Tag: death

Hearing Things

I spoke

To you

This morning

And I swear

I heard you

Respond

But then

It hit me

There’s no way

It could be

When you’ve

Been gone

So long

Xxx

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Canto 38

You may say

It’s better

To have loved

And lost

Than never to

Have loved

At all

But if what happened 

To me

Happened

To you

You wouldn’t have

The fucking gall

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With The Fishes

Grief

Is like

An ocean

All vast,

And dark,

And deep

It ebbs

And flows

In waves

Through

Dark nights

And days

Never truly

Going

To sleep

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Everything After

Life does go on,

You know

But you’re never

Really

The same

You just

Get good

At doing what

You should

So you can keep on

Playing

The game

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After The Funeral

Walking home

In the rain

Knowing I’ll never

See you again

My heart hangs heavy

My eyes shut tight

Knowing there’s no way

That I’ll last the night

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Forever Changed

The day

They die

Isn’t the worst

It’s every day

That follows

With nothing left

You exist, bereft

As your heart

Hangs empty

And hollow

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At The Winter Gardens

Let us stop

Take a pew

There’s something

I need

To say to you

I have to ask

Now that he’s dead

Do you think

You could ever

Love me instead?

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Living In Sin

Do you ever wonder

He said

What will happen at the end?

Blessed relief, I hope

She said

That’s if we’re not condemned

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Happiness, Impeded

I thought

I would

Be better

If I could just

Forget

About you

But it’s proving

Too hard

With a heart

This scarred

To move on

With anyone new

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Thanks For Nothing

I can’t believe

You’ve left me

Alone, and

In this position

I never agreed

To this bullshit

Nor did I give you

Permission

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Limitations

I’m sorry

I couldn’t comfort you

When that text

Came in

I saw

How you were struggling

To keep it

All within

But I have been there,

You see

And I can’t

Go back again

That’s why I couldn’t

Be the one

To help you

With your pain

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Why I Walked Away

They just assumed

I was better

Because they

Had all forgotten

So I’d just pretend

For months on end

As we had

Fuck all left

In common

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Lost Voices

I’ve forgotten

What you sound like

Now

And it cuts me

Like a knife

I’m not sure if

I can cope

With such a silence

In my life

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Had We Known

The more

I think

About it now

The more

It’s clear

To me

That we were

Always

Meant to meet

But just never

Destined

To be

Xxx

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Underneath It All

And when

I decide

To end it

Know there was nothing

You could’ve done

I just never, ever

Felt happy

I didn’t know how

To have fun

“Burn my body. Let the ashes blow. I am free.”

– Tommy Shelby

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Dark, Even For Me

It is

No longer

Up to me

It’s so

Far out

Of my hands

Now

I only hope

For a sturdy rope

And that,

One day,

You’ll understand

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“Into My Arms”

Your wandering soul

All alone

With your bones of ash

And heart of stone

If only you could find

Your way back home

I’d hold you tight

And never let you go

Xxx

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“Coping By Not Having To Cope”

When he died

And you’d nothing left

How did you deal

With the emptiness?

I filled it up

With pills and gin

In the vainest of hopes

I could forget him

And did you find

That it worked

They helped wash away

The pain and hurt

Some days did feel

Like less of a chore

But, in the end, the grief

Got too big to ignore

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Moving

I remember the day

We got the keys

Thinking the rest

Would be a breeze

But now I sit and rot

All alone

In what should have been

Our forever home

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The Gradual Loss

It seems

The inevitable

Has happened

And I have finally

Gone mad

As I’m starting

To forget

The good things

Instead

Of just the bad

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Just A Glimpse

When I saw him

Again today

All of that pain

Was washed away

Until I realised

It wasn’t him

And my heart, once more,

Cracked

From within

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Dragging It Out

Another hour

Another day

Wishing I didn’t

Feel this way

Another second

Another minute

Life sure is shit

Without you in it

Xxx

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Without A Fuss

Don’t you want to get better?

No, she politely replied

I think folks would be happier

If I just quietly died

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