There are some nights
That never stop
Even when you look
That silent clock
Just seems
To stay the same
Time appears
To have stopped
And although you lie
There and watch
You know that everything
Has changed
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
There are some nights
That never stop
Even when you look
That silent clock
Just seems
To stay the same
Time appears
To have stopped
And although you lie
There and watch
You know that everything
Has changed
It left you so exhausted
Wrestling to decide
Now you know
What it’s like
Living inside my mind
It’s four twenty five in the afternoon and I’m still lying in bed.
Trying, in vain, to sleep away the thoughts inside my head.
Perhaps I should get up and go out for a bracing walk instead.
It has to be better than staying in here and wishing I was dead.
(Originally Posted 22.06.2019)
I am so tired
I want to go home
To sit in the quiet
All on my own
For I’ve had enough
Of this battle of wills
I just need some silence
To cure my ills
Seriously
now
I need
some sleep
For if
I don’t
A lid on it
I won’t keep
I can’t
be arsed
with any
more todayI’m just
going
to go
to bedAt least
that way I
might get
some respiteFrom the
voices
inside
my head
Thankfully,
tiredness
descends.
As upon
sleep,
sanity
depends.
Why do
I bother
coming
to bed
It’s not
like I
can
sleep
All I
do is
fucking
lie here
Overthinking
and
counting
sheep
You have no idea,
How much your sideways glance,
Hauls my weary heart,
Through yet another,
Lonely day…