The Truce

People mean well

I tell myself

They are mostly just trying their best

It’s not their fault

If they sometimes fall short

So I should give the hostility a rest


Interaction

Give
me a
thumbs
up

And
I’ll
give
you
two

All
whilst
silently

Whispering
fuck
you

(Originally Posted 02.06.2020)

Special Measures

You may look remorseful now

And you may appear contrite

But let’s see how you act

When I tell them the fact

You nearly killed me that night


On Borrowed Time

You can sit there all you want

My friend

Picking at your thumbs

But you and I know

How this will end

When the day of reckoning comes

(Originally Posted 01.06.2021)

Zzzopiclone

I may excel

At many things

But to my eternal dismay

I know fine well

That sleep, it seems,

Will never be quite my forte


The Dream Catcher

Bad thoughts creep

As I’m without sleep

For yet another night

Fears won’t keep

Whilst I lie and weep

Losing the will to fight

(Originally Posted 01.06.2020)

Desiderate

Even now I struggle

To lie on your side of the bed

I just wish you were in it

As often as you are my head

Xxx


A King Sized Longing

Lying in bed

Late at night

I turn over

With a sigh

I reach out

With my hand

But it’s now empty

Where you would lie

Xxx

(Originally Posted 31.05.2021)

In Thrall

I have said

Time and time again

“That’s it – I’ve had enough”

But it proves pointless

Time and time again

As leaving you is just too tough


‘It’s In The Trees…’

How do I give you up

My drug of choice

You don’t stand a chance

Whispers the voice

(Originally Posted 31.05.2020)

That Old Chestnut

I wish I could say

I’d never take you back

But if I did

I would be lying

You’ll always have a way

To knock me off track

Even without

You really trying


I Am My Own Temple

You only get one chance with me

And you blew it good and proper

Now it’s not about forgiveness

It’s all about my honour

(Originally Posted 30.05.2021)

After The Party

As empty bottles clink

Into paper bags

My heart start to sink

And motivation flags

I was happy you came over

That much is true

Yet I can’t help but wish

She hadn’t left with you


More Or Less

I
guess
I am
happy

More
or
less

Even
though
I’m the
one

Left
cleaning
up the
mess

(Originally Posted 30.05.2020)

For The Best

I never did tell him the truth

Of where I went that day

But even though I did it

I’m glad I hid it

As I could never hurt him that way


Deceit

Lying to
myself
is bad
enough

But
lying
to you
hurts
more

But
there’s
no way
I could
be truthful

That’s
for
fucking
sure

(Originally Posted 29.05.2020)

The Blues

I spent much of 2020

In a drug induced dwam

I found the only way

To cope with each day

Was to eat diazepam


Going Over

And
then
it
hits

Like
a ton
of
bricks

And
I don’t
feel a
thing

(Originally Posted 29.05.2020)

Just Enough Justification

That day you decided

To take it all from me

Yet all you actually provided

Was the route to set me free


You Know Nothing

I do not want your pity

Your sympathy is of no use

I care nothing for your tears

As your grief is just an excuse

(Originally Posted 29.05.2019)

There’s No Fun In Funeral

Crying in the chapel

Many years ago

Missing you intently

And wishing it wasn’t so


Granite

I wish
you were
with me

Gently
squeezing
my hand

Providing
me with
comfort

Helping me
understand

(Originally Posted 28.05.2020)

French Exits

As I lie with yet another

Notch on my bed post

I am grateful for a lover

But that’s as far as it goes


Just Another Fish

I suppose
I should
make it
clear

Right
from the
very
start

You may
delight
my
body

But you
will never
have my
heart

(Originally Posted 28.05.2020)

The Kitchen Sink Elixir

No matter what

Problem you have

Or whatever the issue

May be

There isn’t anything

That can’t be fixed

By an old fashioned

Cup of tea


Sacrilege

I didn’t think

There was anything else

You could do to anger me

But then you go

And confront me with

A fucking awful cup of tea

(Originally Posted 27.05.2021)

Imposter Syndrome

Seventy three thousand words now

And I haven’t improved very much

It’s a good job those who read me

Aren’t ones too quick to judge


You’re Too Kind

Thirty
six
thousand
words

And
each
one of
them
shite

But now
I’ve
passed
one
thousand
followers

I
must
be doing
something
right

(Originally Posted 27.05.2020)

The Cliché Continues

So I’m hearing you say you feel empty

He said

Could you expand further on this

Haven’t you heard enough

She said

To put an end to this bullshit


Such A Cliché

I don’t
know if
you’re
aware

She
said

But
I’ve
been
feeling
rather
down

Let me
fetch my
notebook

He
said

Reaching
forward
with a
frown

(Originally Posted 26.05.2020)

Soon Enough

I hear you have moved on since then

And got yourself a job

I wonder when others

Will see your true colours

And agree you’re a fucking snob


Supercilious Bint

Carry on ‘studying’

For your Mickey Mouse degree

But just know whatever happens

You’ll never be better than me

(Originally Posted 26.06.2020)

The Commute

As we sit

On the bus each day

I cannot help

But look your way

Wondering when

You’ll break away

And hoping that

You’ll be OK


Inkling

I think you feel

The way I do

That your heart beats

Like mine does too

That your mind wanders

On a similar path to me

That you also dream

Of when you’ll be free

(Originally Posted 25.05.2020)

If Only I Wasn’t Risk Averse (Scenario B)

If only I wasn’t risk averse

My world would open up

If only I wasn’t risk averse

I could see more of life closeup


Deep Breaths

Maybe
you’ll
change
your
mind

Or
maybe
you
won’t

But
one
thing
is for
sure

You’ll
regret
it if
you
don’t

(Originally Posted 25.05.2020)

If Only I Was Risk Averse (Scenario A)

If only I was risk averse

I would avoid these situations

If only I was risk averse

I could lay better foundations


Unhappy Endings

I wish
we’d never
started this.

Then we
wouldn’t have
to end it.

(Originally Posted 25.05.2019)

No Room At The Inn

You should look for someone else

They say

Now time’s moved on a bit

I wouldn’t know where to start

I say

Or where in my head they’d fit


HeadRoom

I
did
not
realise

That
space
in my
head

Would
still be
filled
by you

Even
though
you’re
dead

(Originally Posted 24.05.2020)

From The Back Row

Crying because I was happy

Crying because I was sad

Crying because I had lost

The best friend I’d ever had


Joy and Sadness

Resisting
the urge
to cry
today
is futile.

(Originally Posted 24.05.2019)

Heartbreaker

Thank God

I never gave him this

As I don’t think

He’d have ever recovered

Young love is such

A fickle thing

As I’m sure

He’s since discovered


(I’m Not In) Love Letters

I read,
read
and
read it
again

But it
doesnt
change
a thing

I can’t
take
back
what
I wrote

Or
remove
it’s
sting

(Originally Posted 23.05.2020)

Departures

When I sat down and wrote this one

Everyone else was at the bar

(In the grand scheme of things that day

We hadn’t travelled very far)

Whilst I waited for my drink

I plastered on a smile

Wishing I was anywhere but

En route to the Emerald Isle


The Airport Lounge

It doesn’t matter how loud people are

They never drown out the voices inside my head.

(Originally Posted 23.05.2019)

Accuracy

I’d never use that word lightly

Or just for its shock value

In fact, I only ever use it rightly

And that’s when I’m describing you


Dumped

All
those
times
I was
there
for
you

I
never
asked
for a
thing
in return

Well
you’re
on your
own

You
self
righteous
cunt

So
now
perhaps
you’ll
learn

(Originally Posted 22.05.2020)

Dead To You

You will never stand

At my grave and weep

As you’ll never know

Where it is


Animosity

You can
keep your
feigned apology

For your
friendship
now means
nothing to me

I shall
live without
you merrily

Waiting for
the day
everyone
will see

Just how
wicked and
cruel you
can be

(Originally Posted 22.05.2019)

Actually, It’s Not Me That’s The Problem

If you lowered your expectations

I reckon we’d be OK

But if you feel it integeral

To keep me on that pedestal

It’ll only end in dismay


‘All The Time…’

If I
could
be

Who
you
want

Me
to
be

Perhaps
then
we

Would
both be
happy

(Originally Posted 21.05.2020)

A Clean Bill Of Health

Maybe it wasn’t a prison

But it certainly felt like it

I’d do anything not to go back there

Even if that means faking it


Climbing The Walls

Let
me
out

She
said

You
cannot
keep me
here

I
think
you’ll
find we
can

He
said

The
law is
very
clear

(Originally Posted 21.05.2020)

Thank Fuck For Waterproof Mascara

I had a lot of fun that day

And I looked beautiful too

Yet on the hour, every hour

I cried alone in the loo


Wedding Bells

Who knows
what will happen
when I get there.

Who knows
what will happen
along the way.

What I do know
is that you
won’t be there.

And my tears
will fall
all day.

(Originally Posted 21.05.2019)

Random #203

‘Head’s in a whirlpool
Spinnin’ round and round
If she don’t get her man back
She’s gonna drown’

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