I wonder what you’ll all say,
When I finally go away.
I wonder what you’ll all think,
When off into the shadows I slink.
I wonder if you’ll all stop and stare,
When you finally realise I’m no longer there.
(Originally Posted 25.06.2019)
Going Too Far
Lying
here
in
this
strange
bed
Wondering
what
was
going on
inside
my head
Trying
to
ignore
this
feeling
of dread
Wishing
I had
chosen
to stay
at home
instead
Random #34
‘When you say it’s gonna happen now
Well when exactly do you mean?
See I’ve already waited too long
And all my hope is gone…’
‘Sleepy Time’
Lying here
Just us two
Isn’t the same
Without you
Xxx
In Sickness And In Health
How
the
fuck
can
it be
right
That
I have
to sleep
alone
tonight
I never
thought
that I
would be
On my
own at
thirty
three
Wistful Wednesdays
Another summer
Without my lover
For he was taken away
Another summer
Without my lover
For he wasn’t allowed to stay
Who Gives A Fuck? (Not Me)
What do I do
Now all hope is gone
And I am left here
On my own
Somehow still alive
But gasping for air
Unable to thrive
Yet unwilling to care
Air Quality
Time
drags
on
With
impending
doom
As I
search for
a way
Out
of the
gloom
(A) Void
I
would
smash
that
glass
And
reach
for
your
hand
If
only
I was
allowed
Yet
we
have
no
choice
But
to
press
against
it
Hearts
broken
and
heads
bowed
Ungrateful Bastards
You
have
no idea
How it
pisses
me off
To
hear you
bemoan
What
you’ve
got
When
there’s
some of us
With
no-one
to hold
With
nothing
to help
Keep
out the
cold
Until The End
As the
silence
growsEver
louderI sit
and
wonderIs this
it now?
Just Ask Me
Just
because
I like
my own
company
Don’t
assume
I don’t
want
any
For Whom The Bell Tolls
I’m not ashamed
to admit
I shed a tear or
two last night
As the clock
struck twelve
It was all
a bit shit
Sitting here
all night
And drinking
by myself
Keeping Busy
It’s been
a busy
few daysIn
many
waysBut now all
my tasks are
completedSo with
nothing
left to doI’ll soon
be thinking
of youAnd how
I’ve been left
feeling cheated
Home Alone
It’s Friday night
And I’m here alone
In this house
We used to call home
There’s nothing left now
Just an empty shell
With me here alone
Living through hell
Saturdays
Saturdays are made for staying in bed all day.
But it's so cold and lonely, in here, without you.
Space Invader
I know you are bored,
I know you are curious,
I know you are lonely,
but please,
just fuck off
and leave me alone,
eh?
Conflict
I laughed today.
Hard.
Tears ran down my face,
Dizziness overtook me as my muscles ached from the strain,
And I thought I’d never breathe deeply again.
I cried today.
Hard.
Tears ran down my face,
Dizziness overtook me as my muscles ached from the strain,
And I thought I’d never breathe deeply again.
As I soldier on,
as best I can,
the simultaneous existence
of conflicting emotions,
slowly kills me.
Out
The days march on,
But I trail behind.
Out of step,
Out of place,
Out of time.