Left Puzzled

Complicated relationships

May be all I’ve ever known

Yet it seems the baggage

That you come along with

By far outweighs my own


Tussle

I don’t want to just be friends

I don’t want to let this go

You may be able to walk away

But this is all I know

(Originally Posted 01.02.2021)

Crying Is Definitely For Me

“Raindrops keep falling on my head”

As that old sentimentalist croons

Well for me,

It’s not just raindrops

It’s a slew of fucking monsoons


Left Guessing

Time moves on

Yet I’m stood still

Fading away

Losing the will

As each second

Passes me by

I can’t seem to forget

Or stop asking why

(Originally Posted 19.01.2021)

The Dance

Another well meaning question

Asked way too expectantly

Answered without hesitation

Although far too respectfully


Tight Lipped

I am
not
trying
to be
mean

Or to
cause
yet
another
scene

So before
my fuse
is well
and truly
blown

Please
just piss
off and
leave me
alone

(Originally Posted 26.10.2019)

I’ll Find Out For Myself

It doesn’t matter

Who I ask

No one can answer me

So three years in

It’s time to begin

Living independently


?

What did I do
to deserve this?

Why did this
happen to me?

Where will
I end up now?

Who is coming
to save me?

(Originally Posted 30.09.2019)

Round And Round In Circles

I guess

Looking back

You can’t be sure

Why you did the things you did

Reflection, it seems,

Isn’t for the dead

It is the curse

For those who live


Happy

I
miss
you

I
miss
us

I wish we
could just
go back

To
how it
was

Before
all
of this

Before
things turned
to shit

And we
were
happy

Because
we were
happy

I
was
happy

Wasn’t I?

(Originally Posted 13.09.2019)

Buy Cheap Buy Twice

If only I had a pound

For each session that started like this

I wouldn’t need a whip-round

For a better therapist


On The Couch

What’s worrying you today,

He asks.

Everything,

I reply.

(Originally Posted 14.08.2020)

At Stonehenge

I met him on the Solstice

Many, many moons ago

There amongst the stones I thought

He looks to be in the know

So I asked him that question

The one you see below

But alas, he shook his head and said

‘I just go with the flow’


The Sage

Tell me
how
you do
it

She
said

How
do you
stay so
strong

I
don’t
really
know

He
said

I make
it up
as
I go
along

(Originally Posted 22.06.2020)

‘Perhaps, Perhaps, Perhaps’

You didn’t give me

An answer then

And I doubt that you could now

But that doesn’t mean

I’m not still wondering

If one day you will, somehow


The Hardest Question Of All

If
it’s
not you

And
it isn’t
not me

Then who
the fuck

Is it
supposed
to be?

(Originally Posted 12.05.2020)

Same Time Next Week

I’ve said this many times

Mainly to my psychiatrist

For it is he who,

In my opinion,

Sould remain the quietest


No Idea

Stop asking me questions

When you are in no way prepared for the answers

(Originally Posted 01.05.2019)

Answers

Never
Of course not
I shouldn’t think so
Don’t be stupid
Obviously not
You should
You won’t
Fuck knows
Of course
Yes


Questions

When does this pain end?
Have I not suffered enough?
Will things ever change?
Does time heal everything?
Am I done?
Do I care?
Shall I?
Go where?
Alone?
Forever?

(Originally Posted 20.03.2019)

Candour

What is more important

She said

Being kind or telling the truth

For if it’s the latter

Then I cannot flatter

And your ego I will not soothe

#12 The Worrier

Does it matter

If I do

Or don’t

Should it matter

If I will

Or won’t

Why can’t it be easy

To decide

Without strain

When will I stop

Churning it over

Again

Faithless

You say you’re ever loving

Yet your cruelty holds no bounds

If you care as much

As they tell me

Then why do you make me frown

Any Advice?

How on earth do you cope

He asked

With all the loneliness

You don’t have any choice

She said

When you’ve got no one left

Cloth Ears

Why would you ask me

A question

If you don’t want to hear

What I say

It really is fucking

Annoying

That you feel you can treat me

This way

Raiding The Fridge

What the fuck

Are you still doing up

Don’t you know

It’s quarter past four?

Well of course I do

But it’s nothing new

To find I can’t sleep

Anymore

‘A New Hope’

I don’t want to go back, actually

My old normal kinda sucked

Whereas my life now

Doesn’t seem somehow

So irrevocably fucked

Finally

I wonder what you’ll all say,

When I finally go away.

I wonder what you’ll all think,

When off into the shadows I slink.

I wonder if you’ll all stop and stare,

When you finally realise I’m no longer there.

(Originally Posted 25.06.2019)

Who Am I?

I think that I forgot myself

Somewhere along the way

So not only have I lost you

I’ve got a whole life to replay

(Originally Posted 28.07. 2019)

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At this point I just want to feel

It matters not what or who

But this world has lost its appeal

So what is a girl to do?

Vaya Con Dios

Is this why we were put here

She said

To worship his favourite son?

I’m fucked if I know

He said

So let’s just have some fun

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