It’s the
first
thought
I have
When
I
wake
A
desire
so
dark
My heart
starts
to
shake
As the
hour of my
certain
end draws
near
Will today
be the
day I
release
my fear?
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
It’s the
first
thought
I have
When
I
wake
A
desire
so
dark
My heart
starts
to
shake
As the
hour of my
certain
end draws
near
Will today
be the
day I
release
my fear?
I only hope
that one dayYou might look
at me that wayThat you will
give us our chanceTo get caught up
in a fine romance
You’ll
never
be the
one for
me,
So why
can’t I
just
leave
it alone?
Why do
I keep
getting
my hopes
up,
When
you’ve
made your
feelings
known?
You
say
that
look
in my
eye
Sends
shivers
down
your
spine
I hope
one day
when
you
look
at me
That
you’ll
send
shivers
down
mine
I would
follow
you all
the way
there and
backTo where
the air
turns blue
and the
sky turns
blackI would
follow you
all the
way there
and back
againIf we
could be
together,
forever,
without all
this pain
I still
love you,
he said,
underneath
it allBut it’s
just not
enough,
she said,
I want more
When you push
And I pull
My head is silent
But my heart is full
At one time
perhaps
I would have
said yesBut the
desire now
I no longer
possessShould you
ever try
your love
to professTo this
emptiness
inside I
would confess
Do you
ever think
of meIn those
moments
you have spareDo you
ever
dreamOf running
your fingers
through my hairDo you ever
imagine how
it would feelIf you
held your
hand in mineDo you ever
long to look
into my eyesAnd feel
our souls
entwine
Shower me
with your kisses
And I’ll
leave my
troubles behind
Show me what
my heart misses
And I’ll
be sure to
respond in kind
Good men
do bad things
And good
women do too
If I was ever that way
inclined again
I’d do bad things
with you
I’ll be here
to catch you
when you fallAnd I’ll be here
to push you
back down tooTrapped in
our own
vicious cycleStuck together,
forever,
like glue
Even though
my heart
currently
resides
in the
deep freeze
Your smile
still has
the power
to make
me go weak
at the knees
When you died,
My world stopped turning.
When you took your last breath,
My life became meaningless.
As the ongoing battle towards my own death continues,
I’m numb to everything and everyone.
I trudge along…
Feigning my interest,
Forging my desire,
Faking my love.