Thoughts
run
through
my head
at pace
As I
question
the futility
of the
human race
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
Thoughts
run
through
my head
at pace
As I
question
the futility
of the
human race
For a moment
there I was
feeling goodLiving my
life the way
I shouldAnd then you
wander back
into my mindAnd all sense
of peace is
left behind
It’s the
first
thought
I have
When
I
wake
A
desire
so
dark
My heart
starts
to
shake
As the
hour of my
certain
end draws
near
Will today
be the
day I
release
my fear?
Ups and downs,
Peaks and troughs,
But the darkness?
That never stops…
It’s the time
between
waking up
and going
to sleep
that I’ve
always
found
the most
troublesome
I let
myself
down
today
When I
let you
inside
my head
I wish I
could
just let
you go
And let
myself
enjoy life
instead
What’s the
point in
going to bed
With all
this shit
inside my head
It’s not
like I’ll be
allowed to rest
With this
sickness deep
inside my chest
Waking up to find that,
once again,
I’ve lost my mind
at some point
during the night…
I already
know I’m
a piece
of shit
I don’t
need you
to remind
me of it
I already
know I’m
a bitter
old crone
I don’t need
you pointing
out that I’ll
forever be alone
I already
know my
cuts are
too deep
I don’t
need you
to watch
them weep
I already
know that
I’m dead
inside
I don’t need
you telling me
there’s nowhere
left to hide
It’s four twenty five in the afternoon and I’m still lying in bed.
Trying, in vain, to sleep away the thoughts inside my head.
Perhaps I should get up and go out for a bracing walk instead.
It has to be better than staying in here and wishing I was dead.
They are always there,
Gnawing away at my brain.One day I will kill them,
And I shall smile again.
It’s heartfelt
praise, but
I know
your ways.How uncomfortable
you are
to see,
just how
miserable I
can be.I’m sorry
I no
longer make
you smile.For that
you’ll need
to wait
a while.Until then,
just keep
telling me
I’ll make
it through.And I’ll
keep on
whispering
fuck you.
It's a long way to the bottom
from all the way up here.
As I stand and shiver
I can't help but think...
What happens if I change my mind
halfway down?
Notice Me!
Notice Me!
(Please, don’t look at me)
Notice Me!
Notice Me!
(Please, don’t look at me)
Notice Me!
Notice Me!
(Please, don’t look at me)
That roof is calling my name.
I know it is. I can hear it.
Every day its voice gets louder and louder.
Every day I’m drawn closer and closer.
I went up there tonight.
Just to the edge. Just to look.
I held on to the safety rail.
I cannot promise that tomorrow,
I won’t let go.