Some days
I feel ok
And how I present
Is true
But on other days
This deep malaise
Makes faking it
Too hard to do
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
Some days
I feel ok
And how I present
Is true
But on other days
This deep malaise
Makes faking it
Too hard to do
Please don’t think,
Darling boy,
That you’re special
In any way
As you were not
The only one
Who saw to me
That day
Sinderella
Is that
really
the time,
he said,
I should
grab my
things
and leave
Well don’t
let me
keep you,
she said,
as I’ve
got others
to please
(Originally Posted 26.11.2019)
There’s nothing more to add to this
As there’s nothing more to say.
This may have been written,
Three years ago,
But it remains the truth today.
Two Sides
I lie
in your bed
and I lie
to your face.
I am a
public fraud
and a private
disgrace.
(Originally Posted 20.09.2019)
I hear you have moved on since then
And got yourself a job
I wonder when others
Will see your true colours
And agree you’re a fucking snob
Supercilious Bint
Carry on ‘studying’
For your Mickey Mouse degree
But just know whatever happens
You’ll never be better than me
(Originally Posted 26.06.2020)
Maybe it wasn’t a prison
But it certainly felt like it
I’d do anything not to go back there
Even if that means faking it
Climbing The Walls
Let
me
out
She
said
You
cannot
keep me
here
I
think
you’ll
find we
can
He
said
The
law is
very
clear
(Originally Posted 21.05.2020)
I’ve been trying so hard
To be honest with you
To believe what I say
And mean what I do
But as I have struggled
This I know to be true
I must always and forever
Fake it with you
For You
I’ll smile today, for you.
But I won’t mean it.
I’ll laugh today, for you.
But I won’t feel it.
I’ll fake it every day, for you.
But you’ll never know it.
(Originally Posted 16.04.2019)
One minute I’m up
But then the next I’m down
It’s really hard
To fake this smile
When it’s easier to frown
You will never beat me,
So please don’t even try.
I could choose to hurt you,
To really make you cry.
But I’m the better person,
Of that I have no doubt.
So just carry on with your bullshit,
Because you’ll never drive me out.
(Originally Posted 02.06.2019)
I could
put on
a smile
Or put
on a
dress
But why
should I
bother?
Who is
there to
impress?
Can I be arsed with this?
No.
Do I still have to go?
Yes.
Fuck.
I’ll smile today, for you.
But I won’t mean it.
I’ll laugh today, for you.
But I won’t feel it.
I’ll fake it every day, for you.
But you’ll never know it.