After all
The effort
I put in
You’d think
I’d learn
To enjoy it
But I know
Before long
I’ll start
To feel wronged
And then
I’ll just fucking
Destroy it
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
After all
The effort
I put in
You’d think
I’d learn
To enjoy it
But I know
Before long
I’ll start
To feel wronged
And then
I’ll just fucking
Destroy it
I need time
To think it through
She said
It’s not that cut
And dried
Well you need
To hurry up
He said
As time’s not on
Our side
I am honestly
Not interested
In whatever
You’ve got to say
It’s not like
It’ll make a difference
To how I feel
Anyway
For I have
Already decided
This relationship
Has died a death
So you may as well
Just leave me alone
And save
Your fucking breath
If you just expect
That I’ll acquiesce
Then there’s no way this
Will ever progress
It’s funny how things turn out
She said
As she tugged on her costume straps
When I was here
Last year
She said
My mind had all but collapsed
I knew after I’d entered the water
She said
That there would be no doubt
As I had decided
Feeling like I did
Death was the only way out
But these last few months I have learned
She said
Through medication and therapy
Having survived that blip
A communal dip
Is now more than enough for me
It won’t be
The fault
Of destiny
Or a hand
Fate fails
To deal
I’ll leave
Unperturbed
And without
A word
Because that’s
How I’ll fucking feel
It all happened
In a flash
And now
I know
There’s no
Going back
We don’t have
To decide tonight
We can talk
Again tomorrow
Let’s not allow
The dying light
To lead us both
Back into sorrow
I kept true to my promise
Just like I said I would
Now let’s both be honest
You fucking hate spinsterhood
Once And For All
Tell me you don’t want me
And I’ll walk away if I must
But just make sure
Your heart can endure
As you won’t see me again
For dust
(Originally Posted 15.01.2021)
With a mindset shifted
And a choice insisted
An opportunity gifted
And a weight now lifted
Epitaph
Do you
ever wish
you could
just give
up?
Say
right,
that’s it,
I’ve had
enough!
I’m
done
with
all this
fucking
shit
I’m
finally
going
through
with it!
Well
I think
these
things
every
day
Those
words
to easy
for me
to say
And
so, it
seems,
my
demons
have won
For
I can
say now
I am
officially
done
(Originally Posted 13.12.2019)
They were all hoping
The blues would fade
But they were unaware
My decision was made
Rope
I know
I can’t
do this
anymore
My soul
is heavy
and my
heart
is sore
I feel
the relief
in every
pore
As I walk
along
to the
hardware
store
(Originally Posted 06.12.2019)
I don’t know how it’s happened
And I can’t even tell you why
But, it seems, I’ve grown old
In love with the wrong fucking guy
Set In Stone
Neither of
us knows
If the life
we chose
Will work out
for the best
(Originally Posted 05.11.2019)
If only I
Had seen more sense
And not fallen foul
Of my incompetence
Perhaps our relationship now
Wouldn’t be past tense
And I wouldn’t still feel
These splinters from the fence
Just Passing By
It was you
That was
The one
For me
But a future
Between us
I just
Couldn’t see
I suppose
That now
None of that
Matters
For you’ve
Moved on
While I’m left
In tatters
(Originally Posted 13.10.2020)
You were
Never destined
To be
Mrs Right
But as
Mrs Right Now
You were fun
So it’s good
That we dropped it
And eventually
Just stopped it
As no real harm
Was done
In Another Life, Perhaps
What
happened
the other
night
She
said
Must
never
happen
again
It
pains me
so much
to say it
He
said
But
we are
better off
as friends
(Originally Posted 03.09.2020)
I’ve always been indecisive
But now it’s worse than ever
The back and forth is so divisive
I’m about as reliable as the weather
Confusion
No!
No!
No!
Yes!
Yes!
Yes!
How am
I supposed
to decide
what to do
When my
head’s
in such
a mess?
(Originally Posted 22.08.2019)
The best thing that I ever did
Was my own fear to subdue
It may have took me a while
But nothing beats the smile
I now wear in spite of you
Soon
Life
has
been
so much
better
without
all your
bullshit
in it
Now
I know
for sure
that
I’ll soon
be removing
you
from
it
(Originally Posted 18.08.2019)
I asked for you
To give me time
And space to clear my head
But as you’ve shown
You can’t leave me alone
Let’s just call it quits instead
Over
Time may heal
Hearts can mend
Until then accept
This is the end
(Originally Posted 06.08.2019)
It was always a promise
And never a threat
I just haven’t decided
How I’ll do it, yet
Crying Wolf
Remember when I told you
I wished that I was dead
And you thought it was all
Just nonsense in my head
Well maybe now you’ll realise
You will finally get to see
The worst thing that you ever did
Was not to believe me
(Originally Posted 23.07.2021)
I spent years people pleasing
And it wrecked my mental health
So now I don’t please anyone
Except my fucking self
I’ve Heard It All Before
Just because
What doesn’t kill me
Apparently
Makes me stronger
Doesn’t give you
An excuse
To hurt me
Any longer
(Originally Posted 17.06.2021)
I never did tell him the truth
Of where I went that day
But even though I did it
I’m glad I hid it
As I could never hurt him that way
Deceit
Lying to
myself
is bad
enough
But
lying
to you
hurts
more
But
there’s
no way
I could
be truthful
That’s
for
fucking
sure
(Originally Posted 29.05.2020)
You must decide
Who you want to let go
And who it is you want to retain
For there is no way
I can spend another day
Going over all this again
Right Person / Wrong Time
I do
appreciate
what
we
had
But
lament
what
could
have
been
You
and
me
together
forever
With
nobody
inbetween
(Originally Posted 09.04.2020)
You may have saved me on occasion
But you have betrayed me too
So don’t make out you’re innocent
From what you’ve made me do
If no one saw
But us two
Then who is to say
It happened
If we promise
Never to tell
Then no one else
Need be saddened
I’m sorry you think I’ve missed you
As I haven’t given one fuck
If you thought you mattered
And my life is shattered
Well then you’re shit out of luck
If you continue to push this
She said
And I am forced to choose
You really should be prepared
She said
For the fact I won’t pick you
What would you do
If it was you
Would you risk it
Even though
You could lose
—
I have no idea
What I’d do here
So thank fuck
I don’t
Have to choose
If I knew then
What I know now
I wouldn’t have let you stay
I’d have made sure
You saw the worst of me
And done my best
To push you away
I will not
Say yes now
Just like I didn’t
Then
I’ve always known
It wasn’t
For me
Even
Way back when
Listening to these old songs
How I wish I could go back
Maybe I’d make different choices
And life wouldn’t be so black
Did I really
Dodge that bullet
Or just hide
Behind you instead
I guess now
We’ll never know
As I’m alive
And you’re dead
I’m sorry I didn’t listen
He said
But I thought I knew it all
Now I’ll watch from the sidelines
She said
And cheer on your downfall
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