Clocking In

Never

Do I feel this more

Than each time I walk

Through that door

Sown Up

I don’t feel better.

I haven’t forgotten.

I’ve just stopped telling you,

How I feel.

(Originally Posted 15.12.2020)

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Survival

This
ain’t
my first
rodeo

And it
won’t
be my
last

As
there’s
always a
change

I
can
undergo

To
keep
myself
intact

‘And The Academy Award Goes To…’

You’re
no fun
anymore

He
said

What
happened
to you
my friend?

I was
never
fun
before

She
said

All of
that
was
just
pretend

(Originally Posted 14.12.2020)

5

“Feeling Good As Hell”

You may think

That I’m left whimpering

But I can promise you

I am not

For I no longer need suffer

Your simpering

Which was worth

Every inch we fought

The High Road

You can just

Fuck off now

As I

Have had enough

I no longer

Give a shit

About all this

Selfish stuff

But you should know

Just one thing

And yes,

I will be blunt

Maybe I wasn’t

Always right

But you

Were always a cunt

(Originally Posted 14.12.2020)

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The Wolf In Sheep’s Clothing

I don’t think

I meant this

As me being

Hard done by

I think it

Was more

To show

At my core

That I’m actually

Not a good guy

Unfair

I never
get what
I want

Let alone
what I
deserve

(Originally Posted 14.12.2019)

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Gun Laws

It may well be known

As the land of the free

But that’s not always how

It looks to me

Clarity

In the time it took

To load the gun

He realised how

His demons had won

(Originally Posted 13.12.2020)

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Submitted

With a mindset shifted

And a choice insisted

An opportunity gifted

And a weight now lifted

Epitaph

Do you
ever wish
you could
just give
up?

Say
right,
that’s it,
I’ve had
enough!

I’m
done
with
all this
fucking
shit

I’m
finally
going
through
with it!

Well
I think
these
things
every
day

Those
words
to easy
for me
to say

And
so, it
seems,
my
demons
have won

For
I can
say now
I am
officially
done

(Originally Posted 13.12.2019)

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In My Little Corner Of The Internet

Even when

I’m dead and gone

I know now my words

Will always live on

Indelible

The words
I write
may well
be stark

For they
are made
to leave
their mark

Upon your
weak and
thready
heart

Forever

(Originally Posted 12.12.2019)

4

Fine Dining

Never again

Will I be forced

To visit someone else’s home

Even if that means

Living off chips and beans

And forever eating alone

Dinnertime

I’ll never
go back
there
again

They
can all
just get
to fuck

I’ve no
desire
to talk
to them

As with
my heart
they’ve
ran amuck

(Originally Posted 12.12.2019)

6

Perfunctory

Sometimes I wonder

If I made it out alive

Or if I’m actually still dead

I mean I know

I put on a good show

But I’d rather just feel it instead

But Still Alive

Mired in madness

Subsumed in sadness

Buried here forever

Lost in blackness

(Originally Posted 12.12.2019)

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‘Reality Bites’

In a way it’s easier

To still see you every day

For as we get both older

My heart grows colder

And doesn’t hurt in the same way

Taken

I can bear most things in life

But it kills me every time

To know no matter what I do

You will never again be mine

(Originally Posted 11.12.2020)

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Only The Half Of It

Reading this one back again

I feel so sorry for her

Clearly she lost more,

When he died,

Than her words could ever infer

I Can’t Bring You Back Though, Can I?

I can look at your photo

I can whisper your name

I can press your shirt

Against my face

But nothing feels the same

(Originally Posted 11.12.2020)

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Coquetry

Alhough we’ve never spoken

It’s still my daily treat

To remember that emotion

As our eyes shyly meet

After All

You
were
here
last
time

I
clearly
remember
your
smile

Perhaps
leaving
the
house
today

Might
yet
prove
to be
worthwhile

(Originally Posted 11.12.2019)

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Move Over, Wednesday

You’re hardly the life and soul

They said

Even with a drink you’re glum

You don’t know the half of it

She said

I didn’t even want to come

Sanctuary

Never more than when

I’m in a room full of people

Do I feel most the alone

All I want to do is beat

A slow and steady retreat

And find my sanctuary at home

(Originally Posted 10.12.2020)

6

The Urgent Sea Of Life

There’s something about

The rush of the waves

Those echoing sounds

From beyond the caves

This feels like home

To me

That sheer expanse

Of glass like water

As I stand here shaking

In awe before her

I know when I wade in

I’ll be free

Happy Place

Take me back

To the sea

For it is where

I need to be

But don’t think because

I’ve emptied my pockets

That will be

Enough to stop it

For in the end

It will just be me

Sinking down

Into the depths of the sea

(Originally Posted 10.12.2020)

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The Lochaber Traverse

I gave away

Your boots today

To a charity shop

For next time I know

I’ll be walking alone

All along that rugged hilltop

Gone For Good

What I have lost

Can’t be replaced

For our footsteps

Can’t be retraced

(Originally Posted 10.12.2019)

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Wasting Time

If only I was sure

He thought

That she feels the same way

I just wish he’d ask

She said

To her friend, later, that day

Admissions

Looking
at you

Looking
at me

When will
we tire

Of this
malarkey

(Originally Posted 10.12.2019)

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Random #261

“Someone once asked me: ‘why do you love music so much?’ I replied: ‘because it’s the only thing that stays when everything and everyone is gone.'”

– Kid Cudi

9

Pulling The Wool

The worst part

About what happened

Is that your role

Is still unexamined

Capitulation

I’m
now
ready
to walk
away

As you’ve
made it
impossible
for me
to stay

All I
hope
is
that
one day

You
are as
unhappy
as I am
today

(Originally Posted 09.12.2019)

2

Dead Inside

I know

That depression

Is cyclical

Yet I’m still taken

By surprise

Whenever

It hits

And I feel

Like shit

As the light fades

From behind my eyes

Sprung

The beast has crept back in again

She’s beaten down my door

And there was me,

Foolishly,

Thinking I wouldn’t need pills anymore

(Originally Posted 09.12.2020)

7

Parasite

Although I wrote this

For someone else

It suddenly occurs to me

That a finer analogy

For your behavior

There could never be

Leech

I
don’t
owe
you a
penny

But
you
sure do
owe
me

For
putting
food in
your
belly

And
living
in my
home
rent free

(Originally Posted 09.12.2019)

2

Way Too Eager

Well it’s not like I can help it

Said the moth

To the flame

My attraction to you is hard-wired

Well your way of showing it

Said the flame

To the moth

Leaves a lot to be desired

Wings

Fuck
this
shit

Said
the
moth

To
the
flame

It is
never
going
to work

It’s all
your
fault

Said
the
flame

To
the
moth

For
going so
fucking
berserk

(Originally Posted 08.12.2019)

4

Gold Dust

Even though

We only

Get one heart

I still

Gave mine

Away

But our love’s

Duet

I will never

Regret

Until

My dying day

Nothing Left

I
loved
you

And
you
loved
me

So now
my
penance

Is
never
to be
free

To
love
again

(Originally Posted 08.12.2019)

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The Long Way Down

I remember

When I heard this

Oh how I laughed

And laughed

To know that finally,

And rightfully,

You have fallen on your ass

Music To My Ears

So I’ve heard that you

Are starting to feel

Like you’re reaping

What you sowed

Well all I can say

Is poor, poor you

I hope your pain

Has overflowed

As I, for one,

Cannot express

Just how happy

I am to know

That perhaps now you

Can comprehend

How it feels

To be alone

(Originally Posted 08.12.2020)

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“I’m OK By Myself”

Someone asked me

Today

Why I prefer to travel

Alone

Because it’s easier

I said

Than listening to other people

Moan

Better Off Dead

Sometimes
I
wonder,

Is
this all
there is?

Just
boredom,
emptiness

And your
endless
bullshit?

I couldn’t
think of
anything
nicer,

Than to be
somewhere
else
instead.

Far from
all the
anxiety
and pain,

And your
words
plaguing
my head

(Originally Posted 07.12.2019)

2

Sleeping Alone

I thought having sex with strangers

Would get him out of my head

And though it filled a hole

That wasn’t my goal

So now it’s back to my own bed

Going Too Far

Lying
here
alone

In
this
strange
bed

Wondering
what the
fuck

Was
in my
head

Now I
must
ignore

This
feeling
of dread

And
stop
wishing
that I’d

Stayed
home
instead

(Originally Posted 07.12.2020)

2

The Asylum Called – They Want Their Jacket Back

If only one day

He’d answer back

Instead of just little

Old lunatic me

Shouting into the black

Into The Wind

As my life passes me by

I lose the will to even try

So I raise my hands to the sky

And scream why me, you arsehole, why?

(Originally Posted 07.12.2020)

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Mutually Exclusive

Between your happiness

And mine

I’d pick my freedom

Everytime

Last In Line

If you continue to push this

She said

And I am forced to choose

You really should be prepared

She said

For the fact I won’t pick you

(Originally Posted 06.12.2021)

2

Fucking Fluoxetine

I enjoyed my trip

Up to the heavens

Albeit for just

Those thirty seconds

One Night Only

This bed’s not big enough

For the both of us

So I’ll be the one to leave

We should just be glad

For the time we’ve had

And the little bit of reprieve

(Originally Posted 06.12.2020)

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The Sudden Calmness

They were all hoping

The blues would fade

But they were unaware

My decision was made

Rope

I know
I can’t
do this
anymore

My soul
is heavy
and my
heart
is sore

I feel
the relief
in every
pore

As I walk
along
to the
hardware
store

(Originally Posted 06.12.2019)

4

We Haven’t Got All Day

You’ve had more

Than enough time now

To decide once and for all

What you need to do

Is just tell us now

So we can both prepare for the fall

On Tenterhooks

I really don’t care

If I win or lose

Either way around

I just wish you’d choose

(Originally Posted 05.12.2020)

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