Getting By

I know you put

A brave face on

I know as I did it

Myself

Not just because

You’re thinking of others

But more to protect

Yourself

Are You Okay?

I want to ask

But I’m far too scared

For I already know

As into those depths

I’ve stared

(Originally Posted 02.01.2020)

02/01/2023 4

Looking On

Of course I remember

How it feels

Down to the very last letter

But it wouldn’t matter

What I tried

Nothing can make it better

Utterly Helpless

I really wish
I could do more

Like pick you up
from the bathroom floor

Hug you when
your heart is breaking

Give you comfort
when your bones are aching

But for as much as
your pain to me is known

This is a journey
you must walk alone

(Originally Posted 27.12.2019)

27/12/2022 10

Random #266

‘When you’re used
Bruised
Black and blued
Don’t think about it
Never doubt it

I’ll walk beside you…’

23/12/2022 4

Random #265

“We are all born mad. Some remain so.”

– Samuel Beckett

23/12/2022 0

What A Difference Three Months Makes

Run around

Jump up and down

That arrogant prick

Has just left town

As it turns out

He was a brutish lout

Intent on flinging my heart about

Next time I’ll know

Not to lower my wall

And for romantic bullshit

I will not fall

Quickstep

Run around

Jump up and down

There’s a new love in town!

He’s really neat

And ever so sweet

This black heart skips a beat

I think that now

I’m ready for more

As I wait for him to whisk me

Across the dancefloor

(Originally Posted 21.12.2020)

21/12/2022 0

Perfunctory

Sometimes I wonder

If I made it out alive

Or if I’m actually still dead

I mean I know

I put on a good show

But I’d rather just feel it instead

But Still Alive

Mired in madness

Subsumed in sadness

Buried here forever

Lost in blackness

(Originally Posted 12.12.2019)

12/12/2022 0

Only The Half Of It

Reading this one back again

I feel so sorry for her

Clearly she lost more,

When he died,

Than her words could ever infer

I Can’t Bring You Back Though, Can I?

I can look at your photo

I can whisper your name

I can press your shirt

Against my face

But nothing feels the same

(Originally Posted 11.12.2020)

11/12/2022 0

Random #262

“You’ll never watch your life slide out of view…”

09/12/2022 2

Random #261

“Someone once asked me: ‘why do you love music so much?’ I replied: ‘because it’s the only thing that stays when everything and everyone is gone.'”

– Kid Cudi

09/12/2022 9

One In Four

I think we both knew

Deep down

That she would soon

Become another

That you’d be left

A husband bereft

And your kids

Without their mother

Now I know

That she had longer

And to her death

You had all faced up

Still it pains me so much

To see you

In the Under 50’s

Widow’s club

The News Nobody Wants

I hope
it all
goes well
today

I hope
with
all my
heart

For I
couldn’t
bear
for you

To live
as I
now do

And
have
your lives
torn apart

(Originally Posted 28.11.2019)

28/11/2022 1

Random #259

“Think of your feelings as friends to be understood, not enemies to be fought.”

– Alan D Wolfelt

25/11/2022 0

I’ll Be Okay

A tale of love

Unrequited,

Ever so sad

Yet I’m secretly

Delighted

To have experienced it.

Otherwise,

How would I have known?

‘You Can’t Always Get What You Want’

It’s not you

It’s not me

It’s just the way

It has to be

(Originally Posted 21.11.2020)

21/11/2022 6

Monogamy

After all is said and done

With battles lost and wars won

I’m starting to think differently

And relationships now are not for me

Expired

If you no longer love each other

Then what’s the fucking point

Just staying together to destroy each other

Noses always out of joint

Why not just call it quits

As it’s clear neither of you tries

That has to be better than being miserable

Until one of the two of you dies

(Originally Posted 12.11.2021)

12/11/2022 2

Random #253

“What you really want is someone you can hang around with on a Sunday afternoon and watch a TV show with, and do nothing, and feel like it’s the most fun ever.”

– Aziz Ansari

04/11/2022 2

In Essence

If anyone asked

About my rhymes

I would most likely show them this

It’s an apt expression

Of my abject depression

And defines my blog’s premise

Innards

Like a
bird

Trapped
in it’s
cage

I sing
of love
and
lament

Bleeding
both

Introspective
rage

And
embittered
discontent

(Originally Posted 28.10.2020)

28/10/2022 10

Random #249

“People think that I’m sort of okay, you know, like I’m getting on with it. I’m snarky now and again and that this is the lapse – but it’s not. This is me all the time now.

Everything else is the fun, you know.

I’m not well, but I remember what it was like to be normal so I do an impression of that. But this is what I really am. And I want to be normal again. But I’m weak, you know.”

– Tony

21/10/2022 2

All Those Little Things

All those little things

That you think matter

Mean literally nothing

When your heart is shattered

Flowers

You never
once
bought
me flowers

Which used
to make
me mad

Now I don’t
give a fuck
about any
of that stuff

I just
want you
back

(Originally Posted 20.10.2019)

20/10/2022 0

When They All Go Home

If you’ve ever planned a funeral

Then I’m sure you’ll relate to this

It’s easy not to crack

When focused on the task

But when it’s done, you fall to shit

Keeping Busy

It’s been
a busy
few days

In
many
ways

But now all
my tasks are
completed

So with
nothing
left to do

I’ll soon
be thinking
of you

And how
I’ve been left
feeling cheated

(Originally Posted 17.10.2019)

17/10/2022 4

Random #248

‘So I’ve made my mind up
I must live my life alone
And though it’s not the easy way
I guess I’ve always known
I’d say goodbye to love…’

14/10/2022 0

Emergency Supplies

I would be lying

If, after he lay dying,

I said I returned all of his medication

That I didn’t at least keep some

To peruse and choose from

In any future difficult situation

Well, in fact, I did

And with how many I hid

I could have force fed the nation

So, dead behind the eyes,

Full of prescribed pills and otherwise

I fulfilled each and every obligation

Acceptance

I
asked
the
doctor

When
will the
tablets
work?

When do
they take
away my
hurt?

Nothing
will
do that,
she said

They
only
make it
so you
get out
of bed

I
asked
the
doctor

Are
you
sure?

Won’t
you do
something
more?

There’s
nothing
else I
can do,
she said

You just
have to
accept
that he
is dead

(Originally Posted 12.10.2019)

12/10/2022 2

I Wasn’t Built For This

I guess I am

A misanthrope

Born as I was

Devoid of hope

Destined across

The world to mope

Forever trying

To avoid the rope

Misanthropic Me

People
never
cease to
disgust
and
disappoint
me in
equal measure

Perhaps
that’s
why my
life is
full of
discomfort
and
displeasure

(Originally Posted 09.10.2019)

09/10/2022 2

Fuck Cancer

I will keep saying it

Until I am blue in the face

That I was effectively widowed

At thirty eight years old

Is an absolute fucking disgrace

Leaving

Now it’s
time
for me
leave

Please
don’t
make a
fuss

It’s not
the end
of the
world

It’s
just
the end
of us

(Originally Posted 08.10.2019)

08/10/2022 12

There’s No Other Way

What’s the point

In dressing it up

And trying to be all poetic

Telling the truth

However uncouth

Will forever be my aesthetic

Blunt

I
wish
you
were
here
with
me

But
instead
I’m
all
alone

If
only
you
would
write
a letter

Or
call
me on
the
phone

It
would be
wonderful
to FaceTime

Or
if
you
texted
me
instead

But
I know
you
won’t
do any
of these

You
can’t

Because
you’re
dead

(Originally Posted 08.10.2020)

08/10/2022 7

Out In The Open

There,
she said,
I’ve
told my
truth

There
isn’t
any
more

Well
I am
glad
you
stayed,
he said,

As
that
wasn’t
boring
at all

Telling Tales

Why don’t
you stay
here
a while,
he said,
and have
a cup
of tea

But
I don’t
understand,
she said,
why would
you want
to talk
to me?

You’ve
got a tale
to tell,
he said,
and I
would
like to
hear
more

Well
you’ll
be sad
to find,
she said,
that I’m
just a
crashing
bore

(Originally Posted 04.09.2019)

04/10/2022 4

Obsequious

I kow you’re out there

Selling your story

Accepting sympathy

Basking in glory

But remember I know

Those who dance to your tune

All know, deep down,

The truth about you

(Prick)ing At Your Conscience

Think
whatever
you
want
about
me

Speak
shit
to
whoever
will
listen

But
believe
me
when
I say

I
won’t
ever
rue
the
day

That
you
created
this
division

(Originally Posted 02.10.2020)

02/10/2022 4

The Second Time Around

The first time

It was fine

As I was young and naive

I didn’t know

Where it would go

So it was easy to just believe

But now I’m older

And my heart colder

I need to be assured

That you intend

To keep up your end

Before my commitment is secured

Going Down The Rabbit Hole

If you don’t mean what you say,

Perhaps we should both just walk away.

Now.

(Originally Posted 02.10.2020)

02/10/2022 2

Mistaking Kindness For Desire

I have never spoken

About that night

As to betray him

Would be be unfair

He only hit on me

Because he was ill, you see,

And his ability to judge

Impaired

Indiscretion

It was
what
it was

And
whilst
we
had
fun

Now
it is
what
it is

The
guilt
has
begun

(Originally Posted 01.10.2019)

01/10/2022 0

Random #244

‘You are my new inspiration…
My muse
And I mean that not as a compliment’

30/09/2022 2

Idolised

Some have beauty

Some have braun

Some have charm and flair

Some of them even

Have half a brain

But to you they never compare

First Sight

It
was
clear
to me

The
moment
we met

That
you’d
be the
one

I’d
least
regret

Xxx

(Originally Posted 30.09.2020)

30/09/2022 5

Waiting For Roadside Assistance

I’m not usually very good

With metaphors

But this one is pretty neat

Then I guess it would be

As it was conceived

While in the back seat of a Mini

Car Trouble

Nothing makes this better

Everything makes it worse

A body straining in first gear

But a mind stuck in reverse

(Originally Posted 28.09.2019)

28/09/2022 2

Picked Apart

The title says it all

She said

There’s nothing else to know

Sometimes there’s no big mystery