Ten Years Too Late

If only you

Could see me now

I’m sure

That you’d be proud

I think you’d agree

I’m as I should be

And you’d say you love me

Out loud

Unworthy

It seems as if

You’ve missed me

And my morbid tales

Of woe

Yet how anyone

Could miss

This pretentious

Bullshit

I will never know

Am I
supposed
to feel
something?

Because
I don’t

Am I
supposed
to thank
you?

Because
I won’t

I wish I could
take your plaudit

But I just write
what comes to me

My inability
to self edit

Laid bare for
all to see

Please
take no
notice
of me

For I’m
as fucked
as anyone
can be

So don’t
let what
I write
enthrall

As it
is just
words,
after all