or nine
I’d be pretty close
To the finish line
But if I were
To take ten
I’d make sure you never
Saw me again
Dosage Instructions
Please
give me
another
pill to
swallow
For I
don’t
want to
wake up
tomorrow
(Originally Posted 31.01.2020)
If we speak to them
With smiles on our faces
There’s no chance we’ll get back
Into their good graces
We need to show them
Our regrets are huge
Even if that’s only
Half of the truth
Remorse
As we
return
to face
the music
Remember,
this is
no time
for hubris
(Originally Posted 31.01.2020)
You need to get out more
She said
Get yourself back on the market
There’s no point in either
She said
As I doubt I’d be anyone’s target
Overlooked
What do you think
It would it take
For you
To notice me
Should I wear
A skimpy dress
Paint my lips
So readily?
Well all I have
Is my words
So I guess
That counts me out
As there’s nothing at all
About them
That suggests
I’d like to hangout
(Originally Posted 30.01.2021)
I envy those people
Who are not deep thinkers
Who never peek out
From behind their blinkers
They all must live
Such carefree lives
Whilst I toil away
Hiding the knives
Stood At The Urinal
Do you
ever
think
there’s
more to
life
than
this?
Fuck
knows
mate,
to be
honest,
I only
came in
for a piss
(Originally Posted 30.01.2020)
Most days I do
Enjoy my work
And I welcome
The distraction
But as time goes by
It’s getting harder to try
And fake a positive reaction
(Anti) Social Work
I
think
I would
be
So
much
more
forgiving
If
I didn’t
have
To
work
for a
living
(Originally Posted 30.01.2020)
Don’t try to sweet talk me
She said
I’ve met your type before
Just come a little closer
He said
And we’ll see who’s the bore
Once Bitten
I’ve dreamt of you before
She said
And I didn’t fall for you then
Well I’m here in real life now
He said
So let me try again
(Originally Posted 29.01.2021)
If only I’d have listened
To people back in the day
Everyone who told me
This would end in disarray
Then I wouldn’t ever have known
Such misery and dismay
But I’d never have felt love either
And for that I was willing to pay
Mum Knows Best
Why
didn’t
you
follow
your
dreams?
She
said
Using
your
good
humour
and wit
Now
you’ve
got no
choice
She
said
But
to put
up with
his
bullshit
(Originally Posted 29.01.2020)
You’ve thought about a book
He said
For quite a number of years
You’ve got to find a way
He said
To let go of your fears
I feel more confident now
She said
That it is something I could do
But really what still bothers me
She said
Is which name I should use
Self Help
Why
do you
write
these
poems
He
said
If
you’re
not
going
to show
everyone?
Because
these
words
are
my life
She
said
They
are
not
for
just
anyone
(Originally Posted 29.01.2020)
I don’t know why
I was spared that day
And he was taken
Instead
But my life
Is hell without him
So I’d still
Be better off dead
Hindsight
If I
could
go back
to that
night
Knowing
what
I now
know
I would
hold you
in my
arms so
tight
And
never
let
you
go
Xxx
(Originally Posted 28.01.2020)
We don’t have to do it all
He said
We can meet up another day
I need to do it now
She said
Just to get it out of the way
The Trial
You don’t
have to
prove
anything
He said
Least
of all
to me
But I
need to
prove it
to myself
She said
Otherwise
I’ll never
be free
(Originally Posted 28.01.2020)
At least you
Can look away
When the misery
Ensues
But these aren’t just
Words to me
They are actually
My issues
Well, You Asked…
Although
I find
your
writing
talent
genuinely
quite
considerable
Reading
your
words
over
again
really
does just
make me
miserable
(Originally Posted 28.01.2020)
‘I was sick and tired of everything
When I called you last night from Glasgow’
“People say they love you, but what they mean is they love how loving you makes them feel about themselves”
– Eli
Suffice it to say
If I had my way
There’d be no fucking risk assessment
I don’t need protecting
Despite your objecting
As in life I have no investment
999
God
knows
why I
didn’t
wake up
dead
Or why
I didn’t
think
to plan
this far
ahead
(Originally Posted 27.01.2020)
As much as I love
That you read my words
And you praise them
Like you do
You have to know
As I deliver each blow
That I write more for me
Than you
Hecklers
Has
anyone
ever
told
you to
stop
He
said
With
these
bullshit
rhymes
you
spew
Oh
many,
many
times
She
said
And
I told
them
to piss
off
too
(Originally Posted 27.01.2021)
Now you come
Begging for love
Cap in outstretched hand
But I know better
And I will never
Erase my line in the sand
Incomprehensible
It’s all
just so
fucking
bizarre
How the
tables
have
turned
With
things
now as
they are
And
what we
both have
learned
(Originally Posted 26.02.2020)
I don’t often achieve perfection
But I think this is pretty much it
A healthy dose
Of what I feel the most
With just a little rapier-like wit
The Queen Bee
Oh, I’ll point many a finger
In order to right these wrongs
But for her I’ll reserve
The most passion and verve
And the sharpest of razor like tongues
(Originally Posted 26.01.2021)
Ramblings Of A Fragile Mind 
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