I
wanted
to help
you
He
said
I
really
wanted
to try
Then you
should
have left
me alone
She
said
You
should
have just
let me die
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
I
wanted
to help
you
He
said
I
really
wanted
to try
Then you
should
have left
me alone
She
said
You
should
have just
let me die
However
will I
make it
throughAnother
year
without
you?
Well,
that’s
another
year
nearly
over
And
what
have
I
done?
Nothing
but
prepare
for
another
year
of
misery
Just
like
the
last
one
Would I
have made
a different
choice
If I had
never
heard
your
voice?
Would I
live in a
different
place
If I had
never
seen
your
face?
Would your
death have
hurt me
this much
If I had
never
felt
your
touch?
I wish
I could
take your
pain awayTell
you that
everything
will be okayBut
I know
the truthThey
don’t
get
betterAnd
then
what
you had
is lostForever
I really wish
that I could do more
Like pick you up
from the bathroom floor
Hug you when
your heart is breaking
And give you comfort
when your bones are aching
But for as much as
your pain to me is known
This is a journey
you must walk alone
I remember when we stayed in bed all day
And just ate crisps and cheese
I remember when I surprised you with gifts
And you couldn’t have been more pleased
I remember when you chatted with my Gran
And you were welcomed by my crazy clan
I remember receiving your last present
Sent to me all the way from heaven
I miss you so much today
That you’re not here is a shame
As Christmas Day without you
Will never be the same
Xxx
I hope
you have
a nice dayPlease enjoy
it while
you canFor soon
you’ll lose
everythingIn a way you
could never
understand
In
some
ways
losing
myself
has
been
harder
than
losing
you
It’s finally time
To shuffle off
For of this life
I’ve had enough
People play
those songsWith no notion
of this painNo idea that
when I hear themMy heart bleeds
for you again
Crossing
the road
slowlyEver hopeful
of getting
run overLeaving
the oven
door openEver hopeful
of inhaling
the gasDrinking
spirits
every dayEver hopeful
of pickling
the liverEating
salted chips
all nightEver hopeful
of a heart
bypass
You still
rescue
me in so
many ways
Even
from
beyond
the grave
Mired in madness
Subsumed in sadness
Buried here forever
Lost to blackness
Time
eventually
takes it toll
On our
bodies and
our minds
Should we
take that
daily stroll
Or just
sit on our
behinds?
What is broken
Cannot be replaced
For our footsteps
Can never be retraced
I
loved
you
And
you
loved
me
Now
my
penance
Is to
never
be
free
To
love
again
No one
ever
loved me
like youAnd now
I’ve lost
it allSo with
no one
left to
turn toTowards
the hole
I crawl
It feels
like I’ve
been robbedOf the
only love
in my lifeThis pain
runs deep,
she sobbed,As it cuts
through me
like a knife
It was
all just
so fucking
unfairYou were
taken from
me without
a careWith what
seemed like
no time at
all to prepareWe had no
choice but
our souls
to bareXxx
I’m glad I came here today,
There’s nowhere else I’d want to be.
I’m glad we travelled all this way,
Just you and me.
Xxx
I
was so
devastated
for you
that dayAs
you had
travelled
all that
wayHoping
to say
your
final
goodbyeBut your
time
together
was so
cruelly
deniedXxx
I
remember
like
it
was
yesterdayAll
the
doctors
had
walked
awayAnd
it was
just
me
and
youHolding
hands
in
that
hospital
roomXxx
There’s nothing
else to doThere’s nothing
else to sayFor my love was
lost to me foreverOne year
ago todayXxx
Fuck
this
shit
She
said
I’m
going
home
I’ll
walk
you
He
said
You
can’t
go alone
I
don’t
need
you
She
said
Why
don’t you
just drop
dead
You’ll be
sorry you
wished for
that
He
said
When
you’re
alone in
our bed
I’m sure
your star
shines
brightly,Up
there
in the
sky.I
search
for it
nightly,But it
always
passes
me by.
I can no
longer
look at
at your
faceMy
eyes I
have to
sheatheFor
tears
begin
to flow
at paceAnd I
can no
longer
breathe
As that
day draws
ever closerThe pain
cannot be
avoidedTo think
it was just
a year agoWhen my
whole world
imploded
I reckon
I could
manage
todayIf I
could
see
your
face
againI reckon
I could
find
a wayIf I
could
hear
your
voice
againI reckon
I could
try to
be okayIf I
could
hold
your
hand
againI reckon
I could
probably
stayIf I
could
kiss
your
lips
again
They say
you can
never go
home
againAnd I’m
starting
to believe
that’s
trueFor all
that resides
here now
is a world
of painAnd
far too
many
memories
of you
You
pulled
me into
your
orbit
And
then you
promptly
jumped ship
I will
never
forgive
you for
that
You
fucking
piece
of shit
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