Hearing
how
sad
you
would
be
Doesn’t
make
me
change
my
mind
All
it
does
is
remind
me
to
choose
A
method
that
is
kind
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
Hearing
how
sad
you
would
be
Doesn’t
make
me
change
my
mind
All
it
does
is
remind
me
to
choose
A
method
that
is
kind
They
say
time
fliesWhen
you’re
having
funIt’s a
shame
our
timeHas
not
yet
begun
Maybe
you’ll
change
your
mind
Or
maybe
you
won’t
But
one
thing
is for
sure
You’ll
regret
it if
you
don’t
How
many
more
times
Must
I walk
this
path
Surely
I’ve
done it
enough
times now
To
find
my own
way
back
Isn’t
it
funny
How
the
world
turns
And
yet
deep
inside
My
heart
still
burns
For
another
chance
At
somekind
of
romance
With
someone
Other
than
you
Whether
it’s her
Or whether
it’s me
You’ll never
be anything
But
unhappy
I
don’t
want
to feel
better
I
don’t
want
to feel
at all
I do
appreciate
what
we’ve
got
But
lament
what
could
have
been
You
and
me
together
forever
With
nobody
inbetween
It
really
isn’t
you,
it’s
me
You
deserve
to be
happy
But
you
won’t
get to
share
In
anything
with
me
But
sadness,
heartache
and
despair
And
untold
misery
If you
don’t
want
to be
with
me
Then
don’t
feel
you
have
to stay
I
am
quite
happy
by
myself
Or
finding
someone
else to
lead
astray
Whatever
it is you
want
from me
I just
don’t
have it
to give
As I’m
focusing
all of my
attention
On
finding
reasons
to live
This
can’t
go on
We
mustn’t
continue
As the
guilt is
seeping
Into
every
sinew
It
has to
stop
It
shouldn’t
have
started
As
we
made a
mockery
Of our
dearly
departed
If only
I believed
you
Things
would be
so different
If only I
was who
you see
Life
could be
magnificent
With one
hand
pressed
against
the door
I try
to work
out who
I love
more
And in
that split
second
I decide
to stay
I throw
my one
chance at
happiness
away
I
wish
there
was a
way
I
could
make
you
see
That
good
boys
like
you
Aren’t
for
bad
girls
like me
You
can
stay
Or you
can
leave
I
really
don’t
give
a fuck
As
from
now on
I’ll
rely on
no one
And
make
my own
bloody
luck
As
bad
decisions
come
back
to say
hello
I
wish
I
knew
what
to do
For
now
my
life
has
fallen
apart
And it
feels
so
empty
without
you
How
much
longer
will this
take?
How
many
choices
must I
make?
Before
I finally
get
what
I want
And you
stop
being
such a
cunt
Just stop
Please rewind
I want to go back
I’ve changed my mind
I’ve been
thinking
it over
again
And I
have
changed
my mind
If there’s
one thing
I don’t
regret
It’s
leaving
you
behind
Neither of
us knows
If the life
we chose
Will work out
for the best
Just
because
you can
Doesn’t
mean you
should
Just
because
I can
Doesn’t
mean I
would
Nobody knows
that pain
more than meIf only there
was a way to
make you seeIf you could
just set
yourself freeHow much
happier
you would be
It’s only
now I
realise
I’ve
played
this all
wrongAnd it
actually
should
have
been
you all
along
If there was
another way
of dealing
with this shitI wish
now that I
could’ve
chosen itThen I
wouldn’t have
relied so
much on youAnd your
heart wouldn’t
also be torn
in two
I only want
what’s best
for you,
he said,
even if it’s
not what’s
best for meI just
want this
to end,
she said,
I simply
want to
be free
Sometimes I do.
Sometimes I don’t.
Sometimes I will
Sometimes I won’t.
Deal with it.
Or don’t.
I’m not bothered either way.
Powerless to leave
or
making a choice to stay.
There is a difference.
The girl in the river,
She never thought she would be.
The girl in the river,
She didn’t want you to see.
The girl in the river,
She just wanted to be free.
The girl in the river,
She is me.