I’ve no
Doubt that
What has
Happened
To put
You in
This position
Is down
To your
Incessant
Stupidity
And of
Your own
Volition
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
I’ve no
Doubt that
What has
Happened
To put
You in
This position
Is down
To your
Incessant
Stupidity
And of
Your own
Volition
We need support
When traumatised
Not to be attacked
Or demonised
Something we wish
That you’d realise
When losing them
Leaves us paralysed
I don’t know why
I was spared that day
And he was taken
Instead
But my life
Is hell without him
So I’d still
Be better off dead
Hindsight
If I
could
go back
to that
night
Knowing
what
I now
know
I would
hold you
in my
arms so
tight
And
never
let
you
go
Xxx
(Originally Posted 28.01.2020)
You know
As well as me
This will only end
One way
To release
The pressure
We’ll sleep
Together
Then we’ll both
Be made to pay
Moonlighting
All this back and forth
Between us both
Has certainly served a purpose
But now we know
That our virtues show
Merely on the surface
(Originally Posted 25.01.2021)
I kept true to my promise
Just like I said I would
Now let’s both be honest
You fucking hate spinsterhood
Once And For All
Tell me you don’t want me
And I’ll walk away if I must
But just make sure
Your heart can endure
As you won’t see me again
For dust
(Originally Posted 15.01.2021)
Grief affects everyone
In many different ways
Yet some among us
Prove lucky enough
To escape the daily malaise
Poles Apart
I still cry myself to sleep
Not that you’d know
You selfish creep
You think because
We all lost him
That we both feel the same
But you haven’t got
A fucking clue
Of how I live each day in pain
(Originally Posted 30.12.2020)
Only ever
Fleetingly happy
But always
Desperately sad
Forever trying
To be good
Whilst contemplating
Being bad
(Originally Posted 24.12.2019)
I don’t think
I meant this
As me being
Hard done by
I think it
Was more
To show
At my core
That I’m actually
Not a good guy
Unfair
I never
get what
I want
Let alone
what I
deserve
(Originally Posted 14.12.2019)
You will reap
What you sow
Isn’t that what they say?
Well if that’s true
Then I promise you
There’s a fucking whirlwind
On the way
Penance
You’ll probably never see me again
And I’m quite happy with that
As it’s the very least you deserve
For being such an obnoxious twat
(Originally Posted 10.11.2019)
If you’re talking about my arms
She said
Then the urge I could try to park
But if you mean my wit
She said
That’ll always be razor sharp
Spitting Distance
We
could
have
had
it
all
She
said
But
now
we’re
left
with
nothing
Maybe
we’d
have
been
okay
He
said
Had you
not been
so fucking
cutting
(Originally Posted 30.10.2020)
I was just trying
He said
To force your hand
I never wanted to leave
I didn’t want to lose face
She said
Or wear my heart
On my sleeve
We just wish
They said
You’d told us the truth
Instead of making us believe
That you wanted to be with us
They said
When all that time
We were being decieved
Concequences
You said
you wanted
to leave
And I
didn’t ask
you to stay
So now
we lie to
someone else
And that’s
the price
we pay
(Originally Posted 23.08.2019)
She never did see it
And now you’re apart
You have been left
With wounds that smart
If only you’d listened
To my remark
You could’ve saved yourself
The broken heart
You Deserve More
I wish you
could see
yourself with a
different view
And know
there are so
many things to
love about you
My only hope
is that she
will see it
again soon too
Then perhaps
you could both
just stop
making do
(Originally Posted 17.09.2019)
If I ever get round
To publishing that book
This will be the inscription
Not only does it sound
Like a pretty good hook
It’s also an accurate description
Last Year
It wasn’t
just the
end of us
It was
the end of
everything
Xxx
(Originally Posted 29.08.2019)
You don’t know how I feel
You don’t have a fucking clue
And if you think
We’re in the pink
Then I’ve got news for you
So who’s fault is it then
Yours or mine
Who was it that took this
Over the line?
Was it me
With my brutality
And supposed lack of rationality?
Or was it you
And your crew
With fuck all else with your time to do?
Either way it doesn’t matter
As the line has now been crossed
It’s just a shame that we’ll never know
Which one of us won or lost
I wish
I could
Take it back
All this time
That’s gone
To waste
Now
You’ll never know
Who I am
Because of
A choice
Made in haste
You were hurt
And so was I
Not that it’s a competition
But if it was
Then rest assured
You could never beat my position
Who’d have thought
That we’d come to
Both half dead
And needing the loo
Perhaps we should
Have thought this through
Instead of getting drunk
And doing the do
That was the difference
Between me and you
I was willing to forgive
But you just turned the screw
I considered everyone
While you only cared for yourself
That’s why I’ve got everyone
And you have nothing left
Who am I
To pass judgement
On whatever it is
You’ve done
As I can’t help but think
In the same situation
I might also
Have loaded that gun
You’d never burn in hell
Would you?
You’re far too cool for that
Shame, really
As it’s all you deserve
For being such a twat
I will no longer apologise
To you or anyone else
For the only person
I now need to please
Is my own fucking self
So I’ve heard you’re starting to feel
Like you’re reaping what you have sown
Well all I can say is poor, poor you
I hope your pain has overflown
As I, for one, cannot express
Just how happy I am to know
That perhaps now you’re beginning to comprehend
What it feels like to be alone
It broke your heart
But soothed my soul
So one day I know
I’ll pay the toll
Bitter
and
twistedYes,
that’s
meBut
live
my
lifeFor a
minute
or twoAnd so
would
you
fucking
be
I
can’t
believe
you’ve
done
this
And
how
much
you’ve
hurt us
all
So
you
alone
must
face
the
consequences
Now
your
back’s
against
the
wall
We
really
shouldn’t
do thisShe
saidIf it’s
something
you’ll
regretI won’t
know
until
we’re
doneHe
saidAnd I
haven’t
started
yet
It would have been quite easy
Had you wanted to commit
To just imagine for a second
What it’s like to go through it
But in the end you chose not to
Which leads me to be blunt
Because of the things you did not do
You really are a cunt
Don’t
expect
me to
feel
sorry
for you
Now
that
you’re
on
your
own
You’ve
bought
this
misery
upon
yourself
These
these
seeds
you
yourself
have
sown
Don’t bother
to call meAs I’ll just watch
the phone ringI will not
answer to youAnd I’ll never
tell you anything
I’m
not
sure
I can
give
any
more
I think
I’ll
have
to stop
There
is
nothing
left
Now
I’m
bereft
But to
wait
for the
other
shoe
to drop
You said
you wanted
to leave
And I
didn’t beg
you to stay
Now we
both lie to
someone else
And that’s
the price
we pay
Eat until you’re sick
Snap until you bruise
Run until you’re limp
Drink shit loads of booze
Spend until you’re skint
Sleep until you’re sore
Cry until you’re empty
Sleep around like a whore
Shout until you’re hoarse
Cut until you bleed
Work until you drop
Smoke a shedload of weed
Lie until you’re spent
Smile until you’re alone
Write until you’re wrung
Forget all you’ve ever known