The rain
May well
Have passed
She said
But sadly
So has
My prime
Failure
I pride myself on my planning
I write lists day after day
I schedule my time wisely
So that nothing gets in the way
I prepare for every eventuality
Without a pause for breath
But the one thing I didn’t account for
Was your untimely death
Xxx
The Thief Of My Heart
I may have
A long life left
But what use is it
Without any light
For all of my fire
Has been douted
Ever since
That awful night
Tumbleweeds
How long is normal
To feel empty inside
Because I still do
Ever since he died
Aide Mémoire
My body is numb
Yet my thoughts contrive
To remind me that
I am still alive
‘You Think You Know A Story…’
I remember watching this
For the first time
Just me and you
With pizza and wine
Now I’m watching again
Hungry and alone
Nothing is the same
Here, on my own
Xxx
Headfuckery
I dreamt
About you
This afternoon
For only
The second time
Then
As I woke up
The silence sent
It’s shivers
Down my spine
Xxx
Mirage
We meet again
And my heart soars
But only in my dreams
Then my heart breaks
All over again
To find all is not as it seems
Funeral Arrangements
I took care of everything
But no one took care of me
Did it even occur to you
All that I had been through
And what was then my reality
Forever Faltering
It’s all too easy
To slip into
This ‘everything is ok’ soundtrack
But you and I both know
It’s all just pretend
Because you’re never coming back
Xxx
Twice Shy
Do you think you can trust again
He said
Perhaps offer a little reprieve?
There really is no point
She said
As people always leave
For L.
I miss you today
More than ever
Sitting outside in
This stunning weather
If only we could meet again
Even after all this time
As we’d still have
Such a fucking laugh
And drain a bottle (or two) of wine
‘It’s Looking Like A Limb Torn Off’
They smile and ask if I’m OK
So I lie and the emptiness downplay
For they have forgotten about the man
With no notion of the fact I never can
‘Sputtering Out’
Life is hard
But so am I
That is why
Despite my efforts
I am yet to die
April The 1st
I woke up alone again today
Going over the words we spoke
Another day without you here
Really is a fucking joke
Xxx
One Way Conversations
I already miss you
She said
And you haven’t even left
Xxx
Memorial Memories
It’s been two years since you left me
Sitting all alone in that church
Cold, confused and crying
So painfully in the lurch
But it’s not really his death you know,
That has been the most pernicious
It’s how the rest of you have chosen to be
So incredibly fucking malicious
Grave Stones
You were just pissed off
That he never wanted a place
You never really understood
What he was trying to embrace
That’s why you weren’t involved
And the reason we no longer speak
I’m just glad he wasn’t around
To see the damage you would wreak
Random #60
I wake up one morning
and I’ll look at the wind
and I’ll see a song and music
Though I’ll feel nothing
and hear no tune
I’ll look behind me
and see poetry
– Anon
Cut To Pieces
You were the light
To my shade
The sunshine
To my rain
That is why
I can’t forgive you
For causing me
All this pain
Fuck You Death
Fuck you death
She said
You really don’t scare me
That’s what you all say
He said
But through your lies I see
