Tag: jealousy

The Thief Of Joy

I wonder

Where

You are

Tonight

And if

You ever

Think of me

Or do you

Just

Lay there

Her hands in

Your hair

As you sigh

Contentedly

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Still Bitter

I hope that you

Are happy now

And you go to sleep

With a smile

But for me to hope

That she doesn’t choke

Is going to take

A while

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Used To It

It’s not me you want

It’s her, over there

With the sparkly eyes

And the perfect hair

But I’ll play along

And my feelings, ignore

After all I’ve done it

Plenty times before

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The Local Lothario

I couldn’t get a photo

She said

But I promise you, it’s true

She was there legs akimbo

Lips stuck to his like glue

I cannot quite believe it

She said

He just doesn’t seem the type

But now that you have seen it

Does it live up to the hype?

Let me put it this way

She said

From the look upon her face

I think it would be safe to say

He doesn’t get many complaints!

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Sleeping On Trains

From the corner

Of my eye

I see you

Sitting there

Her head resting

On your thigh

Your fingers

Stroking her hair

I remember those days

My head touching his

When my heart

Would do nothing but flip

Yet all I feel now

Seeing such bliss

Is the overwhelming urge

To be sick

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Raising A Glass

At your wedding toast

Yesterday

I did not cry one bit

Even when I glanced

Upon your first dance

I held it in

With an iron like grit

For what I wouldn’t do

Is ever tell you

How seeing you so happy

Did hurt

And that, at times,

If just in my mind

I did wish your happy day cursed

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Flawed

You all make it look easy

So I thought I’d give it a go

But what you get on a plate

I can’t replicate

So at least now, I know

Undeserving

I’ll
never
fall
in love
again

Not
that
I ever
wanted
to be

Love is
for those
with
delicate
souls

And
not
for the
likes
of me

(Originally Posted 17.10.2019)

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After The Party

As empty bottles clink

Into paper bags

My heart start to sink

And motivation flags

I was happy you came over

That much is true

Yet I can’t help but wish

She hadn’t left with you

More Or Less

I
guess
I am
happy

More
or
less

Even
though
I’m the
one

Left
cleaning
up the
mess

(Originally Posted 30.05.2020)

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Through Green Eyes

You have it all

In comparison to me

This has always been true

It’s why I’ll never be

Anything more

Than infinitely jealous of you

Lucky You

My head hurts,
Does yours?

My heart cries,
Does yours?

My body aches,
Does yours?

My soul dies,
Does yours?

How can it?

Your head
is as pretty
as a picture.

Your heart
is full
to bursting.

Your body
is as perfect
as a model,

And your soul
flies like an eagle
soaring high above
the rocky plains.

Lucky you.

(Originally Posted 26.04.2019)

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Access Denied

What I have

Is not for you

It is mine and mine alone

If you want

What I have got

Fuck off and find your own

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Mediocre

If only she was better

Then she’d be worthy of your hand

But as it is

It’s a basic bitch

Who will wear your wedding band

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Silent Communication

I know that you can see me

And what I’m trying to do

How I’m trying to make you jealous

To score more points than you

Yet I know it doesn’t matter

Just how much I boast

Or how many fun time photos

That I consistently post

As even from here it’s clear to see

You’re still far happier without me

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‘Jealous Guy’

Some
days
I am
acutely
aware

That
you
have
much
more
fun
than
me

I
suppose
it’s
not
that
hard
to
believe

Given
my
penchant
for
misery

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Condensation

As the
wind
rattles
the
window
pane

I
wonder
is it
cold
where
you are?

Or are
you
now
just
over
heating

In
somebody
else’s
car?

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Waxworks

You
can’t
hold a
candle
to him

She
said

You’ll
never
know
how
we felt

I wouldn’t
go near
him with
a naked
flame

He
said

For
fear
that he
would
melt

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Too Late

You
only
want
me
now

Because
he
says
he
does

Well
you
had
your
chance

But
you
rebuffed
my
advance

So go
jump
in front
of a
bus

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Savages

So now
you’re
leaving
me too

Now
you have
broken
my heart?

Well
fuck off
back to
her then

I’ll
soon
tear you
apart

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Overheard

All
you
do is
bitch
and
moan

And I
listen
with
a sigh

For
you can’t
see what’s
right in
front of
you

Life,
passing
you by

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Jealousy

I
see
you
there
happily
together

Holding
hands
tightly
whatever
the
weather

And my
heart
cannot
help
but
cry

For a
life
that
has now
passed
me by

Xxx

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If Only We’d Ended It Then…

I finally understand it.
I have realised the way things are.
I accept it.

I am not your woman.
You are not my man.
You are not mine to have.
I am not yours to hold.

We are friends.

This has always been clear.
You are unobtainable.
Out of my reach.

It's not that I don't care - 
I do.
It's not that I'm not jealous - I am.

But now I finally understand it.
Now I have realised the way things are.
Now I accept it.

And it's okay.
Really.

xxx
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