Wednesday 8pm

So I’m back
home now,
after that
shit show

Only two
more days
of pretending
to go

Then it’s
the weekend,
so I’ll be free
to lament

And avoid
all people,
to my hearts
content

Wednesday 2.30am (Pt 1)

I can’t even
bear the thought
of what’s to
come tomorrow

No doubt
it’ll just be
more misery
and sorrow

Perhaps I’d
be better
off staying
in bed

Then I might
just escape
the thoughts
in my head

(Originally Posted 17.07.2019)

Wednesday 11am (Pt 2)

So I managed,
in the end,
to get out of bed

And it’s been
shit so far,
just as I predicted

It seems I was right,
I should never
have tried

For I’ll never
escape this
pain inside

(Originally Posted 17.07.2019)

2

Spot On

Sometimes

When you’re trying to rhyme

You hit on something

Quite profound

I’m pretty sure

This was one of those

Where I cracked it

First time ’round

(Prick)ly

Not
the
best
at
being
loved

But
pretty
good
at
loving

Not
the
best
at
being
pushed

But
pretty
good
at
shoving

(Originally Posted 16.07.2020)

7

The Baton Nobody Wants

Now the worst has happened

And the handover is complete

There is nothing I can say or do

To help him back to his feet

Handover

You’ll
never
cope

She
said

When
this
happens
to you

I
know

He
said

I’m
dreading
it too

(Originally Posted 16.07.2020)

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Despite What The Ads Said

There
were
times,
back
then,

When
I just
wasn’t
worth
it

Water

It’s
amazing
the
difference
a shower
can make

Inside
and
out…

(Originally Posted 16.07.2019)

4

The Moonlight Flit

It took so much

Out of her

Putting up

With all his flack

So one day

She just ran away

And never once

Looked back

The Time Waster

I cannot
believe
after all
this time
I’m still
stuck in
your trap.

Quietly
putting up
with your
bullshit and
listening
to all
your crap.

If I have
to spend one
more minute
with you
I think
that I’ll
be sick.

Never
before
have I
wasted my
time on
such an
arrogant
little prick.

(Originally Posted 16.07.2019)

2

Random #219

“It’s a good job we’re not having soup, or else I’d put me head in it and drown meself.”

– Shirley Valentine

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A Cosmic Connection

I don’t know what I’d do

If I didn’t have you

You were the only one

To keep me sane

It was like you knew

What I was going through

And how to help me

Feel like me again

Grounding

Thanks for talking to me

He said

I hope it was of some worth

Thank you so much for listening

She said

It has brought me back to earth

(Originally Posted 15.07.2021)

0

At The End Of The Day

I hope never again

To find myself

Walking along this path

I’ve been through such a lot

That I’m pretty much shot

So I doubt I would make it back

Depression (Part 2)

Eat until you’re sick
Snap until you bruise
Run until you’re limp
Drink a shit load of booze

Spend until you’re skint
Sleep until you’re sore
Cry until you’re empty
Sleep around like a whore

Shout until you’re hoarse
Cut until you bleed
Work until you drop
Smoke a shedload of weed

Lie until you’re spent
Smile until you’re alone
Write until you’re wrung
Forget all you’ve ever known

(Originally Posted 15.07.2019)

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Angling For Love

Am I supposed to just wait around

She said

Hoping that you will choose me?

Well, I’m worth way more than that

She said

And there’s plenty more fish in the sea

Torn

How will you know

She said

If it’s her or me?

I have no idea

He said

Confusedly

(Originally Posted 15.07.2020)

2

We Don’t Just Binge On Food

There was a time

In this journey of mine

When it wasn’t so much the where

Than with whom

Hardly in my prime

And with things far from fine

I just didn’t care

Who was in my bedroom

Sleeping Around

Try
as I
may

With
all
of my
might

I
have
no
idea

Where
I’ll
sleep
tonight

(Originally Posted 14.07.2020)

2

A Day Reclaimed

When asked to describe

The best day of your life

I’m sure you’ve got many replies

When you got married,

The birth of your kids

Or some such equally befitting prize

Well I know that for me

It was when I chose to be free

And told those fuckers I’d never be back

And ever since that time

I’ve been on cloud nine

With no fear of that panic attack

Family Dinners

Can I be arsed with this?

No.

Do I still have to go?

Yes.

Fuck.

(Originally Posted 14.07.2019)

6

Not The Right Time

I’m sure you didn’t mean it

That way

That you were just trying

To help me through

But wheeling out those lines

As I lost my mind

Did nothing

But make me hate you

Know-It-All

What
doesn’t
kill me
might
make
me
stronger

But
it
also
makes
me
sick

So
you
can
shove
your
aphorisms

Up
your
arse

You
condescending
prick

(Originally Posted 13.07.2020)

10

‘Still Remains’

I can remember when I wrote this

Even though it was some time ago

I was lying in bed

Alone in my head

When that song came on the radio

I’d heard it many times before, of course

As it played through my headphones

But this time was different

As my tears fell quicker, and

I felt it in my bones

‘Silence Like A Cancer Grows…’

Back here alone

In this room again

With the darkness

My old friend

Praying for someone

My wounds to tend

Ever hopeful

This pain will end

(Originally Posted 13.07.2020)

6

Poignant

Sometimes I

Have nothing to add

No further words

Or updates

This is one

Of those times,

I think,

As when I read this

My heart breaks

Leftovers

A weak and weary
confused mind

An empty and
hollow heart

As bleak as it is,
it is all I have

As my life has
fallen apart

(Originally Posted 13.07.2019)

8

‘Just Like A Moth To A Flame’

You only have

To look at me

And I am powerless

To resist

As by your eyes

I am hypnotised

And before I know it

We’ve kissed

Temptation

Although
it seems
I’ve
lost
my way

I’d
like to
make it
back
someday

Now all
I can
do is
hope
and
pray

That
you
won’t
lead me
further
astray

(Originally Posted 12.07.2020)

2

The No Escape Room

It’s a word I use a lot

‘Abyss’

Reading back now

I have noticed

I hadn’t quite realised

How numb

I’d become

Or how dissociated I was

When I wrote this

Dwelling

Pain helps, momentarily.

It provides a fleeting relief.

Then the numbness returns

And living inside this emotionless abyss, continues.

(Originally Posted 12.07.2019)

6

Some Old Fashioned Smut

It seems that every so often

I’ll write a cheeky one like this

I blame the Carry On films

I watched when I was a kid

Their irreverent innuendo

Now belongs to a time gone by

But they taught me comedic timing

And left a twinkle in my eye

Repetitive Strain Injury

Time is running out

She said

Remember we’re on the clock

I wish you’d just stop checking

He said

And focus on my… shoulder

(Originally Posted 11.07.2021)

4

I Owe You

And now
that
I am
better,
it seems,
you have
taken a
turn for
the worse

But you
won’t talk
to me,
despite
my plea,
which
is really
the most
perverse

Crutches

I fear
I have
lent on
you once
too often,
and now
you are
as broken
as me.

I should
never have
asked for
your help,
to be
honest,
as now
you’ll never
be free.

(Originally Posted 11.07.2019)

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TDK D90 (Both Sides)

It took me so long

To make that mix tape

And then

You just threw it away

So I’ll never

Make you another one

Until

My dying day

‘Bought On Stolen Wine…’

All of
those
hours

Sat in
your room

Both
of us
wallflowers

Bathing
in gloom

(Originally Posted 10.07.2020)

2

Pushing People Away

Sounds like I was sick of platitudes

Back when I wrote this one

Had enough of condescending attitudes

When all was said and done

Yet as I think about it now

I’d love to hear them again

But sympathy disappears

When it falls on deaf ears

And eventually you run out of friends

No Consolation

There’s
no
point
in
crying

Over
spilt
milk

God
loves
you
for
trying

Blah
blah
blah

(Originally Posted 10.07.2020)

0

Sunny Side Up

Back at the café

A table for two

Talking to him

Wishing it was you

At The Café Window

Sitting alone

The world disjointed

I sip my coffee

Disappointed

(Originally Posted 09.07.2021)

6

Good Weekend?

So as

The tide

At work

To stem

Now I don’t

Even bother

Talking

To them

The Office

Momentory conversations

With temporary people

Sharing fleeting emotions

Providing non-permanent relief

(Originally Posted 09.07.2019)

9

Random #218

‘And if one day
You should see me in the crowd
Lend a hand and lift me
To your place in the cloud’

2

Random #217

“So we beat on, boats against the current, borne back ceaselessly into the past.”

– F. Scott Fitzgerald

0

Prototype

This could well be the inception

Of all those he said/she said pieces

And due to its reception

They’re now part of my ongoing thesis

The Deep

Do you think
we’ll make it
out alive,
she said,
hoping for
the truth.

I’m sure that
we’ll be fine,
he said,
with the
naivety
of youth.

(Originally Posted 08.07.2019)

4

I Should Have Known

The ultimate head fuck

For an obsessive planner like me

Is the loss of his soul

Was outwith my control

And something I did not forsee

(In)Competent

Out
of
all
the
things

I
can
say
or
do

What
hurts
me
the
most

Is
that
I couldn’t
save
you

Xxx

(Originally Posted 08.07.2020)

2

Lacklustre

Let’s go have some fun

He said

Eat, drink and be merry

That’s nowhere near enough

She said

To persuade me to bite the cherry

One Week On

What
exactly
am I
missing
out on?

Go on
then
please,
explain

It’s
your last
chance to
convince me

To
leave
the
house
again

(Originally Posted 08.07.2020)

0

Switching Off The Machine

I had forgotten

Ever writing this

But reading it now

It’s so clear to see

Why the overwhelming trauma

I endured that morning

Will never leave

My memory

Sigh

Sorry
it must
end
this way

She
said

But
I need
to let
you go

Please
don’t
forget
what we
had

He
said

Or
how
I loved
you
so

(Originally Posted 07.07.2020)

7

A Miscarriage Of Justice

If our case was

To be heard again

In any court of law

You know it would end

With your actions condemned

And you locked behind this door

At Her Majesty’s Pleasure

You were keen to kidnap my kindness.

Happy to hijack hope from my heart.

You smiled whilst you stole my soul,
and laughed as you looted the love from my life.

So why am I the one who is sentenced to this life of solitude,

And you are strolling around out there scot-free?

(Originally Posted 07.07.2019)

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Lifesavers

To anyone who has ever read

Liked, shared, or commented

You’ve helped more

Than you could know

Without your engagement

There’d be complete derangement

And I’d have ended things

Long ago

Futile

Sometimes,
I depress
myself

As my
thoughts
fill the
page

Why
am I
here

Wasting
everyone’s
time

Hoping
for
someone
to engage

(Originally Posted 06.07.2020)

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