So what is going to happen
When I'm here all alone
Nobody allowed to visit
Me unable to go home
I guess I'll just watch shit TV
And drown myself in beer
Whilst hoping for an early end
To all this fucking cheer
Thoughtless
Not only is it the time of year for giving
But the time for receiving too
You’ve no idea how glad I am
There’s no more bullshit gifts from you
Sanctuary
Never more than when
I’m in a room full of people
Do I feel most alone
All I want to do is beat
A slow, silent, steady retreat
And find my sanctuary at home
Going Too Far
Lying
here
in
this
strange
bed
Wondering
what
was
going on
inside
my head
Trying
to
ignore
this
feeling
of dread
Wishing
I had
chosen
to stay
at home
instead
All That Once Was
It
was so
much
betterWhen
you
were
hereHolding
you
closePulling
you
nearNow
all
that
once
wasHas
gone
awayI’m
left
here
aloneAnd
that’s
not
OKXxx
Troubled
Staying
up
late
againSitting
here
all
aloneUnable to
shake this
creeping
feelingThat
I really
should
have
known
The Railway Line
I
shouldn’t
need to
tell you
againYou
must
already
knowI
don’t
want to
be here
anymorePlease
just
let me
go
‘Speak to Me Someone’
I am
more
lonely
Than
anybody
knows
I
could
really
Use
a
friend
Before
this
darkness
Inside
me
grows
And
it
really
Is
the
end
Blunt
I
wish
you
were
here
with
me
But
instead
I’m
all
alone
If
only
you
would
write
a letter
Or
call
me on
the
phone
It
would
be so
wonderful
to facetime
Or
if
you
texted
me
instead
But
I know
you
won’t
do any
of these
You
can’t
Because
you’re
dead
What Is Said Vs The Truth
Goodbye,
See you later,
It’s such a shame
That you can’t stay.
Thank fuck you’re gone,
And now I’m alone,
As I never liked you
Anyway.
The Double Bed
It’s been so quiet
Since you left
All I hear
Is my own breath
As I lie here alone
And wait for death
‘Turn Away On Your Side…’
Was
I always
wrong
Or was
I sometimes
right
Not that
it matters
anyway
Now I’m
alone at
night
Let Me Go
Please
just
walk
away
And
take
yourself
off home
I
don’t
want to
talk
I
want
to be
alone
Entering My Fifth Decade
So I
turned
forty
today
And
what
exactly
did
I do?
Nothing
But
drink,
smoke
and cry
too much
Like
every
other
day
Without
you
Xxx
O Unhappy Day
I never
thought
you
wouldn’t
be here
today
It’s
still
hard to
accept
that you
went away
Perhaps
you’re
still
with me
here in
spirit
I just
wish
your
presence
was more
explicit
Xxx
The Surprise Party
Sorry
I’m
not
jumping
with
delightBut
I’d
prefer
to be
alone
tonight
Please Don’t Go
If
I can’t
speak
to you
anymore
Then
who
else is
going to
listen?
There’s
not
many
that
can
tolerate
My
incessant
whining
and
bitching
Detached
It
matters
not
If
I go
out
Or if
I stay
at home
As
either
way
It’s
clear
to me
I’ll
always
be alone
‘Silence Like A Cancer Grows…’
Back here alone
In this room again
With the darkness
My old friend
Praying for someone
My wounds to tend
Ever hopeful
This pain will end
Quicksand
I’ve
no
idea
How
I got
in
But
I know
I can’t
Get
out
There’s
no one
here
To
lend
a hand
Or
act
upon
My
shout
The Far Side
You
don’t
have
to be
here
For
me to
know
you
care
You
don’t
have
to be
near
For
me to
know
you’re
there
Xxx