I commend
Your curiosity
I absolutely do
The fact
That I’m not
Remotely arsed
Says far more
About me
Than you
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
I commend
Your curiosity
I absolutely do
The fact
That I’m not
Remotely arsed
Says far more
About me
Than you
In a way it’s easier
To still see you every day
For as we get both older
My heart grows colder
And doesn’t hurt in the same way
Taken
I can bear most things in life
But it kills me every time
To know no matter what I do
You will never again be mine
(Originally Posted 11.12.2020)
Will you still love me
When I am old and grey
Will you still want me
To touch you in that way
Will you still need me
To kiss you goodbye each day
Or will you just find someone else
And simply walk away
A Risky Business
We really
shouldn’t
do this,
she said,
it isn’t
the right
time
It’s now
or never,
he said,
for I’ll
soon be
past my
prime
(Originally Posted 14.09.2019)
I still don’t know
What the fuck to do
Even though today
I’m forty two
Entering My Fifth Decade
So I
turned
forty
today
And
what
exactly
did
I do?
Nothing
But
drink,
smoke
and cry
too much
Like
every
other
day
Without
you
Xxx
(Originally Posted 08.08.2020)
I guess I was re-watching
One of those films from my youth
As I was reminded
That for romance now
I am too long in the tooth
It’s Way More Than 10…
It’s the little things
That I hate
And the big things too
In fact there isn’t anything
That I actually like about you
(Originally Posted 16.05.2021)
You were always going to die
Before me
We were resigned to that fate
But it shouldn’t have been
When you were forty five
And I was thirty eight
Xxx
Please
She said
Pay me no mind
And try not think of me unkind
For I am
She said
To madness inclined
And peace I can no longer find
If I spent time with my younger self, what would I say?
Well done for putting up with this bullshit every day
If I spent time with my younger self, what would I see?
A weary acceptance that life isn’t all it’s cracked up to be
If I spent time with my younger self, what would I feel?
An overwhelming sadness that time will never heal
If I spent time with my younger self, what would I do?
Tell them to pack a bag and run away with you
(Originally Posted 24.07.2019)
Let’s both jump
Into this taxi
Please just take me home
And have me
I’m done waiting
Now is our time
Let’s grasp this moment
Whilst we’re in our prime
I
wonder
whatYou’d
think
of me
nowFat,
forty
and
fuckedWould
you
still
love me
foreverWant
to be
together
whateverOr be
thankful
for the
bullet
you
ducked
It’s been so quiet
Since you left
All I hear
Is my own breath
As I lie here alone
And wait for death
So it’s another birthday
And what a day it has been
If I’d have known last year
What I know now
I would have jacked it all in
But I suppose now it’s time
At this ripe old age
And much to my chagrin
To find a way of moving forward
And discover the strength within
When I
think back
I realise
that I
lost myself
way before
I lost you