My heart is now
A dead weight
Sitting heavy
In my chest
Not sure if
There’s another chance
To show itself
At it’s best
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
My heart is now
A dead weight
Sitting heavy
In my chest
Not sure if
There’s another chance
To show itself
At it’s best
I woke up with a smile
Today
All the bad feeling
Had gone away
It actually felt
Like it was the start
Of gluing back together
My broken heart
‘And I’m wasted all the time
I’ve gotta drink you right off of my mind…’
My heart is empty now;
it can never be filled.My life is over now;
my spirit you have killed.(Originally Posted 16.07.2019)
If I
were
to see
you
againI
wouldn’t
know
where
to startSo
perhaps
it’s
bestI lay
here
to
restAnd
nurse
my
broken
heart
The
pain
is
buried
so
deep
She
said
I
don’t
think
it’ll
ever
surface
Then
let’s
just
leave
it
there
He
said
Breaking
your
heart
again
isn’t
worth
it
My
heart
is soreFrom
searching
for moreForever
rotten to
the core
Just
look
what
you’ve
done
She
said
You’ve
gone
and
broken
my
heart
Don’t
pretend
you
didn’t
know
He
said
That
this
would
happen
from
the
start
I took
the first
one this
morningThe rest
won’t be
as hard
to swallowSoon
my belly
will be
fullAnd I’ll
no longer
feel so
hollow
I’m done
with
this shithole
todayI’m packing
up and
running
awayFar
from where
the sun
can catch meAnd to where
the pleasure
of pain
distracts me
When I
think back
I realise
that I
lost myself
way before
I lost you
Perhaps we’d
have been
happier
as strangers,For never
having met.Perhaps we’d
have been
happier
as strangers,With nothing
to regret.
I reach
for your hand,
but it’s not there,
and further into
the abyss
I fall.
I search
for your face,
but no one cares,
and it’s like you
were never here
at all.
You were
always so
terrified
that I
would leave.When,
after all
was said
and done,
I was the
only one
who stayed.
The message from the search engine pings.
Their spies inform me that last month I visited:
Three different countries,
Fifteen different cities,
And twenty one different places.
That means I travelled over 1000 miles, last month.
Each one without you.
And every one with an empty heart.