It may be the season
To be jolly
But for this heathen
There is no such folly
"All my life's buried here, heap earth upon it"
It may be the season
To be jolly
But for this heathen
There is no such folly
Sometimes it is sadness
Sometimes it’s deep frustration
But mostly it’s just
That I still feel lost
In this whole fucking situation
Hold Me
Words
can
not
describe
the
hurt
As my
tears
fall
onto
your
shirt
Xxx
(Originally Posted 07.09.2020)
A true story
This one is
From thirty eight years ago
We were on holiday
At Butlin’s that year
When I decided to take a stroll
I let go of
My mother’s hand
And wandered in a different direction
Off in search
Of sweets no doubt
Or some other such confection
I have no idea
How long I was gone
But at the time it felt like an age
Until I was found
By a kindly policeman
Who ended my little rampage
Next thing I remember
Was in the community centre
Being reunited with my mum
First she hugged me
And then she shook me
For making her so glum
But I’ll always treasure
My little endeavour
As it did teach me one thing
My independence
Was something to treasure
So I found it again when I turned eighteen
Childhood Memories
I got lost on my
eighth birthday.
Sometimes
I wonder
what would’ve
happened,
If I had never
been found.
(Originally Posted 08.08.2019)
There was a time
In this journey of mine
When it wasn’t so much the where
Than with whom
Hardly in my prime
And with things far from fine
I just didn’t care
Who was in my bedroom
Sleeping Around
Try
as I
may
With
all
of my
might
I
have
no
idea
Where
I’ll
sleep
tonight
(Originally Posted 14.07.2020)
The last link
Has been ripped away
Our final tether
Is now severed
And all I can hear
Is your voice
Telling me how
I really should have done better
Xxx
If you ever need anything
Or you find youself stuck
Remember not to call me
As I don’t give a fuck
It was only in losing you
Forever
That I truly found myself
Xxx
Mired in madness
Subsumed in sadness
Buried here forever
Lost to blackness
All those years
I’ll never get back
Not that it matters
Now I’ve faded to black
All
that
I am
Is all
that I
feel
And
I feel
nothing
I’m not
scared
of youI’m
scared
of meNow
I’m
lostIn
this
insanity
It
just
fucking
hurts
I got lost on my
eighth birthday.
Sometimes
I wonder
what would’ve
happened,
if I’d never
been found.
If
only
I knew
what to do
I
would
not be so
reliant on you
If
only
I knew
how to grieve
It
would be
so much easier
to let you leave
If
only
I knew
who to be
I’d
thank you
for your help
then set you free