Christmas Dinner

I really
can’t be
arsed
today

I’d
rather
just stay
in bed

I’m not
in the
mood

For
such
jollity

Preferring
melancholy,
instead

(Originally Posted 25.12.2019)

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Random #267

“What is the bravest thing you’ve ever said? asked the boy.

‘Help’, said the horse.”

– Charlie Mackesy

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Naughty Or Nice?

Only ever

Fleetingly happy

But always

Desperately sad

Forever trying

To be good

Whilst contemplating

Being bad

(Originally Posted 24.12.2019)

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It’s Not Wonderful For Everyone

This is my favorite time of year

He said

With these scents of cinnamon and pine

As I endure the merriment of others

She said

I thank fuck for cheese and wine

(Originally Posted 24.12.2021)

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Random #266

‘When you’re used
Bruised
Black and blued
Don’t think about it
Never doubt it

I’ll walk beside you…’

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Blunted

This new one

Is my favourite

Of all those pills

And potions

As it leaves me feeling

Numb inside

And just going

Through the motions

Regime #7

These
pills
have
stopped
working

They
are now
simply
a token

As
they
don’t
take away
the hurting

From a
heart
that’s
truly
broken

(Originally Posted 23.12.2019)

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“I Know It’s Gonna Happen Someday”

If some of my poems

Are humorous

Albeit

A little dark

This one

Is deadly serious

And not just

A flippant remark

Hanging Around

I know it’s there

In the shed

Waiting for when

I choose death instead

(Originally Posted 23.12.2020)

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“If You Didn’t Laugh You’d Cry”

Some people must think

My words are so bleak

That they no longer

Wish to scroll

But all I see

With poems like these

Is a humour

As black as coal

‘Mistletoe & Whine’

Just piss
off with your
Christmas shit

All this
Ho, Ho,
Fucking Ho…

Not
everyone
appreciates it

Some of us
are depressed,
you know

(Originally Posted 23.12.2019)

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‘Blue Christmas’

It’s the time of year

Again

For that age old

Platitude

The one I’m expected

To receive

With a kindly

Gratitude

“It must be hard for you”

They say

“Especially at this time of year”

I want

To say

It’s hard

Every day

But that’s not

What they want to hear

Who The Fuck Are ‘They’ Anyway?

Time heals

Or so they say

Well, let me tell you

They fucking lie

Time does nothing

But march on

And you’re left

With no right to reply

(Originally Posted 22.12.2021)

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Terminal

I’m not sure
Who suffers more
Those who are
Oblivious
Or those who know
What’s in store

Identity Crisis

In
some
ways
losing
myself
has
been
harder
than
losing
you

(Originally Posted 22.12.2019)

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Apologies To The Author

I’d obviously been reading

A lot of Stevie Smith

So much so, it seems,

That I ripped her off a bit

Strong Currents

I’m all
at sea

But no one
sees me

Gesticulating
wildly

Against
the tide

(Originally Posted 21.12.2019)

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What A Difference Three Months Makes

Run around

Jump up and down

That arrogant prick

Has just left town

As it turns out

He was a brutish lout

Intent on flinging my heart about

Next time I’ll know

Not to lower my wall

And for romantic bullshit

I will not fall

Quickstep

Run around

Jump up and down

There’s a new love in town!

He’s really neat

And ever so sweet

This black heart skips a beat

I think that now

I’m ready for more

As I wait for him to whisk me

Across the dancefloor

(Originally Posted 21.12.2020)

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The Final Appointment

I don’t need this, any more

I’m doing a lot better

She said

Now I just hear screaming

Once or twice a week

And only inside my head

The Circus Is Back In Town

I wish
I spent
more time
sleeping

Instead
of all
this
weeping

It would
be nice to
do some
dreaming

As
opposed
to all this
screaming

(Originally Posted 21.12.2019)

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Best Thing I Ever Did

Full of your own

Self importance

Never short

Of a winning performance

You had vanity at your core

All those years

You implored us

Until that day

We saw your distortions

And I walked out the door

I’m Fine Thanks

I’m sorry you think I’ve missed you

As I haven’t given one fuck

If you thought you mattered

And my life is shattered

Well then, you’re shit out of luck

(Originally Posted 20.12.2021)

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‘I’ll Never Be Anybody’s Hero Now’

I used to be

Quite kindly

Cheerful

And fresh of face

Then something happened

That kicked off a pattern

Of both misery

And disgrace

Pedestals

They say you don’t know

What you mean to people

Whom you may never see

Well all I can say

Is I hope and pray

That no one relies on me

(Originally Posted 20.12.2020)

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A Distinct Lack Of Merriment

All those years

All those lists

When all I wanted

Was to eat and get pissed

Thoughtless

Not only is it the time of year for giving

But the time for receiving too

You’ve no idea how glad I am

There’s no more bullshit gifts from you

(Originally Posted 19.12.2020)

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He’ll Find Out For Himself

I’ll meet him

Myself one day

When his childhood lens

Has fallen away

And I’ll explain

What happened to us

And we’ll see if you threw me

Under the bus

Vindictive Cow

I
wonder
what
you’ve
told him

Now
I’m
no
longer
there

Have
you
bothered
to tell
the truth?

Or
just
said
I no
longer
care?

(Originally Posted 19.12.2019)

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An Unlikely Source

Not only was he handsome,

Smart and debonair

It also transpired

After he had inquired

That he was a millionaire

Currency

I’ll
give
you a
penny
for
them

He
said

Tell
me
your
ups
and
downs

You
can
put
your
coppers
away

She
said

As
to hear
those
you’ll
need
pounds

(Originally Posted 18.12.2020)

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‘the weirdness flows between us’

The worst is in the office

With the radio on

And no-one bats an eyelid

When they play our favourite song

Xxx

Name That Tune

People play
those songs

With no notion
of this pain

No idea that
when I hear them

My heart bleeds
for you again

(Originally Posted 18.12.2019)

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Cutting It Short

He never did

Text me back

No Facebook, Insta,

Or Whatsapp

Not that I really

Gave a shit

As it proved that he

Could never commit

The Final Fling

I hope
I’ve done
the right
thing

For as
yet, you
haven’t
replied

Perhaps
this is
finally
the end

I guess
I’ll wait
for you
to decide

(Originally Posted 18.12.2019)

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“Winner… By A Knockout”

How funny it was to read this

It’s almost prophetic in a way

As I hadn’t actually bumped into her

When I wrote this back in the day

This was actually what I hoped I’d do

If such a meeting ever arose

How I wouldn’t even acknowledge her

If we were to be up close

I had no real way of knowing

If I was capable of such a thing

As I might’ve just ran and hid

From the sight of her shit eating grin

But as it is I needn’t have worried

As I saw her just last week

In the most utterly random encounter

That you could ever wish seek

And I did, indeed, just saunter by

Leaving her mealy mouth struck dumb

Whereas I walked away both victorious

And comfortably numb

Getting Better At Caring Less

I walked
past you
today

And didn’t
even turn
my head

I just
quietly
sauntered
by

And felt
nothing
for you
instead

(Originally Posted 17.12.2019)

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I’m Loving Life

I hope you’re feeling

The cold up there

On what you think

Is the moral high ground

Sad, lonely

And freezing to death

While I’m down here

Safe and sound

Toy Soldiers

Did it ever occur to you

That I didn’t want you to know

What would you have done anyway

Other than used it as ammo

In this ridiculous war against me

That you felt the need to wage

Well I’m glad I never said a word

And from your battle, just disengaged

(Originally Posted 17.12.2020)

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Random #263

“Come away, O human child!
To the waters and the wild
With a faery, hand in hand,
For the world’s more full of
weeping than you can
understand.”

– W. B Yeats

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As Meek As Mice

It’s always the quiet ones

You need to watch

As they’re the ones

Who never get caught

Treachery

This cannot be
What you want

Surely,
It’s a joke

For I am not
That kind of woman

And you’re not
That kind of bloke

(Originally Posted 16.12.2020)

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Qualms

An allegory for so much

This one

Love, life and death

Trying to capture that feeling

When you need to stop

And pause for breath

Keep The Engine Running

Shall
we go
ahead
and jump

He
asked

Now that
we’ve
come
this far?

I’m not
so sure,
anymore,

She
said

Let’s just
get back
in the
car

(Originally Posted 16.12.2019)

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Feet First

In for a penny

In for a pound

Isn’t that what they say?

Well all I know is

If there are no strings

Then I’ll be there without delay

Cocktails At Dawn

Come over here

Let’s have a taste

As it would be a shame

If this went to waste

(Originally Posted 16.12.2020)

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Super Human

The extent of your brilliance

They never could see

But you were always more

Than just a man to me

Xxx

Afterlife

You still
save me
in so
many ways

Even
from
beyond
the grave

(Originally Posted 15.12.2019)

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Trauma Breeds Trauma

It started off

Innocently enough

But the problem was

It worked

The desire then grew

And deep down I knew

How I’d forever quench

My thirst

‘Slash & Burn’

Skin somewhat healing

And yet I’m still reeling

As my heart slowly withers

Is there a more appealing

Way to cope with this feeling

Other than with a pair of scissors?

(Originally Posted 15.12.2020)

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