Tag: abuse

Not In Front Of The Kids

I hear you shout

Through the wall

And realise you don’t

Love her at all 

Then I see you fight

From my bed

And know you won’t stop

Until she’s dead

2

Silence Kills

I thought that you

Were telling the truth

When you said

You were here to help

Yet despite my decline

I realised in time

You were only ever out

For yourself

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Another Kick In The Teeth

There was once a time

When I could go home

Shower

And wash myself clean

But now there’s no let up

No matter how hard I scrub

From the pain

My body has seen

5

Groomed

Please don’t act

Like you asked

When you

Just fucking took it

There’s no hiding the fact

It wasn’t lawful contact

However

You fucking put it

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Punching Low

Why the fuck

Would you stay

When you know

That shit

Is not okay

There has to be

Some other way

For you

To leave

Without delay

4

No Means No

If we both stay here

He said

I fear my resolve

Will break

Let’s be very clear

She said

That’s not your choice

To make

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Hiding In Plain Sight

It’s looking like

We got it wrong again

Because of his persona

We missed their pain

And although, I’m sure,

He’ll issue his refrain

Any protest now

Must surely be in vain

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Pushover

Sometimes

I regret

What I said

And how often

I showed you

The door

As it never seemed

To matter

How your heart

Was shattered

You’d always

Come back

For more

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Animal Wrongs

Fuck knows why

I picked a zoo

I couldn’t think

Of anything worse

Starting something

Amid such abuse

Could only prove

To be a curse

Swipe Right

How’s
about
it

Just
us
two

Fancy
a
walk

Visit
the
zoo

Get
a
beer

Eat
some
food

Spend
the
night

Being
terribly
rude

(Originally Posted 25.02.2020)

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From The Rooftops

They say I’d maybe get further

If I lowered my tone a bit

But there’s no way of keeping quiet

About all of his bullshit

Screaming

I know that it seems

A little strange

And it’s hard

To confabulate

But please believe me

When I say

It’s how I best

Communicate

(Originally Posted 06.01.2022)

8

Drained

As time goes on

It gets harder

Their behavior to excuse

I’ve drank so many toasts

To so many men now

That I’ve run out of booze

Liars

Let’s
all
raise
our
glasses

And
make a
drunken
toast

To all
those
cruel
bastards
out there

Who
claim
they
love us
the most

(Originally Posted 18.11.2019)

8

No God Will Save You Then

Whatever will they think of you

All your fans and acolytes

Because they will find out

All about

What you would do to us at night

Enjoy My Silence

I’ll
say
it was
my
fault

I’ll
take
all
the
blame

Just to
protect
you
and
yours

From
feeling
this
terrible
shame

But
don’t
think
it’ll
last

As
I won’t
stay
quiet
forever

One day
I will
tell
the
truth

And
all ties
they
will
sever

(Originally Posted 09.11.2019)

19

Gaslit

This is what can happen

When you go into these things blind

Not only do they

Abuse your body

But they also fuck with your mind

Obviously Oblivious

Just
look
what
you’ve
done

She
said

You’ve
gone
and
broken
my
heart

Don’t
pretend
you
didn’t
know

He
said

That
this
would
happen
from
the
start

(Originally Posted 08.11.2019)

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You’ll Keep

I used to care

About the truth

That the world should know

About my abuse

But I’m a better person now

Than those liars and frauds

So I’ll happily stay quiet

About my in laws

The Silver Medal

This
was
hardly
a fair
fight

And
we
both
know
who
rightfully
won

Yet
I’ll
step
graciously
aside
for
you

As
one
day
the
truth
will
come

(Originally Posted 17.09.2020)

2

Used

And we all know why that is, don’t we?

We all know what you stole

Any trust in men

Was taken when

You denied me any control

Don’t Touch Me

People
like me
can never
be loved

It’s something we
won’t allow

People
like me
can never
be loved

We simply don’t
know how

(Originally Posted 31.07.2019)

4

At His Hands

Sometimes

The words I use

Are not deliberately explicit

Sometimes

The words I choose

Are inherently implicit

Overpowered

It is
not
only
my
heart
that
bleeds

As
you
take
care
of
your
own
needs

(Originally Posted 18.05.2020)

6

Season’s Beatings

I fucking hate Christmas

Just like Christmas hates me

Walking on eggshells all day

Faking smiles around a tree

I learned when I was five

Santa doesn’t deliver for free

That he prefers ‘good little girls’

And the one he favoured that year was me

As an adult I’ve tried to make it better

To erase him from my memory

But I still fucking hate Christmas

Just like Christmas hates me

57

Leaving Home

Just keep on walking

He said

And don’t you ever come back

Just stop fucking talking

She said

You’ve already won this attack

7

Protection

Why don’t you tell him what happened

He said

Instead of just writing it down

Because I don’t want him to know

She said

I couldn’t bear to see his frown

7

Self Talk

If I don’t talk about myself negatively

She said

Then I’ve got nothing much to say

Well perhaps I can try to help you

He said

See yourself in a different way

31

If You Like

Stitch my wounds, if you like
I want to feel the pain
Don't call me a silly girl
For I'll only do it again

Ask me why, if you like
But you will never understand
The need, the comfort, the urgency
Those scissors close at hand

Leave me here, if you like
Walk away if you dare
Just remember I never asked for your help
Or your tender loving care

Forget I exist, if you like
It will not bother me one bit
For I'll always have my trusty blade
And carry my own first aid kit

(Originally Posted 08.04.2019)
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‘Meat Is Murder’

Well I hope you’ve enjoyed

Your murdered bird

I can’t think of anything

More absurd

Than to eat your friends

On Christmas Day

Proclaiming such abuse

As the Christian way

23

My Lips Are Sealed

Don’t you worry

I will never tell

How much you hurt me

And put me through hell

But not to keep

Your good name intact

But more to ensure

You never come back

14

Power

I’ve walked
along
this road
before

Feeling
lonely
and
insecure

At least
this time
I know
for sure

You
cannot
hurt me
anymore

9

Depression (Part 2)

Eat until you’re sick
Snap until you bruise
Run until you’re limp
Drink shit loads of booze

Spend until you’re skint
Sleep until you’re sore
Cry until you’re empty
Sleep around like a whore

Shout until you’re hoarse
Cut until you bleed
Work until you drop
Smoke a shedload of weed

Lie until you’re spent
Smile until you’re alone
Write until you’re wrung
Forget all you’ve ever known

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Mild Peril

I trace those old scars with my finger
I remember the fleeting pain
And the lasting relief

I never told anyone

I hope I'm not about to re-open old wounds

Literally
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