Clock Watching

I commend

Your curiosity

I absolutely do

The fact

That I’m not

Remotely arsed

Says far more

About me

Than you

‘Reality Bites’

In a way it’s easier

To still see you every day

For as we get both older

My heart grows colder

And doesn’t hurt in the same way


Taken

I can bear most things in life

But it kills me every time

To know no matter what I do

You will never again be mine

(Originally Posted 11.12.2020)

A Younger Model

Will you still love me

When I am old and grey

Will you still want me

To touch you in that way

Will you still need me

To kiss you goodbye each day

Or will you just find someone else

And simply walk away


A Risky Business

We really
shouldn’t
do this,
she said,
it isn’t
the right
time

It’s now
or never,
he said,
for I’ll
soon be
past my
prime

(Originally Posted 14.09.2019)

Birthdays Are The Worst Days

I still don’t know

What the fuck to do

Even though today

I’m forty two


Entering My Fifth Decade

So I
turned
forty
today

And
what
exactly
did
I do?

Nothing

But
drink,
smoke
and cry
too much

Like
every
other
day

Without
you

Xxx

(Originally Posted 08.08.2020)

How Times Change

I guess I was re-watching

One of those films from my youth

As I was reminded

That for romance now

I am too long in the tooth


It’s Way More Than 10…

It’s the little things

That I hate

And the big things too

In fact there isn’t anything

That I actually like about you

(Originally Posted 16.05.2021)

An Unnatural Order

You were always going to die

Before me

We were resigned to that fate

But it shouldn’t have been

When you were forty five

And I was thirty eight 

Xxx

The Old Crone

Please

She said

Pay me no mind

And try not think of me unkind

For I am

She said

To madness inclined

And peace I can no longer find

My Younger Self

If I spent time with my younger self, what would I say?

Well done for putting up with this bullshit every day

If I spent time with my younger self, what would I see?

A weary acceptance that life isn’t all it’s cracked up to be

If I spent time with my younger self, what would I feel?

An overwhelming sadness that time will never heal

If I spent time with my younger self, what would I do?

Tell them to pack a bag and run away with you

(Originally Posted 24.07.2019)

The Over 40’s Club

Let’s both jump

Into this taxi

Please just take me home

And have me

I’m done waiting

Now is our time

Let’s grasp this moment

Whilst we’re in our prime

High School Reunions

I
wonder
what

You’d
think
of me
now

Fat,
forty
and
fucked

Would
you
still
love me
forever

Want
to be
together
whatever

Or be
thankful
for the
bullet
you
ducked

08.08

So it’s another birthday

And what a day it has been

If I’d have known last year

What I know now

I would have jacked it all in

But I suppose now it’s time

At this ripe old age

And much to my chagrin

To find a way of moving forward

And discover the strength within

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